Let me set the scenario: When I was 13, I met my first girlfriend, and for a time, it was good. Five years later, having experienced many things (first kiss, similar family issues, even losing our virginites to one another), a situation came up and needless to say, we broke up.
It's been two long years, and now she's married, and I'm just adjusting to the idea of even thinking about girls again. Within those two years, I've spoke to her about six times. I can't get over her, even those she has gotten over me (At least that's what she says).
Of course, she was my first, and everytime I saw her in public, my stomach would ache, but if she spoke to me, even for a second, I'd melt like butter, even if it ended that I stew in my self hatred (I have self esteem issues). As far as it goes, I listen to love songs a lot more often and I'm a bitter bastard at everything, mostly.
Well, the last time my Ex spoke to me was a few months ago, and that was for about 15 minutes. Coming to recent times, she called my cell phone telling me that she was thinking of starting up college and wanted some help with classes.
Having not heard her voice for months, and slowly trying to get over her, my stomach feels like it did when I had an ulcer, I was shaking (like when you come down really sick), and I'm melancholy, to say the least.
Here is my issue: I'm a nice guy, if you insult me, I'd probably laugh, and if you maliciously attack me, I'll pretty much do nothing. When we broke up, I went on Myspace and told everybody that any plans to get married (in 2010) was called off, and that even though I was upset with her, I told everybody not to insult her; if they were my friends, they wouldn't. So far, they haven't (to my knowledge).
To my dilemma: What do I do? Everytime I think of her or talk to her, I get physically sick (I almost threw up this afternoon) and I become an A-hole, but I still love her and I don't want to be rude to her.
Can anyone suggest ideas for me on how to handle this, or maybe it might be a good time to vent about your ex, I just need some help, you are my family (I'd call you guys family, you all are more than just friends to me), can anyone help me?
It's been two long years, and now she's married, and I'm just adjusting to the idea of even thinking about girls again. Within those two years, I've spoke to her about six times. I can't get over her, even those she has gotten over me (At least that's what she says).
Of course, she was my first, and everytime I saw her in public, my stomach would ache, but if she spoke to me, even for a second, I'd melt like butter, even if it ended that I stew in my self hatred (I have self esteem issues). As far as it goes, I listen to love songs a lot more often and I'm a bitter bastard at everything, mostly.
Well, the last time my Ex spoke to me was a few months ago, and that was for about 15 minutes. Coming to recent times, she called my cell phone telling me that she was thinking of starting up college and wanted some help with classes.
Having not heard her voice for months, and slowly trying to get over her, my stomach feels like it did when I had an ulcer, I was shaking (like when you come down really sick), and I'm melancholy, to say the least.
Here is my issue: I'm a nice guy, if you insult me, I'd probably laugh, and if you maliciously attack me, I'll pretty much do nothing. When we broke up, I went on Myspace and told everybody that any plans to get married (in 2010) was called off, and that even though I was upset with her, I told everybody not to insult her; if they were my friends, they wouldn't. So far, they haven't (to my knowledge).
To my dilemma: What do I do? Everytime I think of her or talk to her, I get physically sick (I almost threw up this afternoon) and I become an A-hole, but I still love her and I don't want to be rude to her.
Can anyone suggest ideas for me on how to handle this, or maybe it might be a good time to vent about your ex, I just need some help, you are my family (I'd call you guys family, you all are more than just friends to me), can anyone help me?
