Your impending death

[blankedboy]

Only about once a month. Not that much of an issue for me, but I am eager to see what comes afterwards.

 

[snowman6251]

I've never been in a situation where I've had to face my own mortality. The only time I even think about it is when I debate joining the Army after college (which really will be determined by my experience at college and the availability of jobs).

So no I really don't think about. I know I'm going to die someday, I just don't want it to be before I feel I've accomplished what I wanted to accomplish in this life.

Also not believing in an afterlife doesn't exactly make death all that appealing.

 

[Mr.Mattress]

I think about it but I am pretty sure I am gonna have a great life: Either as an Animator or Politician. And both those jobs will get me remembered somehow.

 

[Kialee]

I don't put much thought into it.
It's going to happen eventually, and worrying about it isn't going to make me any younger.
I'd be a filthy liar if I said I wasn't curious about how or when, though.

 

[swolf]

Only about once a month. Not that much of an issue for me, but I am eager to see what comes afterwards.

You get cleaned up by a mortician, you're family says their final goodbyes, they put you in an over-priced box, and either put you under ground or in an incinerator. Oh, you meant after that? I've got no idea...

I've thought about it occasionally. Sometimes while driving, when I trained, or at a funeral. I've even considered writing one of those "Don't open until I die" letters (haven't yet). I guess I figure that it could be read at my memorial service (I plan on being cremated. It's cheaper and wastes less space). Anyways, I figure it would help in the mourning process and be a way to say my "final goodbyes" if I don't have the chance to do so while I'm dying. Also, if I died before my daughter was grown, it would be something from her father that she could keep, y'know? Like, to let everyone know how much I loved them, to let them know that I had a full and enjoyable life, and to tell the people that owed me money that they can give that money to my wife who will place it in my daughter's college fund. Also, if they don't repay that money, I will haunt them.

 

[gristledemon]

whats funny is I am a very happy person... all pointless random jokes and smiles... but yeah i think about dying all the time ahahhahaha
comically my own death really does not bother me more the effect it will have on others.
i seem to have always been this way as my mom told me a few years back that i was a very morbid baby. ahahahhahahahahahha its true i'v bother to ask other family members and it seems i talked abotu things dying alot once i could talk. not really sure what to make of it but yeah death is something to think about alot... like life and nothing. its worth pondering. well worth pondering as much as anything can be... so its everything, nothing, or somewhere inbetween depending on your personal take.


wow ok
Queen michael
i'm kinda with you on that.. sometimes tho... not OCd bipolar tho so it changes
i used to be big into lucid dreaming so i loved sleep back then... sorry start from beginning i used to NOT sleep when i was little cus i had fucked up nightmares... got into lucid dreaming... no nightmares but i liked sleep to much.... teenager i was sick i sleep cus there was so much to do
now..... depends... i enjoy sleep as a way to chill and sort out all the bull that happens in life.. and not think as u say. but at the same time... i really feel like i'm wasting time when i'm asleep.

snowman6251
wow the fact there is no after life is the only thing i actually look forward to about death. if it turns out there is life after death i am gonna be pisssssssssed!

hahah nice topic QM

 

[AndyFromMonday]

There's a huge wall of text in that spoiler tag. It explains why I'm so afraid of death and what this fear has caused me.

Spoiler

I'm terrified of death. I am afraid of the concept of simply not being and I simply cannot gasp it. I know the example of "well, when you were born you didn't care about not existing" but that didn't help and will never help. I also cannot understand how can people say life has no meaning without death. To me, living forever is a choice I would gladly take. I don't want to live a billion years or a trillion years, but forever. Anytime there's the concept of dying in there I simply want to ignore it.

What I'm afraid of the most is not experiencing this world any longer. I love the world, I truly do. The fact that I am able to experience it is a wonderful thing and I'm terrified of eventually dying and never being able to do so again. I guess this also has to do with aging, as with each passing year I stop doing certain things and start doing other. I imagine old age as the time you stop caring about anything other than preparing for your inevitable soon to be death. I cannot imagine what I will do at old age, because I cannot imagine myself being old.

I think of sleep as a temporary death. A few hours in which I am in no way aware of my sorroundings. I do not know what's happening with me or with the outside world and I might die right there not having the ability to say goodbye. The fact that I enter a deep state of darkness(Since when you sleep, you practically don't feel nothing. It's like you're not even there)during those few hours terrifies me. I am afraid of sleeping. I am afraid of sleeping because during sleep I am in complete darkness.

I've always taken things for granted as a kid and I suppose all kids do that. The few moments I thought about death I quickly tried to ignore it, comforting myself that I'm still far away from old age and eventually death. As the years passed I suddenly started to become more and more aware of my own mortality. I will eventually die, I will eventually leave this world and plunge into darkness and that scares the living shit out of me. I'm getting closer and closer to experiencing the unknown that is death and as much as it's far away it's also near. What if I die from an accident? What if I die from disease? What if I won't get to reach 30? All of these things worry me because all of these things can bring an abrupt end to my existence and I cannot handle that.

