hyperhammy said:
FargoDog said:
hyperhammy said:
FargoDog said:
I would keep everything as it is. I was not a good person, at all when I was younger, but someone changed me and made me realise just how much of a dick I was. If I changed anything about my past, I fear I would still be that horrible person.
Also, you have intrigued me. What went down with this girl?
The entire story or just the summary?
I don't mind, up to you.
Okay, I moved around a lot and went to a bunch of different schools. Then, while living in Minnesota, I met this really great girl. We were on standby for about 3 years (no idea why we didn't get it going earlier) and I had to move back to Germany right after our first date. I was still pretty unexperienced and didn't catch her hints, until many years later (half a year ago) when I found her on facebook and asked her how she felt about me. Then I decided to come visit her (couple weeks ago) and we really got along. It was the best week of my life! Once I got back to Germany I talked to her and asked her if she still had feeling for me. In my opinion it really sparked between us, but she said she doesn't have feelings for me anymore. Now I feel like such an idiot for thinking we were actually becoming a couple. I feel like it would have been better if I hadn't found her on facebook. It wouldn't have whirled up old feelings and complications.
Well, it did lead to the best week of your life. If we had hindsight we'd all be much better human beings, but we don't, so don't beat yourself up over something you could never have seen coming, especially when things were going so well. You have no real reason to feel like an idiot for thinking you were becoming a couple, especially if that's what the signs were pointing to.
Even the bad moments of life aren't worth sacrificing. They make us who we are, and can lead to good things, such as that week of your life). Anyway, I don't mean to nag at you or anything, I just like attempting to help people when I can, as futile as it may be