Utterly mundane and dull. And it can stay that way.
Chinese curse... "May you live in interesting times".
I keep telling my wife that bored is better than scared and she gets annoyed with me.
When I think about doing it all over again with my knowledge as I have it today, I think, "no thanks. I worked hard to get here and I'm not going to do it again!.
My life has been an exercise in the statement, "Life is what happens to you while you have other plans." I am no where in my life that I headed out for or intended. But I'm not hungry. I like my house and stuff. My kids are doing good though the boy got his own place at 25 and is now riding a Harley which scares the heck out of me. I hope my daughter, who now has her own place at only 22, finds a good partner to marry and give me grand kids. So, I'm kinda like the guy that jumped off a 100 floor building and can be heard at the 30th floor saying, "so far so good."
A complete mess. Just managed to move away from an abusive environment lived in for too many years, no self esteem left, no passion left, no trust, can't feel happiness from anything without trying to brute force it with drugs and booze with varying results. Had ambitions to help others but can't be around people so good of a long late. Feel dead.
Getting out of an abusive environment takes courage. Leaving even an abusive environment can be very difficult if you've gotten used to it. The devil you know. It sounds like an important step to get your life somewhere better. I'm glad you made this step and hope it leads you to better things.