purf said:
The thing is: The decisions will affect YOU.
Very much this. Spoiler-free version of my experience... I started playing the game from a cold, logical perspective, essentially treating Clem's survival like an optimization problem. I was kind to and honest with her, but when it came down to any decision, my thought process was little more than, "Which action can I take that maximizes Clem's chances of survival while minimizing her chances of being harmed." But one event in the game essentially called me out on this kind of behavior, and it
completely changed the way I looked at and played the game. I made decisions in the later episodes that would have been unthinkable to me in the earlier ones.
It was the pitchfork murder on the farm. My thought process at the time was totally lucid: I didn't murder the guy for revenge, or because I was angry, or whatever. I did it because I knew I needed to go in the house, and I decided that leaving the brother alive when he could potentially interfere was too great a risk. But when Clem witnessed it and screamed... holy shit, that changed my perspective on everything completely. It made me think a lot about what sort of example I was setting by doing these things. I'd essentially reduced myself to be just as horrible as the zombies or as the farmers themselves--the logic that justified murdering someone to prevent the possibility of him interfering with me later could easily justify the cannibalism they (initially) only engaged in as a means to survival. From that point forward, it's not like I did anything I considered really reckless, but I was very aware of the human element when before I had not been. When she asked me why I'd killed the guy, I flat out told her I'd made the wrong decision. I really felt that as a player.
Specifically with Ben. I swore up and down I would leave or murder that son of a ***** after the Carley incident. His other actions (running from Clem and the zombies, the wrench, getting drunk with Kenny) only intensified that. But when it came down to it... I couldn't. I thought about voting him out, but when Clem voted for him to stay, I ended up agreeing with her. And when the "opportunity" presented itself for me to drop him--Clem wasn't there to see, he begged me to do it, I still kind of wanted to--I couldn't do it. I just couldn't. (Edit: His epic "fuck you" speech to Kenny later on redeemed him 100% in my eyes.)
Also I really wish there were an "open all spoilers in this thread" button.