Joined some societies for uni this year, didn't join sports societies again because I learnt from last year: I suck at any and all sports, and although I don't necessarily hate sporty people, I don't usually blend very well with them. Mostly due to being short, fat and hairy while they're all living greek gods. I must look like a filthy mortal to them.
The football society annoyed me a little. They kept asking me whether I wanted to join. Again, short, fat, hairy, I obviously wouldn't get anywhere in football society.
In fact, the whole society fair made me uncomfortable. It'll be awkward when friends notice I haven't rejoined to things that didn't go so well, and start asking why. And there were so many people and so much noise around. I don't really like crowds when I'm not drunk, and even then, I only find them easier to tolerate.
The cheerleader society made me feel really awkward. Typically, of course. Pretty girls+awkward 20+ virgin nerd=complete terror. I've always suspected that good looking people see me and vomit in their mouths a little, and in cheerleaders, that fear is made worse by my partly factually founded suspicion that there'll be followed closely by large, angry boyfriends.
So yeah. All that socially awkward stuff. And now I'm dwelling on it, like somehow, I done something wrong, or am doing something wrong, or that I just am "something wrong". Bah. I'm going to play some videogames.