Dirty little secrets...

[Sarcastic Chimp]

I'm very pessimistic and paranoid. I fear that everyone can read my thoughts and hates me. Every time I think something good will happen, I think that something horrible will happen instead. I constantly feel like I'm being watched.

I'm afraid to become attached to people because I'm afraid that I will inevitably lose them.

I hate attention, but also hate when people ignore me,

I think I might be not eating enough, because everyone else at my school seems to eat more than me and my parents sometimes say that I'm very skinny or that I need to eat more (I'm 5'8 and 110-115 lbs if that helps anyone come up with an answer).

There's a girl that I like and I think she might like me, too, because we get along quite well and have a lot of the same interests, and she's also just about the only person that acts friendly to me instead of ignoring my existence or hating me, but I'm afraid to ask her out because I'm afraid that she'd say no and even if she said yes, I wouldn't know what to do.

You are me, except for the weight thing. Im the opposite.. im "chubby"..screw it im fat

 

[OctoBush]

Hmm... does the fact that inside I despise fat people but outside I'm against discrimination count as a secret?... No offense to previous poster of course (although the words no offense seriously will not help.)

 

[ElephantGuts]

I could fill several novels and a paperback short story collection with my dirty secrets. Some of them aren't so little either.

I must say you've piqued my curiosity...

I think somethings wrong with me I can't stay off of this thread, it's like I'm a gossipy teenage girl that wants to know everybody's secrets or something...

Of course now that I've said that people will probably think twice before posting on this thread but please go ahead just pretend I'm not here.

 

[ThaBenMan]

I could fill several novels and a paperback short story collection with my dirty secrets. Some of them aren't so little either.

...you've killed somebody, haven't you?

 

[The Lyre]

I could fill several novels and a paperback short story collection with my dirty secrets. Some of them aren't so little either.

...you've killed somebody, haven't you?

I'd be suprised if over half of this community HADN'T killed someone.

As for my dirty little secret, I'll never tell!...although the talking severed heads in my fridge might have something to say about it, they're awfully chatty for corpses.

 

[ThaBenMan]

Hmm... does the fact that inside I despise fat people but outside I'm against discrimination count as a secret?... No offense to previous poster of course (although the words no offense seriously will not help.)

If you don't mind me asking, why do you despise fat people?

 

[The Lyre]

Hmm... does the fact that inside I despise fat people but outside I'm against discrimination count as a secret?... No offense to previous poster of course (although the words no offense seriously will not help.)

If you don't mind me asking, why do you despise fat people?

A common answer is that they despise the idea of they themselves becoming fat, thus they project this fear onto overweight people around them.

So Octobush is probably either overly vain, a little bit pudgy himself, or is just horribly prejudiced against overweight people for other, psychotic reasons.

Half-baked internet psychology ftw!

 

[trickytrixster]

ok guys heres my secrets...enjoy!

ive never played a mgs game or final fantasy 7 (ive played 8 and frickin loved it)

i still find lolcats hilarious

ive never watched the godfather

im paranooid about what my friends think of me

i pretend to be a ninja when no-ones looking

im not an emo but i love to wear black clothes

i can spend upto 20 minutes on my hair and im a guy

i shot the sherrif

i can occasionally predict the future...seriously im talking super dajavu

i lie for no reason simply to see if i can get away with it

i use words that i dont understand when talking to people to make myself appear smarter than i actually am.

and even though im calm and non-violent i once spontaneously punched a kid in the face and broke his nose because he called me a "twat"

 

[Azhrarn-101]

i can occasionally predict the future...seriously im talking super dajavu

Now that's one I know, the only downside is that the feeling of deja vu usually originates from weeks earlier, making it all rather moot since I usually don't recognise it as predictive at the time. It is quite unpleasant though, that feeling hits you like a hammer every time.

Lets see if I can share another one.
Being the nice and shy guy that I am, doesn't mean I can't be angry. It's one of my biggest fears actually.
Last time I really let myself go because I was so angry I more or less lost control and punched a kid 2 years older than me into hospital, would have done a lot more damage if 3 teachers hadn't pulled me off him. (this was in grade school, so almost 2 decades ago.)
I avoid situations that could anger me like the plague, afraid of what might happen if I get really angry.
Not pleasant knowing there's such a nasty side to yourself, makes you quite insecure.

 

[MSORPG pl4y3r]

Lets see if I can share another one.
Being the nice and shy guy that I am, doesn't mean I can't be angry. It's one of my biggest fears actually.
Last time I really let myself go because I was so angry I more or less lost control and punched a kid 2 years older than me into hospital, would have done a lot more damage if 3 teachers hadn't pulled me off him. (this was in grade school, so almost 2 decades ago.)
I avoid situations that could anger me like the plague, afraid of what might happen if I get really angry.
Not pleasant knowing there's such a nasty side to yourself, makes you quite insecure.

I know EXACTLY how you feel about that, I am terrified of my own anger and I'm normaly very calm and cool but I know the extent of my own anger. That is definatly my worst fear; that I'll go berzerk and end up killing somone and then getting arrested or incarserated and I have good reason to think that cause I'm built like a tank (not an exaguration) and I have a primal personality (animal instincs and sutch) even thou I dont act like it or show it.

