What now?

[MoNKeyYy]

Well, might as well jump right into it.

I've been pretty depressed for the last three months almost (in two days to be exact. That was the day of my first big emotional breakdown) on end. The only time there's been anything even resembling a break is when I've made short trips into the outdoors; whenever I come back to my life it hits again, full force. I've had nervous/emotional breakdowns with startling regularity, my hands shake, I get cold, I hyperventalate, and I usually start to break down and cry. The depression is starting to effect basically everything about my life - my schoolwork, my performance in sports, my diet (I've been eating less and less), my sleep pattern, my personal relationships etc. Earlier I said pretty depressed becasue I don't know how severe it actually is. It's worse than anything I've ever experienced but I've never really had anything like this so I wouldn't know.

Anyways, I have no idea what to do. I don't know who to trust, I have no idea who my real friends are, I have no idea who to turn to, I've never felt so alone and worst of all I'm making a ***** of myself to anonymous people on the internet =P But in all seriousness, where do I go from here? How have you all dealt with depression? What should I do?

EDIT: Also someone I know brought up that it might be clinical and I've also considered it, but I don't really know anything about it. Thoughts?

 

[Nopodop]

I suffering a similar problem. I haven't really been dealing with it in any way but it seems to have subsided a bit. But I'm just a 14 year old. so what would I know?

 

[King of the Sandbox]

Yeah, them's some psychological issues right there.

I suggest professional counseling. Way better than most of the advice you'll get here.

 

[ailsarocks]

Aww this sounds pretty bad! My advice is to talk to your friends or family about it. Parents give the best advice even if you don't agree with it at first.

Also speak to your doctor... they will be able to suggest various ways to deal with it.

I hope you feel better soon

 

[Frezz]

I dealt with this kind of breakdown a few years ago, and I can't possibly overemphasize how important it is to find someone to talk to about it, a friend, a teacher, parents, someone. I'd definitely suggest talking to a professional counselor if you can, a neutral party can be invaluable, and they can also tell you with a little more certainty whether or not what you're going through is the result of a clinical condition. I know meds helped me, but the counseling is the most important part. Psychiatrists are legally obligated to keep conversations private, and that sense of security can really be helpful in sorting things out if you're not sure where to turn. Best of luck to you. c: