Poll: Have you ever thought about commiting suicdie?
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I'll take a #4, large. You know the phrase "How much you spend on ammunition depends on how much your life is worth to you"...? That street goes both ways.
Oh, and there was one other time when I just plain pussied out. Drank a bottle of Nyquil and about four shots of Morgan, took off in my truck and went looking for something to crash into. Somehow made it home again and the worst damage done was that I was parked slightly crooked in the driveway. At least I know I can still drink when I'm the designated driver.
Oh, and there was one other time when I just plain pussied out. Drank a bottle of Nyquil and about four shots of Morgan, took off in my truck and went looking for something to crash into. Somehow made it home again and the worst damage done was that I was parked slightly crooked in the driveway. At least I know I can still drink when I'm the designated driver.
I can say that there was a window in my life where I thought it might be an easier trial just to eat the business end of my sidearm.It was 2002 when in a period of about six months I lost my mother to a brain tumor my father was diagnosed with terminal cancer and eight of my best friends where killed while I was doing nothing trying to recover from being blown half to hell.
being a cynic misanthrope since the age a 12, yes.
but I also have a complex brain and an EXTREMELY powerfull need to win.
If I kill myself thats like admitting im not good enough to live, not strong enough to face my problems head on.
"so fuck it" i thought "ill live the best damn life i can and wave my ass at death, if I die of natural causes then its like spitting in deaths face"
so fuck you death, ima living as long as I can
but I also have a complex brain and an EXTREMELY powerfull need to win.
If I kill myself thats like admitting im not good enough to live, not strong enough to face my problems head on.
"so fuck it" i thought "ill live the best damn life i can and wave my ass at death, if I die of natural causes then its like spitting in deaths face"
so fuck you death, ima living as long as I can
thats gotta be the single most awesome quote in the world, thanks ^_^Jonesy911 said:
That actually kind of spoke to me.Jonesy911 said:I used to think those exact same things, until I came to new conclusion... "fuck it". I decided that life is pointless and became reckless and carefree, asked girls on dates that were way out of my league, did dangerous stunts to see if i would survive, stopped trying so hard in school because, who the fuck cares if you're "successful" or not, we all end up 6 feet under. I'm 16 now and have been living this way for two years and it has been the best damn two years of my life!capin Rob said:
OT: I've thought about suicide before, especially when I'm pissed off or tired(or both).
And let me tell you, being pissed off or tired won't make your decisions much wiser.
I've learned to just keep going by thinking about how great the weekend will be when it comes.
About three or four years ago I was contemplating it. Not really if I would do it, but how, why, the results of it, etc. I was kind of depressed around that time, after going to a new school and being alienated there, although it's kind of my fault for being such an annoying dick. It was mostly self-esteem issues, not having many good friends, all of that good stuff, partially as a result of my attitude, but partially because of other people's arbitrary decisions. I thought I was worthless and could not do anything about it.
Eventually, after realizing I was the only one telling myself the above, I got into music, which boosted my self-esteem a little, as well as bettering my attitude, and that got that thought off of my mind.
Then, this year I started doing debate as an after school activity and gained a lot of self-esteem, further burying those negative thoughts, because I put work into it and I could see the fruits of my labor actually being tangible, with people complimenting me on my skills, myself getting trophies (I hate to brag, and I was cringing while I wrote that, but I needed an example to make my point), and my labor being educational along the way. Also, as just a more specific nuance of debate, I used to have speech problems, a lisp and generally nonclarity while speaking, and while special classes during school could not help me, debate made me much clearer in speaking terms.
While I agree with all of the advice here, to resolve your issues, I would say: Find something that you love doing and that has a fufilling end result. Not only will you meet new people which is a benefit in itself, and take whatever skill you learn from that activity with you for life, but then, work your hardest at it, see what happens, and enjoy the end result, with the thought in mind that it was you who created that fufilling end result, whether it be a feeling of general goodness after helping people out with community service, or getting awarded for what you do with sports or someething, etc. It makes you feel alive and valuable, and obviously gets rid of self-esteem issues that at the heart of many depressions. Although what I went through is probably not as bad as what you might be going through, this certainly helps.
Eventually, after realizing I was the only one telling myself the above, I got into music, which boosted my self-esteem a little, as well as bettering my attitude, and that got that thought off of my mind.
Then, this year I started doing debate as an after school activity and gained a lot of self-esteem, further burying those negative thoughts, because I put work into it and I could see the fruits of my labor actually being tangible, with people complimenting me on my skills, myself getting trophies (I hate to brag, and I was cringing while I wrote that, but I needed an example to make my point), and my labor being educational along the way. Also, as just a more specific nuance of debate, I used to have speech problems, a lisp and generally nonclarity while speaking, and while special classes during school could not help me, debate made me much clearer in speaking terms.
