Well, i doubt this is going to be helpful in the least to you but maybe you can pick something out of it.
I used to be scared of doing poorly in school because people expected me to do well, they saw me as a smart guy who would get good grades and the rest of the stereotype and i never really met those marks which led to some extraneous issues that are irrelevant to you but in a word, depression. Then there came a time when i didn't give a damn and my self-esteem grew while the fear inside withered away.
Fear is only as strong as you make it, as soon as you ignore the weight it puts on your back the sooner you can put it aside.
I used to be scared of doing poorly in school because people expected me to do well, they saw me as a smart guy who would get good grades and the rest of the stereotype and i never really met those marks which led to some extraneous issues that are irrelevant to you but in a word, depression. Then there came a time when i didn't give a damn and my self-esteem grew while the fear inside withered away.
Fear is only as strong as you make it, as soon as you ignore the weight it puts on your back the sooner you can put it aside.