I'm lazy about things I know I have to do, but when it comes to it I often say "fuck it". Oddly this mostly only happens when it only benefits me.
Aspects about yourself that you simply hate
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It's been said, but hey these are my flaws I'm talking about, so lazy is a big one. I have extreme difficulty with motivation and have little or no life-aspirations which only makes it harder.
I suppose my biggest issue, though, is my problem with writing. This is particularly relevant as it's been occurring to me in the past few days again, and I can't write what I want to. If I have a dream, it's to produce just one big, popular, fantasy epic; I want to tell a Grand Story. But every time I try, I have this idea, I stick to it for days, weeks, months if I'm lucky, but eventually the result is the same; the idea dies, I lose interest in it and start again with a whole new one. This has been going on since I was a child, and no matter what I do I just can't break it.
I suppose my biggest issue, though, is my problem with writing. This is particularly relevant as it's been occurring to me in the past few days again, and I can't write what I want to. If I have a dream, it's to produce just one big, popular, fantasy epic; I want to tell a Grand Story. But every time I try, I have this idea, I stick to it for days, weeks, months if I'm lucky, but eventually the result is the same; the idea dies, I lose interest in it and start again with a whole new one. This has been going on since I was a child, and no matter what I do I just can't break it.
I hate that I'm so blunt when I talk to people, if someone looks silly, I'll tell them straight up.
I get attached to girls too easily, leading to more hurt than I have any right to feel when things go pear-shaped.
I'm very critical of my own work, and don't see what I produce as anything noteworthy despite being told otherwise.
I'm not good at starting discussions or conversations; I get the feeling nobody really gives a toss what I have to say.
I'm very critical of my own work, and don't see what I produce as anything noteworthy despite being told otherwise.
I'm not good at starting discussions or conversations; I get the feeling nobody really gives a toss what I have to say.
^ This. To the point where I won't care if I fail something because I didn't care about it to begin with. This mentality has cost me a couple of grand worth of failed courses.Daystar Clarion said:
I hate my shyness and lack of initiating conversations; whenever I'm "hanging out" with friends I spend most of the time isolating myself from the group and making the day even worse for everybody.
Also my height (5'5)
Also my height (5'5)
Unmotivated. Mostly when it comes to things that don't have a specific timeline. I don't know how many months I've wasted simply saying "I can do it tomorrow."
And generally, how my friendships with good people tend to turn out. I'm a crappy friend. I'm not anti-social, but I just don't feel compelled to message my friends unless I've got something interesting to tell them. It generally means it becomes a one sided effort, which isn't fair to them. I don't hate my friends by any means, I just... I don't know why I'm like this. I'm just happy to be alone and don't often feel the urge to start up conversations..
..Lost some good friends because of it..
And generally, how my friendships with good people tend to turn out. I'm a crappy friend. I'm not anti-social, but I just don't feel compelled to message my friends unless I've got something interesting to tell them. It generally means it becomes a one sided effort, which isn't fair to them. I don't hate my friends by any means, I just... I don't know why I'm like this. I'm just happy to be alone and don't often feel the urge to start up conversations..
..Lost some good friends because of it..
My self esteem is a problem that I cant seem to find the answer to either, Unrequited love, those sorts of things.
Other than that, im for the most part an introvert, but the only one that seems to have a problem with that is myself, I get worked up thinking "Oh man, I havent hung out with the guys for a while, they are going to be pissed!" and I get greeted with the same old stuff as before and go back to just chillin alone for a while.
So its basicly a problem with accepting myself
Other than that, im for the most part an introvert, but the only one that seems to have a problem with that is myself, I get worked up thinking "Oh man, I havent hung out with the guys for a while, they are going to be pissed!" and I get greeted with the same old stuff as before and go back to just chillin alone for a while.
So its basicly a problem with accepting myself
Issues in relationships tend to stay with me long after I'm gone, and plague me for far too long then they should. An ex broke up with me after almost two years because she said she suddenly realised she could go out with someone more attractive than I am. The same girl had whittled my confidence down regarding my looks in certain ways before (suggesting I'm a 'four out of ten') probably because her previous boyfriend was a male model.
Almost two years after that event, I still feel wretched about how I look. I've always known I'm not particularly attractive and I used to feel like I wasn't particularly ugly, I always got by on politeness and charm. Now I hate seeing photos of myself, I avoid looking into mirrors as much as possible, and when someone gives me the odd compliment about my appearance I have help but feel as if they're lying. I've been constantly on/off exercising since that relationship ended, 'on' when I suddenly get sick of how I feel again and 'off' when I gain a bit of confidence, and I found myself trying to lose weight and tone up when I'm 5ft"11 and weighed 11st (154lbs).
