To be honest, I don't know. There was one girl I had strong feelings toward for a long time. Whenever I saw her smile, even if I was feeling down, it would make me feel a little better. She was also really fun to talk to, even if we disagreed on the movies or music we liked sometimes. We had known each other since first grade and hung out a lot. In middle school, we ended up in different clusters, so she went off and made a lot of new friends, and we didn't hang out much. In high school, we talked to each other quite a bit since we shared a lot of the same classes again. I tried asking her out, but most times were kind of unsuccessful. When we went to college, we went to two different ones, but we tried to keep in touch.
For a while, I thought things between us were pretty cool. She even informed me that although she pretty much enjoys any kind of music, she cannot stand Insane Clown Posse (I later listened to that song "Miracles" and was banging my head in agony listening to that garbage). But then, one day, she just stopped talking to me. I'm still not entirely sure what I did. Maybe I got creepy somehow. See, she kind of vanished from Facebook, so I got worried that something happened to her, but no matter how many times I called her or sent IMs through Meebo, she wouldn't respond. We were friends on Facebook before this, but when her account reappeared, we weren't listed as friends anymore, so I tried to add her and was rejected. I stopped trying to get in touch with her after that.
It's been over a year since I've talked to this girl. Since then, I can still function in life, and I put up a decent poker face (usually). But I haven't really had as much self-confidence or energy as I did before. I've considered trying to go out with another girl, but I haven't had the guts to ask anyone, nor the knowledge that we'd actually get along.
But what hurts the most about this situation is that I thought we were good friends for a long time, and then it just stopped cold turkey. That's kind of messed-up. I'm still not totally sure anymore if I was in love with her (I think that I was), but either way, I still miss my friend and want to fix this somehow. I just don't know what I would say...
Sorry if this story bored or annoyed you, but I needed to vent. This drives me mad sometimes. -_-