Ever Had That Feeling?

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Sougo

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I absorb most of the stuff that thrown at me. I have a surprisingly high level of tolerance.

However, if you cross the limit, its gonna be damn near impossible to make amends. That being said, there are exactly 0 such persons alive today.

No, I did not kill them. They just don't exist.
 

FireScythe1992

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In 3rd grade I told this kid I was gonna kill him. When he told the teacher, I was threatened with ISS and I cried, so I didn't get in trouble. haha fuck you kyle!
 

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Blatherscythe said:
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Ok so, in fourth grade, I was madly in love with my only girl friend. I had recently become friends with this guy, and he was pretty cool. Rich, but he wasn't a prick. Every week his grandmother would bring in a huge pizza for our lunch table. Me, being lower middle class, envied him, and he'd give me games for free.

So me and this kid are pretty tight, when one day, the girl I love, comes crying to me, telling me he threatened to rape her. She had told the teacher that he stole from her desk, and after school he told her he was going to follow her home, stalk her, come in when she was asleep, beat her and rape her repeatedly. Mortified, I told my parents, and they told her mother. She called the police, and the police DIDN'T FUCKING CARE.

So I'm in school and I start ignoring him, and one day he asks me what's the deal, and I tell him I'm pissed at him for what he said to her. He tries to change the story like he thought rape meant take your money, but I knew full well he knew what it meant; his cousin was a well known rapist in the town. I start drifting apart from the kid.

Jump ahead to the next year. He's in my class again, and I hate it. After a while, I switch to a different class. Then I hear he's been talking shit about my parents, and that got me pissed off. I went off in a full blown rage in the middle of the hallway and had to get dragged to the guidance office, where I was locked for the rest of the day. I was later transferred back to the old class, and another kid who my "friend" had tortured came to me.. He says, "Chris, I have an idea. We make a website and tell people the truth about him. Then nobody will listen to him, and we'll be free from the hurt, man."

When I was younger, I used to give in to peer pressure easily, and then he says, "Man, I know what he did to you and Em. You can get back at him with this!" That sent me over and I agreed to it. We made the website, and put all the shit we knew about him, and then we swore to keep it quiet and let people find it. But the next day, the idiot talks about it to his cousin, and the kid hears about it. He comes over to me and asks me about it, and I deny it.

Weeks later, my parents find out, and I am in deep shit. Soon the school starts intervening, and starts calling me the worst shit to ever enter the building, when in fact they had told me before I was one of the place's top students ever.

People start punching me in the hallways, throwing stuff at me, stabbing me with pens and pencils. People start threatening me and telling me to go kill myself.

I transfer to a new school and get away...until I hear my friend got in a fight with the teacher. The teacher decided to tell the whole class about it, and my friend gets up and says that she has no right to tell them about it, and the teacher slaps him across the face. But it worked, people stopped talking...I still owe him, and he says I don't.

I come back the next year, and people start threatening me again. I was walking once when I got jumped. Stabbed, punched, kicked and cut all over. Nobody believed my side of the story, and the girl I loved was upset with me. I told her I had done it for her...she told me she loved me, kissed me, then walked away, and has never talked to me since.

I am emotionally and physically scarred because of that, and people still attack me over it, and that was almost 5 years ago. Whenever someone brings it up, I want to grab their throat and make them shut up.
That's terrible, man what a jackass that guy was. And they still hate you for running his name through the mud for five whole years?
We're a very small community, and his family donates large amounts of money to the school every year. My family isn't originally from here, and my dad runs the local cable network, and people don't like him for that, and take that out on me. I'm like the medium for all hate directed at my family, because I'm the oldest and the most known child in the family.

But yeah, people still give me crap about it, and it pisses me off to no end.
 

Skuffyshootster

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I can't honestly say I've ever had that feeling after reading through this thread. Some of you have lived through hell, and after your stories my replies would just seem like inane bickering.

I have disliked some people though, yes.
 

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lilmisspotatoes said:
When I get angry, I tend to daydream about ripping throats out with my teeth. Simple, videogame-levels of violence that are strangely cathartic :)
Same here, except I start to laugh and pass out. (Or maybe thats just my psychopathic tendencies.)
 

