I'm trying to reconcile my life, and my perceived shortcomings. I have always had a firm belief in an afterlife, and I also believe I'm a powerful being, in relation to the spiritual realm (think Bleach, but not nearly as absurd).
On the surface, I'm a regular person, with regular problems, normal life scars, and healthy, loving relationships with family and friends. And yet I want to believe I am extraordinary, as though I'm still making up for feeling left out as a kid, or for not having wicked talent in something like music or writing.
I don't know if I can ever bring myself to accept mundane explanations for my existence: I've tried, and not only did it banish the magic of supernatural ideas, but also the magic of wonder and purpose.
Is anyone else as stubborn and immature about facing reality as I am?
On the surface, I'm a regular person, with regular problems, normal life scars, and healthy, loving relationships with family and friends. And yet I want to believe I am extraordinary, as though I'm still making up for feeling left out as a kid, or for not having wicked talent in something like music or writing.
I don't know if I can ever bring myself to accept mundane explanations for my existence: I've tried, and not only did it banish the magic of supernatural ideas, but also the magic of wonder and purpose.
Is anyone else as stubborn and immature about facing reality as I am?