I have very good control of the muscles in my head. I can move the top of my scalp (hair going back and forth about three inches) and nose- and earlobes individually and stuff like that. Think of it as a Jim Carrey face, able to contort into crazy expressions.
This also leads to me being able to induce a head-ache in myself by pulling certain muscles tight. It literally feels like I'm pushing my brain against the front of my skull.
I can 'see' the individual light receptors in my eyes. If I focus I see the image of the outside world coming in as all these tiny little pin pricks of light; the resolution of my eyes if you will.
I have the mad skill of being able to properly use a semi-colon.
Labyrinth said:
The_Logician19 said:
There's a part of my mind that analyzes anything and everything I see, hear, touch, ect. I like to think of it as a two way filter; I unconsciously analyze almost everything, as well as my own actions; I'm always thinking about the reprocussions of everything I do (and on an almost freaky scale; while I was really deep in my depression, I could think of several ways every single thing I could do would end up in the world being destroyed. No, seriously). This also sometimes leads to me rambling about one thing or another, which pisses my grandmother off to all hell; she seems to think I'm faking all this (which, in turn, pisses me off to all hell. Needless to say we aren't on speaking terms right now.) Sometimes this happens so fast that I don't remember how I came to a conclusion, just that I did. I get the feeling that my mind is always working, and that I can't shut it off; I tried once, and I got a feeling like droplets of water hitting a sink.
I also have a vivid imagination, leading to some freaky-ass dreams; I would almost swear I saw Jupiter (which, buy the way, was really freaky).
Solidarity, brother, on the constant analysis and vivid imagination. I've often found myself just staring off into nothing and contemplating the extent of repercussions for what I did earlier in the day. It freaks people out.
I get this too, but a little differently. Though I get the staring into the void thing as well.
I often overthink stuff and end up with replies that are three or four hops of logic away from the current topic. It happends automatically, my brain makes these connections instantly. This causes me to be very withdrawn, usually afraid of saying anything because people will think I'm weird. During a conversation I can often be found smiling at my thoughts, unable to talk, for explaining what is so funny usually takes half an hour and people just lose the trail, get bored and start ignoring me altogether.
In short, I have to shut myself down to be able to socialize, it feels to me like being a zombie... It is very tiring work. Generally I just try to act (as in stage acting) around other people like I think someone would behave, which has nothing to do with what's actually going on in my head. I need alcohol to get through parties, simply so I can dump myself in the backseat and let the car go on cruise control.
