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[killcheese]

i need to write somewhere, holy fuck. What happens to high school grads who dont go to college? are you going to be a fuck up no matter what? all my friends got into some nice school and have parents who can pay for them, what about the dumb ass losers who cant get in and spend months looking for and failing at getting jobs. I have no idea what it going on anymore. I have not self medicated in two years but today i really felt i needed to. If i was with any friends who smoke i would have. I dont want to start again though, when i think of getting high i think of draining out the shit life is shoving up my ass. The only good part is the rest of my family are doing great, one sister in med school, another a teacher, dad is a dick but nothing new there, and mom cancer free. I feel like shit and its getting harder to try to shrug it off. I feel like a fuck up to be and dont know what to do. I cant sleep anymore so i play video games all night, which i will be doing after writing this. If you are still reading this then holy fuck thats crazy, i would have stopped long ago, like the third line.

 

[NeutralDrow]

...reported out of necessity, but I'll point out that only half of Americans attend college anyway, and people do seem to do passably without it.

 

[Pimppeter2]

Hate to say it, but you've kind of put yourself in this position haven't you?

Join the Army or some shit, or just try to do the best that you can with what you have.

 

[Pegghead]

And the discussion value is? Btw mods don't look too kindly on rage threads.

 

[crimson5pheonix]

Erm, do you have low grades? If so, join the Army or something. If you're just too late to apply to colleges right now, wait a year. It's not a big deal.

 

[rockingnic]

Don't feel so bad. When I graduated high school, I could only afford (money wise) go to a community college although I was accepted to to a couple institutions. Those, though, cost at least $25k a year just for tuition. ALL of my high school friends went to those schools though because they weren't lazy like me and got full scholarships for at least 4 years. I haven't really hanged out with them since the last summer before they went away. My only friends I have is at work and that's ONLY at work which sucks. It's my only motivation to work alot or else I would be extremely depressed. At the end of the day, I feel like I'm going nowhere, where everyone else seems to be going somewhere in their life. I just try to be as positive as possible or I'll just cave.

 

[Ziadaine_v1legacy]

Sounds like my situation entirely. Get into a Trade/Apprenticeship (Which basically starts you off fresh), Military if your fit-ish and clean up your image, resume and "kindly" pester employees to hire you in fields of your interest.

 

[Rylot]

Don't give up man. Life is a strange trip with a lot of detours. You never know what'll happen tomorrow let alone ten years down the road.

Off topic: What the hell did cheese ever do to you?