What are you escaping from?
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eh most of my time that I spend off is looking for a quick fix of fantasy to leave my stressful life and relax a bit so I spend a lot of time either here, youtube, or DeviantArt.
I?m not so much running as looking for something.
Life?s not so bad and really it?s far from uninteresting but there?s a certain mundanely in day to day life, a lot of time to fill. So I fill that time with imaginary worlds, my own and other peoples because they are interesting and entertaining. It?s taking bits of reality, our experiences and making something else out of it by twisting and playing with it.
Life?s not so bad and really it?s far from uninteresting but there?s a certain mundanely in day to day life, a lot of time to fill. So I fill that time with imaginary worlds, my own and other peoples because they are interesting and entertaining. It?s taking bits of reality, our experiences and making something else out of it by twisting and playing with it.
My soul-crushing, utterly meaningless excuse for a job (complete with a big pile of fakers, of which I am by necessity one, a whole lot of ridiculous and childish politics, and cubes the size of a porto-potty inside a massive complex with bad lighting) that I have no choice but to do if I don't want to live in a cardboard box.
The cardboard box is sounding exceedingly appealing. Stay in school, kids, and really do what you actually want to do with your life.
The cardboard box is sounding exceedingly appealing. Stay in school, kids, and really do what you actually want to do with your life.
The loss of my lover. She's with another man now. but iam slowly making my peace with it all. il soon be in the military pursuing my dreams but i think she might always be there in the back of my mind an the corner of my heart. Take care ica 
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Teasing. Several students at my school constantly tease me and make me feel like a piece of shit under a person's foot. At least on the Escapist, people sympathize with me more than my own family really does. They just tell me that I'm being to sensitive and to ignore them. When I say I can't ignore them, they say I'm not trying. I do try, but I can't. And let me just say that when you are told for about seven years that you're ugly, talentless, stupid, and annoying by the people that always surround you, you begin to believe it.
Escapist is pretty much the only place that I feel I can talk openly about something and know that there will be many to give me advice and show support.
Escapist is pretty much the only place that I feel I can talk openly about something and know that there will be many to give me advice and show support.
Life, boring, boring life where you daydream about aliens attacking your school and then friendly aliens give you a rifle so that you can kill the bad aliens. REAL LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn someone just said what I have been feeling for these 3 mths. My black hole also has the emotions and pain of the past plus the unending stress of the 8th circle of hell that is called my jobAris Khandr said:
Boredom.
And for a time to forget a girl, it's not a problem whenever I do something, be it working out, doing stuff with my friends or anything else really, but when I sit and do nothing the blasted witch crawls back into my skull.
I'm getting better though, got my mojo back 'n all, so a few weeks more and it should finally be a done chapter. At least for some time.
And for a time to forget a girl, it's not a problem whenever I do something, be it working out, doing stuff with my friends or anything else really, but when I sit and do nothing the blasted witch crawls back into my skull.
I'm getting better though, got my mojo back 'n all, so a few weeks more and it should finally be a done chapter. At least for some time.
Fuckin' anxiety disorders, how do they work?
Many aspects of adult and student life can be borderline panic inducing for me. I think it's fair to say most people pursue this hobby for the escapism element, whether they're conscious of that or not. It's very inviting and enveloping and let's you leave the world behind like nothing else. Waking up from a gaming binge can be a terrible feeling.
But you know what? You're way worse off than I am. You, sir, have every right to tune out for a good long while. I'm getting back to work. I'm hitting post and closing this browser right the fuck down.
Many aspects of adult and student life can be borderline panic inducing for me. I think it's fair to say most people pursue this hobby for the escapism element, whether they're conscious of that or not. It's very inviting and enveloping and let's you leave the world behind like nothing else. Waking up from a gaming binge can be a terrible feeling.
But you know what? You're way worse off than I am. You, sir, have every right to tune out for a good long while. I'm getting back to work. I'm hitting post and closing this browser right the fuck down.
Let's see...hmmm...this could take a while
My mother's ability to make me feel inadequate in every way (which includes making me feel as if my grades aren't good enough, my weight isn't good enough, I'll never measure up to my brother just because he's male, she doesn't like the fact that I'm not a red-head, and she hates that I want to be a writer instead of a teacher...the list goes on)
My step father's COPD which is slowing killing him since he won't stop smoking
My mother's series of illnesses which doesn't seem to be killing her but is extremely inconvienct and might possibly cripple her someday leaving me the only one capable of caring for her.
The feeling of anxiety and fear towards the future because I don't know what to do with my life.
A best friend whom I never get to talk to because she lives across the continent and her internet conncetion is shit.
My social anxiety, my general depression,my generalized anxiety over death, the loss of loved ones, and growing up to be an unloved spinster, my memories of the past which include years of emotional and mental abuse from my parents, thoughts of my real father who would have preferred me dead, and not to mention the occasional nightmares that I still get at 23 that include people getting tortured and electrocuted.
This is just the tip of the iceberg.
Yes, my mind is a diseased playground.
My mother's ability to make me feel inadequate in every way (which includes making me feel as if my grades aren't good enough, my weight isn't good enough, I'll never measure up to my brother just because he's male, she doesn't like the fact that I'm not a red-head, and she hates that I want to be a writer instead of a teacher...the list goes on)
My step father's COPD which is slowing killing him since he won't stop smoking
My mother's series of illnesses which doesn't seem to be killing her but is extremely inconvienct and might possibly cripple her someday leaving me the only one capable of caring for her.
The feeling of anxiety and fear towards the future because I don't know what to do with my life.
A best friend whom I never get to talk to because she lives across the continent and her internet conncetion is shit.
My social anxiety, my general depression,my generalized anxiety over death, the loss of loved ones, and growing up to be an unloved spinster, my memories of the past which include years of emotional and mental abuse from my parents, thoughts of my real father who would have preferred me dead, and not to mention the occasional nightmares that I still get at 23 that include people getting tortured and electrocuted.
This is just the tip of the iceberg.
Yes, my mind is a diseased playground.
My family and my outlook. To me life wont get good until I'm 24, until then I have games to distract me.
Homework. It doesn't seem all that bad compared to everybody elses problems but...it doesn't make me feel any better. Theres just something extremely appealing about putting a few more hours into New Vegas when your other option is study for tommorow's math test.