I wasn't planning on posting in this forum, but this thread made me have to.
Hey, I'm sorry to hear/read, and I know how it feels. I was an orphan since I was 7 when my father took his own life. I'm really sorry you had to experience this. But the time old saying "Time heals all wounds" is true. Stay your ground, hold your head high, and you'll make it through this. A lot of people be will be there to help and there are others that experienced the pain as well that will stay by your side. Keep strong.