So I think it's only appropriate that i set the scene and tell you guys how this whole thing went down.
I was at a party this previous Friday that was being held by some of my friends in JROTC. There were quite some people there but it never got too crazy. And yes in case you were wondering there was alcohol and marijuana being used there, and I'd be a liar if i said i didn't join in on the fun. so i got there at around 8pm-ish and i couldn't have been there for more than 6 minuets when my friend Michael invite me over to introduce me to a friend of his. His name was Connor and i could tell you right off the bat that i thought this guy was incredibly attractive, but i would never in a million years say anything along those lines. I mean i've never really considered myself anything but strait my entire life. even if i would have feeling like this i would just try to push them away and say it's just a phase that I'll grow out of.
But anyway, i was introduced, we made small talk, than this girl walks in whom i have known since my freshman year and i can tell you i wanted nothing to do with her, and i could tell that Connor could tell this just by the look on my face as she walked in. But the rest of the night me and him just sat on one of the couches in my friends fairly large house and talked, smoked, talked, drank, and talked. Funny enough i didn't really spend i lot of time with any of my fellow cadets, just really him. mainly because we have a lot in common and he's pretty funny. And i think he could tell i was kind of getting into him (no pun intended).
So as the night started to come to a close most of the people left just leaving me, Connor, and a handful of other people who couldn't get rides home, and thank god none of us thought it would be a good idea to drive. but we had all brought sleeping bags in advance for this reason and he all kind of just settled in and passed out.
Than at around 2am i feel a hand on my shoulder waking me up. Its connor. he asks me if im awake and i say in a sarcastic voice, "i am now". so then he asks me "yea, you wanna go out back and talk a little" i say sure and he both go out the sliding glass door to the back patio where there is a kinda padded bench. so we sit down we start talking again and he asks me what i want to do when i get out of school, i say im enlisting in the Marines, with which he responds "that's hot" in a flirty kinda voice. i chuckle and laugh. Then he puts his hand on my knee and without missing a beat he looks me strait in the eyes and says, "im really starting to like you Kevin" i respond in kind, having no idea in which direction he would take it from there. it couldn't have been 2 seconds after i said i liked him too that he leans over planting his lips right on mine. and here we are, making out on the back porch his my friends house at like 2:30am. and the funny thing is, i didn't resist, not one bit. it felt like a eternity just sitting there with him, my lips battling his.
he's the first to break away. he stands up and suggests he go back inside before the others start waking up to vomit because their too hungover or to come out for a cigarette. i nod, we head back in, he both get back into our respective sleeping bags, but it takes me a good hour before i can fall back asleep after what just happened.
I wake up the next morning to my friend kicking me in the leg telling me to get up because were sharing a ride and its parked outside. so i get out of my bag to check whose still here, Connor had apparently left about an hour ago. so i get my stuff together and then i put my hand in my pocket to get my cell phone out to check for messages and i feel a paper in my pocket that wasn't there before. i pull it out and this a folded put scrap of paper with a phone number on it then bellow the number is "C." which i can most definitely assume it's Conner's. so he slipped his phone number in my pocket while i was asleep last night. when i first saw it my heart kinda had this feeling like it was going to come bouncing out of my chest. and then it sets in. i just had my first kiss, and its with another guy. i guy who i have just met the previous night.
So there it is guys. that the whole story. sorry its so long but I've had a lot on my mind for the past day and im not sure what i should do or how i should handle this. I'm here just looking for some advise and any you guys can give me would be great. I'm much appreciative of anything that's useful. So once again, Thanks.
I was at a party this previous Friday that was being held by some of my friends in JROTC. There were quite some people there but it never got too crazy. And yes in case you were wondering there was alcohol and marijuana being used there, and I'd be a liar if i said i didn't join in on the fun. so i got there at around 8pm-ish and i couldn't have been there for more than 6 minuets when my friend Michael invite me over to introduce me to a friend of his. His name was Connor and i could tell you right off the bat that i thought this guy was incredibly attractive, but i would never in a million years say anything along those lines. I mean i've never really considered myself anything but strait my entire life. even if i would have feeling like this i would just try to push them away and say it's just a phase that I'll grow out of.
But anyway, i was introduced, we made small talk, than this girl walks in whom i have known since my freshman year and i can tell you i wanted nothing to do with her, and i could tell that Connor could tell this just by the look on my face as she walked in. But the rest of the night me and him just sat on one of the couches in my friends fairly large house and talked, smoked, talked, drank, and talked. Funny enough i didn't really spend i lot of time with any of my fellow cadets, just really him. mainly because we have a lot in common and he's pretty funny. And i think he could tell i was kind of getting into him (no pun intended).
So as the night started to come to a close most of the people left just leaving me, Connor, and a handful of other people who couldn't get rides home, and thank god none of us thought it would be a good idea to drive. but we had all brought sleeping bags in advance for this reason and he all kind of just settled in and passed out.
Than at around 2am i feel a hand on my shoulder waking me up. Its connor. he asks me if im awake and i say in a sarcastic voice, "i am now". so then he asks me "yea, you wanna go out back and talk a little" i say sure and he both go out the sliding glass door to the back patio where there is a kinda padded bench. so we sit down we start talking again and he asks me what i want to do when i get out of school, i say im enlisting in the Marines, with which he responds "that's hot" in a flirty kinda voice. i chuckle and laugh. Then he puts his hand on my knee and without missing a beat he looks me strait in the eyes and says, "im really starting to like you Kevin" i respond in kind, having no idea in which direction he would take it from there. it couldn't have been 2 seconds after i said i liked him too that he leans over planting his lips right on mine. and here we are, making out on the back porch his my friends house at like 2:30am. and the funny thing is, i didn't resist, not one bit. it felt like a eternity just sitting there with him, my lips battling his.
he's the first to break away. he stands up and suggests he go back inside before the others start waking up to vomit because their too hungover or to come out for a cigarette. i nod, we head back in, he both get back into our respective sleeping bags, but it takes me a good hour before i can fall back asleep after what just happened.
I wake up the next morning to my friend kicking me in the leg telling me to get up because were sharing a ride and its parked outside. so i get out of my bag to check whose still here, Connor had apparently left about an hour ago. so i get my stuff together and then i put my hand in my pocket to get my cell phone out to check for messages and i feel a paper in my pocket that wasn't there before. i pull it out and this a folded put scrap of paper with a phone number on it then bellow the number is "C." which i can most definitely assume it's Conner's. so he slipped his phone number in my pocket while i was asleep last night. when i first saw it my heart kinda had this feeling like it was going to come bouncing out of my chest. and then it sets in. i just had my first kiss, and its with another guy. i guy who i have just met the previous night.
So there it is guys. that the whole story. sorry its so long but I've had a lot on my mind for the past day and im not sure what i should do or how i should handle this. I'm here just looking for some advise and any you guys can give me would be great. I'm much appreciative of anything that's useful. So once again, Thanks.
