The Decapitated Centaur said:
Ezekiel said:
Phasmal said:
I never gave much of a shit about Valentine's Day when I was single.
You weren't single for very long. Maybe after a lifetime it will become a day you'd rather not think about.
How long is 'very long' supposed to be? I was single for 25 years. I didn't care then. People put an obsessive focus on relationships, lot better if you don't.
I'm older than that. I don't obsess over it, but I think about it sometimes. Having only myself as company gets depressing from time to time. Any friendships I've had ended far too quickly. I regret making even the smallest effort, knowing nothing long-lasting would come from it. So, since I can't even maintain basic relationships, I'm not gonna bother with women. I wouldn't date myself either. I'm skinny, below average height, professionally passionless, cynical and boring.
Now and then, I get so sick of myself and desire more, but the feeling fades and is never strong enough to do anything with. Even if I made up my mind to be more receptive and take the initiative, I'd go back to my hold habits and alienate everyone again. Some people think I'm stuck up. My former supervisor said, "No, he's just shy." But maybe they're right. Sometimes I consider leaving internet forums for good and finally isolating myself completely. I'm not getting much out of them. I feel like I'm kidding myself with this internet social life, trying to express myself with my shitty blog and opinionated responses when almost nobody cares anyway. I'm not meant to be around people.
At least if I were a woman, like Phasmal, I'd get a man eventually, probably. I mean, I'm semi-intelligent and average looking. Almost all the expectations, including making the first move, are on the man. An average woman has so many options that she can even be ridiculously choosy. If you're male and a depressive recluse, you're screwed.