I consider death a disease, a disease that robs me of my ability to enjoy this world for as long as I want to. It's the worst kind of disease as there's nothing you can do to stop it. You can run away from it, perhaps with the help of medicine manage to outrun it for a bit but it will always catch up to you.

An active mind is a busy mind. Whenever I do something that requires the least amount of concentration I forget completely about death. I focus on the moment at hand and nothing else. A bored mind tends to wonder about and think of concepts it cannot fully understand. I suppose that is the reason I am so afraid of my mortality, it's because I've been thinking so much about it. I look at other people and see how they think nothing of their impending demise and I realize, those people have a way more active life than I do. Their minds are always at work, never having the time to ponder this concept.

This sudden realization of my mortality has, like I've said before, made me fear and think of death more than a normal person should. My curiosity of biology has lead me to discover illnesses and more importantly terminal illnesses which, due to researching the symptoms and sometimes experiencing something akin to them has led me to develop a severe form of hypocondria. I fear for my life everyday. I feared I had a heart problem and got myself an EKG and a full check up just to be sure. Of course, getting rid of one fear only makes place for another. My curiosity has led me to the tubes of the 'net once again and I came upon the condition known has brain tumor. I read up on the symptoms, realized that I experienced some of them and imediately concluded that I had a brain tumor. I was so scarred that I cried at nights due to fear that I'd die. I developed OCD like behavior, frequently checking said symptoms every night, just to be sure.

Reading up on brain tumors led me to discover strokes. My OCD got even worse, experiencing panic attacks every night whenever I'd notice something suspicious. Every headache, every blurry eye, every sort of resemblance to numbness in any part of my body and the attacks started. My OCD-like behavior seems to have been getting worse lately, has I seem to develop new ways of checking for signs of a stroke. This has lead to anxiety disorder, depression and stress which I believe is what's 'causing my constant headaches. It's getting worse and worse everyday and the thought of not being able to do anything about this is driving me insane. During the day I'm your average go lucky guy but my mind seems to ponder things I don't want it to ponder during the night, when there's nothing to ponder about.

And there we have it folks, curiosity killed the cat. I had to do this, if only to take my mind off things for just a few minutes.

Dang. I guess you and I are opposites, I have OCD too (of another kind), but I like sleeping because sleeping means I don't have to think about that anymore. It keeps me from being suicidal to know that I'll get to die temporarily for a while every day.

The thing with me is that I also have suicidal thoughts. My fear of death is what keeps my suicidal thoughts in check but my fear of death is what's 'causing all of my problems. So, in a sense losing my fear of death would either solve all my problems or get rid of the last thing that's keeping me from committing suicide.

 

[bubba145]

with me it will probably be one of three ways.
1. on a battlefield leading my men.
2. in an accident in my future factory.
3. of old age in bed.

 

[Queen Michael]

I think about it but I am pretty sure I am gonna have a great life: Either as an Animator or Politician. And both those jobs will get me remembered somehow.

Long-term, nobody gets remembered.

 

[Mr.Mattress]

I think about it but I am pretty sure I am gonna have a great life: Either as an Animator or Politician. And both those jobs will get me remembered somehow.

Long-term, nobody gets remembered.

Well I don't see Humans dieing out in the near or far future, and everyone seem's to remember a lot of historical things: Nursery Rhymes and Stories, Music, Math, Architecture, History.

 

[Betancore]

I get that quite often. I can't help but realise my own mortality. It doesn't bother me very much because I suppose I can accept it. I just try to bullshit myself into thinking it won't be very painful at all.

 

[ImprovizoR]

From time to time I start having those thoughts. That thinking session usually end with me in peace with my mortality. I'm very zen about that.

 

[Riobux]

When I usually have those thoughts, it's usually tied in with "one day I will be truly happy". I can see it happening, honestly. Where once I'm actually happy with life, then I'll die or get given a death sentence for a few more months, if that.

 

[TimeLord]

I won't die, I will regenerate.

Still feels like dying though. And then some other man goes sauntering off and I'm dead.

 

[Chogg Van Helsing]

Not too often. I'm somewhat immortal.

But thanks anyway.

Wow, thats exactly my plan of thinking! lol. But when I do think about death, I think about more the afterwards. I don't believe in anything, or rather can't, so I just imagine ultimate nothing for eternity, then I think it wouldn't be that coz i couldnt exist! I can't imagine not existing and it is very scary to me.

 

[wooty]

Personally, I dont think its the fact that we are going to die thats important, but more the manner in which we die.

 

[Just_A_Glitch]

It doesn't bother me. Everyone lives, everyone dies. Death truly is the ultimate equalizer, as no one is immune to it.

I also (kind of) believe in a form of reincarnation, so I figure once this life is up, I've got more coming, which isn't always a pleasant thought.

 

[rabidmidget]

I occasionally get those kind of thoughts, sometimes I merely think "meh, I have most of a lifetime until then", although occasionally it leads to a short panic attack where I can't stop thinking about the fact that eventually I will die and my entirety will cease to exist.

Fuck I almost went into one then.