Im severely ADHD and im too embarassed to go to a doctor to fix it... its started to ruin my life. Im naturally smart, so for the first 6/7 years of school i could get away with using about 10% of my attention on work and the rest on other things, but now i need to pay attention its starting to destroy me. My friends and girlfriend get angry because my attention wanders SO FAST ALL THE TIME. I cant help it, i just cant, i dont WANT to not pay attention to them, i guinely care what they have to say, something grabs me, my brain drops everything and starts a new focus FOR NO REASON. Its awfull, i have to try and explain why i suddenly get a glazed look so abruptly without giving it away theres something wrong with my head. Im always late for things, i can never plan or schedule, im distracted SO easily that even when i try i fail. I cant pay attention to anything for more than a few mins, maybe thats why im good at and enjoy games. So much happening. I find that when everythings reletively slow paced my attention jumps involunterily.
This is different to not caring or just being bored so my attention wanders. I can feel it happen. It just snaps away to something so suddenly. I forget all social graces and i sometimes just comment on things against my own will when already talking or doing something else. I hate it. I hate it so much.
Im a little scared. Will my employers thing theres something wrong with me? Will anyone see but me? Do the drugs really work? Will it change who i am? I dont know, this is the first time ive said any of this. Nice to have it off my chest a little...