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Julianking93 said:
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Being one with a few demons myself may i suggest seeing a psych? they're very helpful for when you need to move on with something like this. I'm so sorry to hear what happened to you it sounds truly horrific and i pray you have someone to lean on when you need it you poor thing. I'm so sorry to hear what assholes were your classmates and teachers, nowadays teachers can't even be like that being one can threaten to sue over anything. I used to wish my old gym teacher would call me gay just so i could threaten him and watch him get all pathetic and defensive again, ahh it would have been funny. sorry that was a weird tangent but i hope you have help in your life when things get to you, the scars (physical and mental) must be awful. I know what you mean when you say somehow hurting them wasn't satisfying enough, and the truth is you can rarely fix this kind of thing with revenge, as delicious as it might be. you need to find a way to heal urself rather than wish you could have hurt them more. hey you wouldn't happen to remember they're full names and the towns they live in would you? if you do you could look them up in a phone book and maybe burn they're houses down or kill they're children, although i doubt those sick monsters could have any. revenge is more fun when you wait years and surprise them. I'm sorry that's a bad thought no revenge 'cause it's not worth going to jail even if you fuck 'em up good, instead try to get better. Also try to remember that they have a story too. they probably treated you badly because of deep problems in their lives and you probably have it easy in comparison. in that way hatred and abuse work like a cycle going from one person to their victim. anyway i wish i could hug all the scars out of you, you poor dear.
Thank you for the kind words. Unfortunately, I myself don't really have anyone to "lean on" so to speak.

I've yet to tell my parents of the really bad incidents out of just sheer embarrassment and I don't have any true friends of my own out in the real world.


Though, I do know their names. It's just that they're all around my age (16/17/18) so I doubt they have kids :p

And yes, I understand that the reason most people who are bullies is because someone does the same to them. It's a sick cycle but unfortunately it's true.

Thank you again for all that. I too wish I could just hug away the scars :D

You really should tell your parents so at least you can talk them. this story sounds like it would invoke more pity and fear and disgust than embarrassment and you really shouldn't let embarrassment get in your way it's such a petty thing. and because I'm still slightly optimistic with the world I'm going to say that you do have friends or at least will have some soon because nice people always eventually end up with them. jeeze after reading this forum i feel like a part of me has died. i used to think the world wasn't this fucked up.
 
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lilmisspotatoes said:
Blatherscythe said:
lilmisspotatoes said:
When I get angry, I tend to daydream about ripping throats out with my teeth. Simple, videogame-levels of violence that are strangely cathartic :)
You know your starting to make me regret creating this thread. When I get mad I just imagine beat the living shit out of someone.
Why just beat someone up when you can DESTROY them?
Remember kids, the most important rule when destroying someone. Leave nothing behind. When you say you're going to destroy them, destroy them.
 

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gravitii said:
Julianking93 said:
gravitii said:
Being one with a few demons myself may i suggest seeing a psych? they're very helpful for when you need to move on with something like this. I'm so sorry to hear what happened to you it sounds truly horrific and i pray you have someone to lean on when you need it you poor thing. I'm so sorry to hear what assholes were your classmates and teachers, nowadays teachers can't even be like that being one can threaten to sue over anything. I used to wish my old gym teacher would call me gay just so i could threaten him and watch him get all pathetic and defensive again, ahh it would have been funny. sorry that was a weird tangent but i hope you have help in your life when things get to you, the scars (physical and mental) must be awful. I know what you mean when you say somehow hurting them wasn't satisfying enough, and the truth is you can rarely fix this kind of thing with revenge, as delicious as it might be. you need to find a way to heal urself rather than wish you could have hurt them more. hey you wouldn't happen to remember they're full names and the towns they live in would you? if you do you could look them up in a phone book and maybe burn they're houses down or kill they're children, although i doubt those sick monsters could have any. revenge is more fun when you wait years and surprise them. I'm sorry that's a bad thought no revenge 'cause it's not worth going to jail even if you fuck 'em up good, instead try to get better. Also try to remember that they have a story too. they probably treated you badly because of deep problems in their lives and you probably have it easy in comparison. in that way hatred and abuse work like a cycle going from one person to their victim. anyway i wish i could hug all the scars out of you, you poor dear.
Thank you for the kind words. Unfortunately, I myself don't really have anyone to "lean on" so to speak.

I've yet to tell my parents of the really bad incidents out of just sheer embarrassment and I don't have any true friends of my own out in the real world.


