Mimsofthedawg said:
I will say this much though: the real pain in making mistakes isn't that the mistakes "ruin your life". It's that they ruin your plans. But life is more than those plans, more than your preconceived notions of what reality is. You can either keep looking out the red-stained glass, or break through and grab your life an make something of it. One things for sure - this is what my life is a testament to - it's never too late for redemption. Hope always remains.
I agree with Mims here; there's still hope. Your life doesn't have to be ruined, unless you let it. First off, I know almost everyone else said this, but get a paternity test. Also, there was some discussion about bleeding and her period, timing, etc., so I just have to ask; has she seen a doctor, been confirmed pregnant and healthy? I'm just curious.
As far as dealing with her goes, I would say you should make as clean a break from her as possible. Make it clear that you will not get back together with her, regardless of the child. After that, no texting, no phone calls, no emails unless she contacts you regarding the baby. If she starts talking about the two of you, cut her off. It seems pretty clear that she's trying to trap you into a marriage or similar situation here, so put a stop to it now. Anytime you two talk about relationships, you just give her that much more hope that this will work. Maybe she'll leave you alone if you stick to this. Also, you should stick to your college plans, either way. It won't be easy, especially if you have to support a child, but it may help you in the end with a better job (hopefully you're going into a good field). In addition to that, it gives you something to look forward to and when the day comes, it'll feel good to get out of town and away from the gossips.
And about your depression, do you work out at all? I find a little light running every other morning or so helps me immensely.