DarklordKyo said:
Pyrian said:
Sooo... You fell off the horse, and then you got back on the horse. Really, that's about the best that can be hoped for. Dunno why you're complaining. Getting things right the first time is not a realistic expectation.
I'm complaining because any normal person would've made better choices.
Any normal person probably would've done much the same honestly. Dual enrollment is not something most people do to begin with. I know for a fact the only reason I actually took the college courses available in high school was because of my (now) fiance. Had absolutely nothing to do with easy credits or getting a headstart.
I know if I'd realized earlier on exactly how terrible of a student I was, I wouldn't have essentially wasted a year at uni before then working my ass off to get accepted into a chef certification course a year late.
"Making the right decisions" isn't something you just magically do. You realize that you made a "bad" one at some point in the (hopefully) near future, and work to correct it if you can, and move on and make the "right" one as soon as you can if it's not possible.
It's not about making the right ones, it's about knowing that the wrong decision is going to pop up at some point, you're going to do it, and you're going to beat the hell out of yourself for it, whether it's immediately, or down the line. Then you're going to slam your head against the wall and go on to the next decision.
I mean, I can't really give you advice on how to stop making them. I can really only tell you that, much like any self-improvement regime, who gives a fuck about if you're going to do it or not, because it's only going to happen if you want it to happen in the first place. So scrape yourself together and do it, or don't.
Take it from someone who has gone through some of what you're thinking right now, the bottom line is not about whether or not you've made the wrong decisions and you're not where you expected to be in life, it's that you want something to change. And hell, you're going through it after you've realized where you believe yourself to have screwed up. You're already ahead of the curve, most normal people would probably still just be rolling around in that fog as they're going through it and not have gone for the IT at community college before hitting the conscious realization.
And give yourself a break, the only way to get better at something is to do it. 10,000 hours is bullshit, but the idea is in the parking lot of the ballpark adjacent to the park cart vendors.
There, I think I made enough paragraphs to fit my quota and make it as stupid as it sounds as I'm reading over it but in a way that is somewhat simple to follow. Hope something helps.