Though, I do know their names. It's just that they're all around my age (16/17/18) so I doubt they have kids :p

And yes, I understand that the reason most people who are bullies is because someone does the same to them. It's a sick cycle but unfortunately it's true.

Thank you again for all that. I too wish I could just hug away the scars :D

You really should tell your parents so at least you can talk them. this story sounds like it would invoke more pity and fear and disgust than embarrassment and you really shouldn't let embarrassment get in your way it's such a petty thing. and because I'm still slightly optimistic with the world I'm going to say that you do have friends or at least will have some soon because nice people always eventually end up with them. jeeze after reading this forum i feel like a part of me has died. i used to think the world wasn't this fucked up.
Agreed. Welcome to the real world, hang your innocence on the rack.
 

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superbatranger said:
lilmisspotatoes said:
Blatherscythe said:
lilmisspotatoes said:
When I get angry, I tend to daydream about ripping throats out with my teeth. Simple, videogame-levels of violence that are strangely cathartic :)
You know your starting to make me regret creating this thread. When I get mad I just imagine beat the living shit out of someone.
Why just beat someone up when you can DESTROY them?
Remember kids, the most important rule when destroying someone. Leave nothing behind. When you say you're going to destroy them, destroy them.
Leaving piles of bones isn't a good idea. Make sure to bury them in the forests or burn them to ash. :)
 

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So I just read the first few posts in this thread....and DAMN. I would understand completly if the next objective on your to-do list would be to go purchase a retro hockey-mask and a rusted machete...

OT: My memories still hazy from all of the condescendence i've recieved over years, though when you're a two-hundred pounded "white kid", you get that special vengeance feeling every now and then from the things you tend to hear.

I would go into details, though haziness is a good thing.
 
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lilmisspotatoes said:
superbatranger said:
lilmisspotatoes said:
Blatherscythe said:
lilmisspotatoes said:
When I get angry, I tend to daydream about ripping throats out with my teeth. Simple, videogame-levels of violence that are strangely cathartic :)
You know your starting to make me regret creating this thread. When I get mad I just imagine beat the living shit out of someone.
Why just beat someone up when you can DESTROY them?
Remember kids, the most important rule when destroying someone. Leave nothing behind. When you say you're going to destroy them, destroy them.
Leaving piles of bones isn't a good idea. Make sure to bury them in the forests or burn them to ash. :)
Burning them to ash is always better. Bones can be found more easily than ashes. Toss the ashes somewhere, and the wind will take 'em away for good.
 

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I remember back in primary school there was this one guy, a bully. And sometimes I just wanted to slug him right in the face, then press him on the ground with my knees, beat his bastard face into a bloody pulp, rip into his chest with my teeth and strangle him. It's those kind of fantasies that really scare me and it was with a burning hatred. But then later on I realized that the best way to deal with bullies is either with words or ignoring, it's worked fine so far for me and they've always been a problem.
 

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Well not anymore but I used to have a very big problem with that it got out of hand when I woke up and I was standing behind the person which enraged me with a knife and was about to cut his throat while he was asleep after that I realized I was becoming completely crazy and decided to do what anyone would keep it to myself and never talk about it short after that I had a nervous breakdown in the middle of a class after that all of my family pretended like it didn't happen and I thin I dealt with it on my own because I'm OK now or at least I think so...
 

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HG131 said:
I do believe that you two's lives have actually made me feel really sad. Seriously, what happened to you both was awful, and makes my hate for alot of people seem petty in comparison. If I were somehow to meet those people and knew it was them, I'd most likely go full on insane on them (that is, befriending them, poisoning them, and locking them up in a steel box together just big enough to fit them with broken legs and arms (easier to cram in there) and then burying it and covering it in cement). I feel really bad for you both.
Such is the nature of life, yes? It is what it is and no amount of tears, sleepless nights, or self-pity/loathing will change it. Life is all about learning to cope, grow, and learn from you past. I try not to let it define me or limit me.
My only regret is letting him see how much he had hurt me. He was also my first boyfriend so it kind of left me with a fucked up view of relationships, sex, and intimacy in general.
I really only share the story so people might think twice before they say something nasty to someone and so others won't feel like they are the person to get hurt. Sometimes you just need an unbiased ear to listen.
 

