Have you ever considered suicide?
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Not for myself, No. However I have more than a handful of people I would like to volunteer for it.
I think the depth of my consideration of suicide went as far as figuring out what ways I would consider doing it if I would ever do it. Ive never actually thought about doing it, But I know I prolly couldnt use a gun.. Hell Im diabetic and It takes forever for me to press the button on the little pin prick device. I figured that if I were to do it, the only way I would, would have to be a pain free manner. Something like CO2 posioning, OD on sleep pills, possibly hanging, And my all time favorite, drowning in a pool on a cruise ship just for the sake of irony!
Honestly Suicide never has made a lot of sense to me. Sure life is shitty at times, hell, most of the time. However there is absolutely no 100% way of knowing what if anything awaits you after death. Sure it might be nothing, but it might well be eternal torment. Thats a problem we all have to face eventually, why on earth would you want to hurry up and face it?
I think the depth of my consideration of suicide went as far as figuring out what ways I would consider doing it if I would ever do it. Ive never actually thought about doing it, But I know I prolly couldnt use a gun.. Hell Im diabetic and It takes forever for me to press the button on the little pin prick device. I figured that if I were to do it, the only way I would, would have to be a pain free manner. Something like CO2 posioning, OD on sleep pills, possibly hanging, And my all time favorite, drowning in a pool on a cruise ship just for the sake of irony!
Honestly Suicide never has made a lot of sense to me. Sure life is shitty at times, hell, most of the time. However there is absolutely no 100% way of knowing what if anything awaits you after death. Sure it might be nothing, but it might well be eternal torment. Thats a problem we all have to face eventually, why on earth would you want to hurry up and face it?
Yes, because I believe I must be willing to stare death in the face if I'm to bring it on anyone else. That, and when your life insurance has a suicide clause and financially things are getting worse for your family, it's at least an option. I like to at least acknowledge every option, as distasteful as it is.
What stops me? My wallet. [http://www.bmfwallets.com/images/products/001.png]
Advice? In Death, Sacrifice.
What stops me? My wallet. [http://www.bmfwallets.com/images/products/001.png]
Advice? In Death, Sacrifice.
I never considered suicide, I've thought about it though.
For some reason I started picturing random thoughts of killing (mostly me) and decided to just think about the matter and clear that up before it culminate. So with a lot of thought on the subject, I never considered it, or will never consider it, just doesn't feel I can allow myself to die without fighting back, if it makes any sense. My life's not bad, just boring, a lot more people are in worst cases than I am and most manage to live on.
For some reason I started picturing random thoughts of killing (mostly me) and decided to just think about the matter and clear that up before it culminate. So with a lot of thought on the subject, I never considered it, or will never consider it, just doesn't feel I can allow myself to die without fighting back, if it makes any sense. My life's not bad, just boring, a lot more people are in worst cases than I am and most manage to live on.
XD You do cheer me up, thank you. ^_^Scolar Visari said:
It's never really any one reason. Sometimes, the feelings stem from guilt, or anger, or shame, or fear, or just being so tired of living. Throughout, there's an underlying feeling of being powerless.
I love my kids. I love them so much. Sometimes I feel that they would do so much better without me. I do so many things wrong, even when I mean to do right. It's not just enough to want to do good things. I need to be able to do good things properly. So much trust and affection from them; I don't want to fail them. I wish I was perfect.
That's the overriding message.
I wish I was perfect.
That makes me want to punch my lights out, if I were facing myself in mortal combat.
I have nothing to complain about, and yet I keep wanting more. What a selfish *****.
Damn, this is kinda depressing. I'm sorry, ceiling cat. I probably know what you're thinking:
"Time to watch my favorite person masturb-...oh. This is depressing. I'm a go listen to Linkin Park nao..."
Quite a few times, actually. The only point I see in this life is to care for my disabled mother. I'm much too proud to kill myself, though, I'd rather go out via self-sacrifice, or something.
Once or twice. Not because of any particular depressing events; mostly just a sense of curiosity at what death would feel like. Meh, gonna find out in about 60-70 years (hopefully) anyway so I can wait. That and life is freakin sweet.
A lot in my last of years of Primary School (aged 9-12) and the first few years of High School. The usually reasons, been bullied felt I had no one to turn to and it would never end but my small circle of friends really help me in High School and I got over it. Glad I didn't, would have hurt my family too much and I like my life now. Got a great fiancé and my friends, just need to get a new job and then I will love my life.
