Your True Self

[Blair Bennett]

Any other day I would have said I was the same, for the most part, in real life. Accepting, perhaps, the fact that I find much more ease in explaining my opinions through text than actual conversation.

However, today I sort of realized that I am much more withdrawn from conversation in general, and have difficulty discussing serious issues in person than I am online. In addition to this, it's a lot easier to stifle one's annoying tendency to start yelling when one becomes overly excited by a given topic. It's not that I become angry, so much as I become incapable of controlling the volume of my voice. I don't know why this is, since, for all intents and purposes, it's a horrible trait that I've been trying to remedy for several years now, but it's a reality.

Online, however, I find that I'm much more clinical, as well as much more adept at explaining or discussing a given concept. In all honesty, oft have I wanted to speak and act more like I do online, and more specifically, on this forum.

 

[yoyo13rom]

Just something I wanted to ask to the general Escapist people.

First of all, that's quite a terrific question if you ask me.

Who or what is the true you?

I must you right there with a little side note: at the time being I'm not even sure how or what the true me is. I mean I'm still forming my personality and my moral values. I used to be a really nice, do-gooder, pacifistic, all loving goofy little kid, but that all drastically changed after I first tasted victory and became obsessed with it. I wanted to be on first place in every department. And so my pride began to grow. It reached a level at which I wasn't going to do anything that didn't express how cool I am.

Now for some fun facts about this pride of mine:
-it drove me to do really good things, such as lose weight and do sports(swimming, tennis, skying, hiking, karate, you name it although I think that's about it), learn good in school(I was known and respected by all the teachers and my values were recognised even by the seniors)
-it was only to prove to myself that I could do things; I never wanted to show anyone how awesome I am(because I though those "lowlifes" couldn't even comprehend my "genius")
Oh and the really funny part is that I used my rough exterior to hide a really scared and shy me, for the world.

But then I realised how much of a loner I was, and how much I craved human contact, and this was the first nail in my "Depression Coffin". The next were:
-my first "love"(she was like a mini me, and if you've paid attention you know how much pride and narcissism I had) which I never even had the chance to kiss; she turned out to be quite suicidal(just like I was about to become) and unfortunately I doubt that anything I did to make her better worked(she moved out of the country)
-the second was my second GF(she turned out to be a bisexual, unloyal cheater, that admitted to have been a satanist)
-the third (you guessed it), a girlfriend with cancer(although I met her after I had began treating my depression, and she got sick when I was getting better); FYI she lived and is quite happy with her life, oh and now we're just friends(actually she may have forgotten about me);

Anyway skipping the boring, depressing part, I feel terrific now and I'm less of a egocentric-overachiever, but I'm still now sure how the true me is(and I doubt I'll find out any time soon).

Do you substantially change your personality for the internet and if so, why? Or do you like to be honest and stay like you are normally when on here and also, if so why?

Ow...hoho! Here comes some more crazy.
I don't lie on the internet/Escapist about my life(and I rarely turn away from dropping a bag of "my life"-text-diarrhoea), but I lie many times about my opinions.
Why? Because many of them(I realised that a list would be too long) would get me banned or at the very least provoke a very bad vibe from the community. Momentarily I don't wish to leave this community so why risk leaving, by expressing myself freely?

So, Escapist, what is the true you like?

To sum things up: I don't know because I'm a shy introverted person that tries to change that part of him, by alternating between egocentric-overachiever and pacifistic, all loving fool.

P.S: Sorry for my atrociously poor writing skills(I make no sense whatsoever, don't I? + I didn't bother to put any comas... sorry), big wall of text, and for wasting your time.

 

[Blackality]

Same person.
Major difference: I don't speak full sentences in English in a casual talk, since i can express myself WAY better in portuguese it can be a big difference. But I don't consider myself made of 2 personalities.

 

[Asturiel]

Maybe.

*PLAN B!*
Pincer attack!

*Calls in the army of Charizards*

Why hasn't anybody thought of mass production of decent pokemon? Honestly.

 

[TheStickman]

I'm pretty much the same, except a lot more open about liking video games because the most pretty much everybody plays around here is Madden. >.>

 

[TheEnglishman]

I cut loose more on the internet, in real life I'm more quieter.

 

[Okuu_Fusion]

I have yet to meet my true self... but my online self is the closest to it...

In reality, Im socially withdrawn...

 

[AgentNein]

Well for one I'm much more honest in anonymous forum communities. In real life, I'm incredibly manipulative, and a big fat liar. It's just my nature. I rarely manipulate people or situations in bad ways though if that makes any sense. It does to me, but as I have shown I normally have a pretty fucked up ethical barometer.

Most of my relationships are started on lies. I find it fun to read people, get an idea of where they're coming from, and play up to it. And it usually works (actually so far I've seen no sign that it doesn't ever work). People think I'm a nice guy, but I don't necessarily agree. I'm a nice guy in that I never try to harm people. But I work situations to my advantage.

This has been a part of my personality since I've been a kid. What can I say?

 

[The Night Shade]

I'm the same as real life i like movies,videogames and i don't talk to much but i like to say my opinion on various things

 

[SeanTheSheep]

Online, I conduct myself in the same way I would in normal life, and I don't see what reason you'd have for not doing so.

The "True" me however, I have no clue what that's like, because I can't bring myself to feel comfortable with anyone, and can never be truly honest with anyone.

 

[zhoominator]

I tend to let others decide what I'm like and I'm sure everybody would say different things. Around most people I'm rather shy but my friends can't shut me up. My boss thinks I'm a conscientious and punctual worker and my mum thinks I'm a lazy oaf who takes forever to get round to doing his ironing. I have no idea where that leaves me to be honest.

 

[Mondai Randy]

the true me is being super nice , a little hardheaded , but someone who cares about people and who likes to see the good in people

 

[Slenn]

I'm definitely more open on this internet site than say Facebook for example. I wish a lot more sites were like this.

 

[ckam]

My true self likes to avoid people, like myself. So I might get back to this later.

 

[aether-x3]

I have two basic personalities. To strangers, I'm very shy and quiet and I have a hard time beginning conversations, to my friends, I'm more outspoken and a bit of a *****, and I will talk a lot. I guess you can say I am the same online and offline. since on the net I also have those two personalities.

[small]Though on the inside I'm an attention whore who wants everyone to pay attention to her and only her, but that's the part of my self that no one really knows, not even my friends[/small]

This probably made no sense.

 

[Julianking93]

I'm the same person irl.

I talk just as much about dicks online as I do offline.

 

[neoontime]

Well the true me is kind of shy and hides things very much.

 

[The Geek Lord]

Look, your title brings up some emo kids in my mind, so before I proceed,
Unfortunatly, I can't say much because the way I act here is the same way I act in real life.

The true self thing is Persona 4. GAWD.[/ocd] And P3 wasn't nearly as bad as FF7. At least the very first line out of a character's mouth wasn't "I don't care what happens to this world " or whatever.

On topic, my "true" self is mostly a lot quieter. So I don't spend all my time RANTING AND RAVING VERY LOUDLY LIKE A JACKASS in real life. Except to my friends. All (two) of which never point it out.

 

[Your once and future Fanboy]

I got both Dyslexia and ADhD, so when i write/post online, i got a lot of typos but i seem more articulate, i think

 

[latenightapplepie]

I'm not quite sure. In real life, I'm more of an anxious, shy, asshole. Online, I can reel it in a bit better.

I'm not sure if there's such a thing as a 'true self', anyway.