If I turned into my Avatar then I would be playing a live show on Sunday, that I "Rose" was originally going to be present at.
So I would go from watching a show, to playing in the show and all the stress that comes with that...I would rather not change into my avatar, I respect Laura too much, and I need her in my life currently, I couldn't or wouldn't want to be her.
*I did read the OP and avoided the truth because of lack of discussion value, as everyone would have the same answer, which was Sky14kemea's answer.*