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superbatranger said:
lilmisspotatoes said:
superbatranger said:
lilmisspotatoes said:
Blatherscythe said:
lilmisspotatoes said:
When I get angry, I tend to daydream about ripping throats out with my teeth. Simple, videogame-levels of violence that are strangely cathartic :)
You know your starting to make me regret creating this thread. When I get mad I just imagine beat the living shit out of someone.
Why just beat someone up when you can DESTROY them?
Remember kids, the most important rule when destroying someone. Leave nothing behind. When you say you're going to destroy them, destroy them.
Leaving piles of bones isn't a good idea. Make sure to bury them in the forests or burn them to ash. :)
Burning them to ash is always better. Bones can be found more easily than ashes. Toss the ashes somewhere, and the wind will take 'em away for good.
The fact that we're discussing this semi-seriously fills me with glee.
 

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Wow... Um, huh. I am now ashamed (and grateful) of my lack of anything anywhere near this horrifying. Somehow, I managed to go to school with, and work with, a group of gamers that I now consider good friends.

But seriously, wow. Julianking, mimssy, you have my condolances and greatest of well-wishes.
 

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HG131 said:
mimssy said:
Julianking93 said:
Blatherscythe said:
Physical and mental.

Day after day, I would be beaten to a pulp. My face would lie broken and bloodied. I received a broken nose twice. A fractured collar bone. And 2 broken fingers.

Not only that, but constant mental torture. Being told I'm worthless, that I should go kill myself, that no one loves me and no one will ever love me. To make matters worse, the teachers would also abuse me. Physically and emotionally. Teachers would tell me I was a worthless student. One called me a little pussy in class.


You want to know what the worst thing they did to me though?

During gym when we would change clothes, if I looked at them in a "weird or bad way" they would hold me down, pull off my pants and cut my legs. One slash for every time I looked at them.

I still have the scars.

Making things even worse, the on campus officer didn't believe me. When I showed them what they did, he said they were self inflicted and I only wanted attention.

I hated that place. I got the hell out. Before I did though, I did to them what they did to me. I fucked them up good.
*hug!*
I went through the mental part of that. It was the worst thing I've ever endured. I didn't even have a family to back me up or make me feel loved when I got home- just drunken swears about how I was nothing.

The hardest part of the abuse for me was that it stemmed from someone I loved with every fiber of my being and he betrayed me. He used me, lied to me, manipulated me, raped me, and told me that he loved me one day and hated me the next. I thought I wasn't worth being treated with compassion or respect.

Then he turned his friends and mine against me. For the longest time I had no one to turn to. Even my teachers would look at me and wonder if the things he said were true. I graduated with 2 people who would still call me a friend and those guys had been beaten and abandoned too.

No one should ever be made to feel that way. I'm sorry you had to deal with that, and I'm glad to know that there was at least some satisfaction at the end.
I do believe that you two's lives have actually made me feel really sad. Seriously, what happened to you both was awful, and makes my hate for alot of people seem petty in comparison. If I were somehow to meet those people and knew it was them, I'd most likely go full on insane on them (that is, befriending them, poisoning them, and locking them up in a steel box together just big enough to fit them with broken legs and arms (easier to cram in there) and then burying it and covering it in cement). I feel really bad for you both.
Why bother with the effort and finesse? Use a tranquilizer gun, nail em' in the ass with a few darts and stick them in iron maidens.

 

Angerwing

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When I've been drinking, every aspect of myself is magnified. I talk smoother, use bigger words than are necessary, and I'm way funnier. Social lubricant at its finest.

But I used to have a bit of a violent streak. I was always good with self-control, so I never did anything drastic like pummeling someone into the ground. But when I'm drinking, if you fuck with me, I'm willing to punch you in the throat.

Like the douchebag who tried to pick on the drunk guy (me) at my friends 19th.
 

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Every now and then I'll bump into someone (be it on the road, or at a mall, or where ever) whom I just wish I could beat senseless. These are the same kinds of people who make the internet such a shit-hole, except that instead of exploiting anonymity to be a douche, they exploit the fact that any action I take against them they could label as assault and I'd be the one to get in (legal) trouble for it.

Too many kinds of actions to even bother listing, but I think we all know the kind of douche I'm talking about. They're the kinds of people who make me wish there was a "Douche bag clause" within the legal system that would just let me punch them out and not get in any trouble because they had it coming.
 

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So many dicks... so little time... Don't take it the wrong way guys!

Hmmm... yes I have gotten that feeling. *Brings out Lawnmower

Your ass is the grass and I'm the Lawnmower!