Zetsubou said:
I have a problem connecting with people, and being alone with people I don't know. It rather sucks.
nah that's kinda me as well. i totally get it myself, but i know what you mean in why ppl say "wtf" to it, sadly..
also, i love your pic..Princess Mononoke was amazing..one of my favorite anime's
OT: i'm not really sure..honestly there isn't much other than just how i dress. i'm kind of a loner, sometimes even when with my friends, but most of the time with ppl i know 'm pretty active and happy, other than that..i'm a brooder..i wish to be left alone, but hate being alone..i'm stubborn and have a dark mind, as well as being an optamistic pessamist..it doesn't help with always being depressed but still trying to be happy and strong for my friends, because i know that when they need me to be strong for them, i have to find a way to make it seem like i am for them...it sucks sometimes, cuz i can't focus on myself first. i feel like a total asshole that doesn't deserve to have friends, and then i CAN'T make things betetr for myself or anybody else..and i'm stuck in a 17 foot hole with no way out and no way to shout for help..and have to try and get out of the hole by myself and...
*take a huge breath*
i'm a mess to be honest..i hate myself for it, but i can't change..people know me as a strong person who always is there to help and never in trouble and never hurt..when in truth i'm the opposite, i just know i have to be strong for them..my friends are the few people that make life worth living anymore..they are my only reason to keep getting up in the mornings..again i'm a brooder, sorry for dampening the mood of this thread..i do apologize, however, i do figure that as long as i have faith in my friends, there's always a reason to live and always a reason to keep fighting and just taking all the hits that life deals. that's why i'm always strong for them, even when i can't be for my own sanity..i find a way, and i find a reason.