Somtimes I think I'm paranoid about that, I'v not scince a very long time ago (even I cant remember) when I'v got so angry its not shouting anger its more a cold rage against somone or somthing. Plus I have a very large knowlage of how to hurt, incapasitate, disable or even kill ppl and I somtimes think when I eventualy loose it that the killer part of me will remain in control.........its not a pleasent thought. Its like thinking that somone else will take control over your body and make you kill somone then leave you to suffer the consicuinces.

 

[Kingkiller12]

trickytrixster


ok guys heres my secrets...enjoy!

_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ive never played a mgs game or final fantasy 7 (ive played 8 and frickin loved it_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________)

i still find lolcats hilarious

ive never watched the godfather

im paranooid about what my friends think of me

i pretend to be a ninja when no-ones looking

im not an emo but i love to wear black clothes

i can spend upto 20 minutes on my hair and im a guy

i shot the sherrif

i can occasionally predict the future...seriously im talking super dajavu

i lie for no reason simply to see if i can get away with it

i use words that i dont understand when talking to people to make myself appear smarter than i actually am.

and even though im calm and non-violent i once spontaneously punched a kid in the face and broke his nose because he called me a "twat"
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YOU HAVE NEVER PLAYED A METAL GEAR SOLID GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE HEEELLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!! I AM AMAZED, AND SPEECHLESS. YOU MUST PLAY IT, WHENEVER I HEAR ABOUT PEOPLE NEVER PLAYING A MGS GAME, I BREAK DOWN ;__; IT MUST BE PLAYED BY EVERYONE!!!!!

 

[Monkfish Acc.]

I have a phobia about crowds. Being surrounded by loud noises and elbow-to-elbow strangers give me some sort of anxiety attack. I try to suck it up where I can for family weddings and the occasional bar, but it's as if a survival instinct is kicking in and I have to retreat into a corner or where I can have some space. I've been trying to find a new church where I've moved, but that sort of combines both of these triggers into a melting pot of un-fun.

I don't think I've told more than one person, definitely not my family of extroverts.

Aye, not a big fan of crowds myself. Here's an idea, if you have the balls. Let rip a giant fart, and see how people rush to give you room. I've never personaly tried it, I'm too much of a wimp, but give it a go and see how it works. Please?

 

[Spartan Bannana]

I'd be suprised if over half of this community HADN'T killed someone.

I think Purple Rain on his own accounts for about half of Australian deaths a year, I've heard he's trying to branch out to New Zealand


Oh, I also often dream entire days ahead of time, seems useful, right? It's not, it's really annoying to watch an entire day play out in your head, it also makes classes even more boring because I've already been through them once before.

Another secret for you guys...I feel like killing one of my friends, not figuratively, literally, because lately, he's been really annoying, I think that I'll find a brick and smash in his head with it.

I also have anger issues and once lifted a kid a couple of feet in the air by his neck for calling me fat, nobody calls me fat to my face anymore, but that brings me to my next point about being extremely paranoid, I always think someone is laughing at me if I hear laughing nearby me at school, and I feel like everyone is talking behind my back.
I recently got a punching bag though, and it seems to be helping.

 

[Ares Tyr]

I'd be suprised if over half of this community HADN'T killed someone.

I think Purple Rain on his own accounts for about half of Australian deaths a year, I've heard he's trying to branch out to New Zealand

Another secret for you guys...I feel like killing one of my friends, not figuratively, literally, because lately, he's been really annoying, I think that I'll find a brick and smash in his head with it.

I'd been in prison long ago if I'd taken action on all the people I've felt like killing in my life. I've managed to move the feelings from killing to "teaching them a lesson" (like breaking their arms or something), but my violent fantasies still abound.

You must learn to control these things (atleast a little bit).

 

[666thHeretic]

I've been screwing the girlfriend of this guy I don't like. Just because I don't like him. He found out about it and they split up. I am happy.

That's not a dirty secret, that's just a good revenge story.

So anyway, here's mine. Not really that dirty, but whatever. I have this thing about fitting in-see, I know that when I go to a concert (like when I was at Monsters of Rock) randomly shouting and throwing up the horns is not only acceptable, it's expected. But even though I'm fully aware that I would essentially fit in better if I did, I just didn't seem to want to (this changed when Judas Priest took the stage, however). I do the same in any other situation, and often stay quiet even when everyone else is wrong and I know I'm right (on straight facts, not matters of opinion). Never realy been sure why this is.

 

[TheMan49]

Well I had sex at the age of 10. The werid part is that I did'nt kiss a girl till I was 15. So I'm not afraid of getting naked in front of a stranger. But I am afraid of kissing someone that I have feelings for. Life has some strange turns.

 

[superpoo92]

I am terrified of fish. All fish, and avoid the fish section at the market like the plague.

lol me 2 and i'm scared of slugs not many people i hang around with know also i got curious one day and ate some of my poo to find out what it tastes like and if you want to know its tastes like rubber and makes you want to throw up

 

[Zwilorg]

been dating for more than 1year and a half promised to quit smoking 1week after we started...and i still smoke, i tryed to stop a dozen times...but work, uni, work, uni, it just keep pulling me back into it. every single time she asks me if i had a cig i lie and it just feels wrong

 

[Ares Tyr]

I am terrified of fish. All fish, and avoid the fish section at the market like the plague.

lol me 2 and i'm scared of slugs not many people i hang around with know also i got curious one day and ate some of my poo to find out what it tastes like and if you want to know its tastes like rubber and makes you want to throw up

You're my hero.