I never used to be like this, and it just gets to me knowing that once someone is that close to me that they can seriously affect me in such a way. It's made me a lot warier of relationships (which isn't a bad thing considering my previous experiences with far too many crazy-ladies) but it just shocks me because I would have said I have very high confidence in almost every other situation.
Blah. It's almost a bit sad that this is the first time I've really 'discussed' the issue and it was online, rather than with a supportive group of friends I have. It's just a weird thing to admit to when you're the 'cocky, confident, loud' one of the group.
Almost two years after that event, I still feel wretched about how I look. I've always known I'm not particularly attractive and I used to feel like I wasn't particularly ugly, I always got by on politeness and charm. Now I hate seeing photos of myself, I avoid looking into mirrors as much as possible, and when someone gives me the odd compliment about my appearance I have help but feel as if they're lying. I've been constantly on/off exercising since that relationship ended, 'on' when I suddenly get sick of how I feel again and 'off' when I gain a bit of confidence, and I found myself trying to lose weight and tone up when I'm 5ft"11 and weighed 11st (154lbs).
I never used to be like this, and it just gets to me knowing that once someone is that close to me that they can seriously affect me in such a way. It's made me a lot warier of relationships (which isn't a bad thing considering my previous experiences with far too many crazy-ladies) but it just shocks me because I would have said I have very high confidence in almost every other situation.
Blah. It's almost a bit sad that this is the first time I've really 'discussed' the issue and it was online, rather than with a supportive group of friends I have. It's just a weird thing to admit to when you're the 'cocky, confident, loud' one of the group.
I hate my body, I'm somewhat fit but I can never build muscle despite always going to the gym and working out intensely.
I think too much about things that are depressing I wish I could just enjoy myself.
I look at porn too much. Also I think I'm becoming a nymphomaniac.
I'm always trying to find flaws in myself and have I hard time focusing on my strengths.
I think too much about things that are depressing I wish I could just enjoy myself.
I look at porn too much. Also I think I'm becoming a nymphomaniac.
I'm always trying to find flaws in myself and have I hard time focusing on my strengths.
I'm rather weak-willed. I never really stick with anything to the end unless it's easy or fun, regardless of how important it is.
Also, I'm told I come across as confrontational, which is the exact opposite of my usual intentions. That's just inconvenient.
Also, I'm told I come across as confrontational, which is the exact opposite of my usual intentions. That's just inconvenient.
Three things I can think of off the top of my head. The first is my crippling fear of everything, I hate being driven into gut wrenching fear over practically everything on earth, the thought of talking to people, most animals, the sight of blood, heights, cramped places, loud noises, it's just pathetic. Second is my low self-esteem, I almost never allow people to see my writing and whenever I do post my stuff I'm up all night in a paranoid frenzy imagining how many people despise it and planning to remove at soon as possible. Third is my destructive procrastination, I've put this mountain of work off to the point where I doubt I have any chance of finishing it, just spent most of the day working frantically to try and catch up and I'm still practically nowhere with time running out.
Unoriginal as this is: Much lazier than I'd like to admit. But more importantly I find people in general but especially social occasions sooo scary. As in sometimes literally feel sick because I'm so afraid of them. If I could change 1 thing about me it would probably be making me less afraid of social interaction.
While I'm pretty happy with the way I am, there are some things that tend to get into the grinder of both me and my closest allies.
One of my most popular quirks around my friends, family and fiancée is that I have a very strong need to be alone. I need at least one evening per week where I'm alone. I usually spend this night in quiet contemplation... and video games and books of course.
This has actually made my friends ask me where I am in my social life before we make plans, it works out pretty well, but sometimes it throws wrenches into the plans of my friends. My fiancée is understanding of this as well, which is nice, but it sometimes bothers her when she comes over on one of my "quiet nights" and I'm pretty anti-social.
On another fun note: Whenever I go outside just after one of the few full weekends I get to spend alone, it's always fun to greet your friends/fiancée with the hoarsest of voices.
One of my most popular quirks around my friends, family and fiancée is that I have a very strong need to be alone. I need at least one evening per week where I'm alone. I usually spend this night in quiet contemplation... and video games and books of course.
This has actually made my friends ask me where I am in my social life before we make plans, it works out pretty well, but sometimes it throws wrenches into the plans of my friends. My fiancée is understanding of this as well, which is nice, but it sometimes bothers her when she comes over on one of my "quiet nights" and I'm pretty anti-social.
On another fun note: Whenever I go outside just after one of the few full weekends I get to spend alone, it's always fun to greet your friends/fiancée with the hoarsest of voices.