While I agree with all of the advice here, to resolve your issues, I would say: Find something that you love doing and that has a fufilling end result. Not only will you meet new people which is a benefit in itself, and take whatever skill you learn from that activity with you for life, but then, work your hardest at it, see what happens, and enjoy the end result, with the thought in mind that it was you who created that fufilling end result, whether it be a feeling of general goodness after helping people out with community service, or getting awarded for what you do with sports or someething, etc. It makes you feel alive and valuable, and obviously gets rid of self-esteem issues that at the heart of many depressions. Although what I went through is probably not as bad as what you might be going through, this certainly helps.
Nope, way too detached for that kind of drama. Besides, my quality of life is far better than the vast majority of the population of this planet...so I feel ridiculous when I find myself complaining.
Thought about it but never would do it.
If I'm feeling depressed I usually listen to this song, it's called Cheer Up and it cheers me up.
If I'm feeling depressed I usually listen to this song, it's called Cheer Up and it cheers me up.
You say you're down you can't lose that frown
Life sucks. What else is new? That's tough.
There's not much you can do- you're not the only one not havin' any fun
I've got a funny feelin' we're all born to lose
And I've got a funny feelin' that this life ain't worth livin' through
I've been depressed and I get so stressed
Life sucks. I don't wonder why. That's tough.
I just keep on tryin', so I won't be the one not havin' any fun
I've got a funny feelin' we're all born to lose
And I've got a funny feelin' that this life ain't worth livin' through
I'm not givin' up yet that's not the end of me
But it's not gonna be all right you'll see, you'll see!
I've got a funny feelin' we're all born to lose
And I've got a funny feelin' that this life ain't worth livin' through
Cheer Up!
[link]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uUuNwVELyQ[/link]
Life sucks. What else is new? That's tough.
There's not much you can do- you're not the only one not havin' any fun
I've got a funny feelin' we're all born to lose
And I've got a funny feelin' that this life ain't worth livin' through
I've been depressed and I get so stressed
Life sucks. I don't wonder why. That's tough.
I just keep on tryin', so I won't be the one not havin' any fun
I've got a funny feelin' we're all born to lose
And I've got a funny feelin' that this life ain't worth livin' through
I'm not givin' up yet that's not the end of me
But it's not gonna be all right you'll see, you'll see!
I've got a funny feelin' we're all born to lose
And I've got a funny feelin' that this life ain't worth livin' through
Cheer Up!
[link]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uUuNwVELyQ[/link]
Yes I've thought about it, but to me committing suicide is akin to rage quitting. I tend not to give up on anything, ever.
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Ironically, my "never give up" mentality almost made me fail a few collage courses instead of dropping them. The stress of possibly failing almost drove me to commit suicide. Funny that. I had 2 prescriptions at the time too.
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Ironically, my "never give up" mentality almost made me fail a few collage courses instead of dropping them. The stress of possibly failing almost drove me to commit suicide. Funny that. I had 2 prescriptions at the time too.
Yes , i am going through a lot of that lately.
Whenever i hold a sharp object i think of suicide.
Whenever i hold a sharp object i think of suicide.
Whenever I get a sharp object or look down a tall building, I think "Gee, I wonder what it would be like if I gave in to my sick thoughts." Then I think how much more fun it would be to see that happen to someone else and walk away.
Unless you have a terminal disease, life can always get better. (And even if you do, life can still improve in non-physical ways before the end.) Suicide removes all possibility of that improvement and cements your life and your legacy at its lowest point. Don't do it.
I've thought about. Not considering it, but what would happen if I did. I'm happy with my life and live to be fairly positive when it comes to what may happen to me.
Oh yes, I've been down that road. I actually came pretty close to doing it once.
If I may offer some advice, don't give in to those feelings. Whatever it is that's causing you to get down, tough it out. It would probably help if you talked it out with someone, and I mean a real in-person someone, not an Internet someone.
I once read a letter that was written from a mother to her son after the son had committed suicide. After reading that letter I knew there was no way I could ever go through with such a thing. When you commit suicide you hurt all those left behind that do care about you, and don't tell me there isn't any 'cause there's always at least one.
If I may offer some advice, don't give in to those feelings. Whatever it is that's causing you to get down, tough it out. It would probably help if you talked it out with someone, and I mean a real in-person someone, not an Internet someone.
I once read a letter that was written from a mother to her son after the son had committed suicide. After reading that letter I knew there was no way I could ever go through with such a thing. When you commit suicide you hurt all those left behind that do care about you, and don't tell me there isn't any 'cause there's always at least one.