Hear me out on this.
I'm a straight woman, in her mid 30's and often it feels like I've been thrown into the wrong body, and that I'm pretty much doomed to heterosexuality.
Perhaps I'm being overly nieve, perhaps I'm being overly romantic about this, but it seems to me like gay man, and gay male relationships are always so strong, and so loving. Every time you see them in movies and games they always seem so true, and so much more real thin the overplayed hetro relationships. They seem to have more of a connection, and a closeness.
It looks lie it's real 'true love'.
I have no desire to produce offspring, I don't really want to be a 'wife', and my love for male things (like games and action moves) seemed to have put me out of the running for any normal male affections, and really I often recoil at 'typical' hetro romances in books and media.
What is wrong with me? Is their something wrong with me? Are my assumptions about gay male love correct?
I just feel so itchy, and so...ugh...in the skin that I am in...i wish I could change it. I wish I could be 'better'.
(Update...also posted on page 4)
A development....of sorts...
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/05/03/denmark-gay-bar-straight-kissing-_n_1475445.html?ref=gay-voices
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/05/04/separatist-policies-benefit-harm-lgbt_n_1477697.html?ref=gay-voices
More and more I fear, getting into a relationship, with a man. I mean I desire men, but now I feel that it's wrong, and that if I do, I will become the enemy of LGBTQ people.
I struggle with a sexuality that I'm now beginning to actively loathe....I don't know what to think anymore....I don't want to be a foe.
It's so hard, not to wish, I was a gay man.
I'm a straight woman, in her mid 30's and often it feels like I've been thrown into the wrong body, and that I'm pretty much doomed to heterosexuality.
Perhaps I'm being overly nieve, perhaps I'm being overly romantic about this, but it seems to me like gay man, and gay male relationships are always so strong, and so loving. Every time you see them in movies and games they always seem so true, and so much more real thin the overplayed hetro relationships. They seem to have more of a connection, and a closeness.
It looks lie it's real 'true love'.
I have no desire to produce offspring, I don't really want to be a 'wife', and my love for male things (like games and action moves) seemed to have put me out of the running for any normal male affections, and really I often recoil at 'typical' hetro romances in books and media.
What is wrong with me? Is their something wrong with me? Are my assumptions about gay male love correct?
I just feel so itchy, and so...ugh...in the skin that I am in...i wish I could change it. I wish I could be 'better'.
(Update...also posted on page 4)
A development....of sorts...
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/05/03/denmark-gay-bar-straight-kissing-_n_1475445.html?ref=gay-voices
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/05/04/separatist-policies-benefit-harm-lgbt_n_1477697.html?ref=gay-voices
More and more I fear, getting into a relationship, with a man. I mean I desire men, but now I feel that it's wrong, and that if I do, I will become the enemy of LGBTQ people.
I struggle with a sexuality that I'm now beginning to actively loathe....I don't know what to think anymore....I don't want to be a foe.
It's so hard, not to wish, I was a gay man.