I've gone through something similar to this a few years ago, i was fighting the fact that i was gay and hating myself constantly for being what i considered to be wrong. until i looked at myself one day in the mirror and said to myself out loud, this shit has to stop. I got my hair cut short, i forced myself to change my music choices (I went from death metal to lighthearted stuff like owl city) and made myself believe that I was the only person who could go for my happiness. Slowly my thoughts changed, they became happy, I've accepted who i am, and have even let myself fall for one of my best Friends.
Not saying that this sort of thing will help you, but you could try changing a few things in your life to help you along the way to happiness.
oh yeah, and wear light colors, they encourage positive thinking.
Not saying that this sort of thing will help you, but you could try changing a few things in your life to help you along the way to happiness.
oh yeah, and wear light colors, they encourage positive thinking.