Interesting. Also, reminds me a bit of myself, as I am definitely considering a future suicide as well. When I do it kind of depends on if I will ever get married or not, though.Private Custard said:
so... OT: I obviously have considered it, as I still am. Although I've been through feeling like suicide and then being happy and not thinking about it a couple of times. First time I stopped thinking about it, I don't remember why. Second time I stopped was because I found a girl who actually liked me and we started dating (over now though :/ ).
As far as advice, I don't really think it's too much in other people's hands to help suicidal people. Suicide gets called selfish, because it solves your problems but creates problems for others who care about you. But if a person "saves" someone from suicide, if you think about it, that's kind of selfish too. They just don't want to be hurt. I believe that if a person wants to commit suicide, it's their decision. Although I will say that talking to close friends definitely helps a lot. It's kept me from going through with it before.
I hated my life for its first 18 years. On a couple of occasions, I thought about killing myself, and in fact I came to a moment where I had taken the decision of jumping in front of a bus the next time one would pass next to me (where I lived, there weren't really a lot of bus so it was kind of like playing russian roulette). There are a few things that helped me out.
One of the first is one thing my father said in anger when he saw how depressed I was.
"If you were to end your life, it would mean I should never have endured my own!"
He made me understand with these words that everybody has their own set of problems, sometimes worse than mine, sometimes less so. Yet they live on, and so should I.
My best friend is a prime example of this: she lost her first love and her best friend, they both died in separate car crashes. She's an orphan. Her heart isn't worth shit and spent her youth in hospitals. She's allergic to everything. Lethally allergic. I'm not even making this up. And yet she's lively, she's strong, and she goes on with her life with attitude, flair and doesn't stop at stupid problems. To her, all that matters is living your dreams and holding dear to those you love before they go.
Another thing that helped me is the realization that we are never alone. There is always someone somewhere willing to help you. Someone unexpectedly came into my life and helped me a lot when I was in my darkest time. And when we got separated and felt like I was alone all over again, my family helped me tremendously. I went at my aunt's place for a little while, being away from everything helped me gain a better perspective on my problems, and I could catch up my breath at the same time.
This made me realize how much family is important and underrated by my generation (I'm 24). I also recommend doing as I did when you feel like your problems are smothering you: get away for a few days, or a few weeks if need be, somewhere far from everything that troubles you. Do something different, or provoke a huge change in your life. It will help you see things differently.
Sorry for the long post, but I hope that giving out these advices in the open might help someone somewhere. If anyone feels concerned and wants to talk about it in private, just send me a message. I won't downplay your feelings like some do, as I know that it never helped my case.
Life is beautiful. I swear that 10 years ago, I never thought I'd say this.
One of the first is one thing my father said in anger when he saw how depressed I was.
"If you were to end your life, it would mean I should never have endured my own!"
He made me understand with these words that everybody has their own set of problems, sometimes worse than mine, sometimes less so. Yet they live on, and so should I.
My best friend is a prime example of this: she lost her first love and her best friend, they both died in separate car crashes. She's an orphan. Her heart isn't worth shit and spent her youth in hospitals. She's allergic to everything. Lethally allergic. I'm not even making this up. And yet she's lively, she's strong, and she goes on with her life with attitude, flair and doesn't stop at stupid problems. To her, all that matters is living your dreams and holding dear to those you love before they go.
Another thing that helped me is the realization that we are never alone. There is always someone somewhere willing to help you. Someone unexpectedly came into my life and helped me a lot when I was in my darkest time. And when we got separated and felt like I was alone all over again, my family helped me tremendously. I went at my aunt's place for a little while, being away from everything helped me gain a better perspective on my problems, and I could catch up my breath at the same time.
This made me realize how much family is important and underrated by my generation (I'm 24). I also recommend doing as I did when you feel like your problems are smothering you: get away for a few days, or a few weeks if need be, somewhere far from everything that troubles you. Do something different, or provoke a huge change in your life. It will help you see things differently.
Sorry for the long post, but I hope that giving out these advices in the open might help someone somewhere. If anyone feels concerned and wants to talk about it in private, just send me a message. I won't downplay your feelings like some do, as I know that it never helped my case.
Life is beautiful. I swear that 10 years ago, I never thought I'd say this.
It's selfish because you're completely giving up and leaving the mess of your death behind for others to deal with. You leave people wondering if they could have helped in any way or done something. Also somebody has to find your body...SomethingAmazing said:
I'd say it's one of the most selfish things you can do but often the people who do it think that no one cares about them anyway so it's understandable.
Nope. Life is awesome. Sure I have problems in my life, but so does everyone else. If I ever get really sad I just think about all the people around the world living in extreme poverty, and I realize that no matter how shitty anything ever is, I have a good life. Playing your favorite game helps to ;p