Random Depression

[2012 Wont Happen]

I am a reasonably happy person. I wouldn't say I'm happy as a rule, but compared to others I am happy about an average amount. However, usually about 2 random days in any given month, the day will start off excellent, but, despite what the events of the day were, I end up exceedingly depressed by the end on the day. Today is one of those days.

Despite being a tragic day historically, I have no real reason for thinking today was a bad day. I woke up, met up with my dad, had some fucking excellent pizza, went to my three year old niece's birthday, got to hang out with my brother and some other people I don't get to see often. It was a good day by any reasonable standard.

However, sometime in the course of the day, I went from feeling excellent to now. Now, I feel desperation and extreme sadness and I have no idea what I feel these things about.

Do any of you guys experience similar random depressed feelings? If so, what do ya'll usually do when you do feel that way?

 

[Danielsmells]

Yep. And for it I'm going to a counsellor and am covered in scars.
Seriously, your best bet's to get it under control or you'll end up as bad as me, and I assure you that's not good.

 

[One Seven One]

I sometimes get that same feeling too; it usually goes away after about ten/twenty/thirty minutes.

 

[Sleekgiant]

Shit happens to me as well bro, but it goes into the suicidal thoughts section, the only thing that gets me out of it is to do manual labor.

You'll get through it man.

 

[2012 Wont Happen]

Yep. And for it I'm going to a counsellor and am covered in scars.
Seriously, your best bet's to get it under control or you'll end up as bad as me, and I assure you that's not good.

I don't use physical pain to ease emotional pain. I've always rejected it philosophically. Or drugs for that matter, so if I saw a professional who prescribed me medication, I would reject it anyway. However, a counselor may be a good idea eventually.

Shit happens to me as well bro, but it goes into the suicidal thoughts section, the only thing that gets me out of it is to do manual labor.

You'll get through it man.

I know I'll get through it. By pattern recognition, I realize that tomorrow I'll feel fine, and I will for a couple weeks after that most likely. On the other hand, it doesn't feel like it will be right now. I have no reason to feel like this anyway though.

 

[Danielsmells]

Yep. And for it I'm going to a counsellor and am covered in scars.
Seriously, your best bet's to get it under control or you'll end up as bad as me, and I assure you that's not good.

I don't use physical pain to ease emotional pain. I've always rejected it philosophically. Or drugs for that matter, so if I saw a professional who prescribed me medication, I would reject it anyway. However, a counselor may be a good idea eventually.

I'm just using that as an extreme example.
But seriously, it'll definitely help. The longer these things go about unnoticed the worse they can become.

 

[Serenegoose]

I've had it for 11 years now, along with times when I'm so full of energy that I lose the ability to form complete sentences and end up staring off into space for hours before somehow managing to fight the urge to buy absolutely everything I encountered whilst bumbling around the net. I'm suffering, and in general suffer, the depression side more seriously than the other side, but sometimes I can go from one to the other in the space of an hour.

Today started out well - I got a new pair of goggles in the post and I was happy to have them - then it completely collapsed to the point where I just wanted to go back to bed and sleep til monday. Sometimes these depressed cycles last for months, sometimes minutes, I can't predict or control them. Doctors around here are no help whatsoever - they referred me to a psychologist, who sent me an appointment and demanded I call them to confirm it, except I get so scared of phone conversations that I couldn't. They refuse to diagnose anything that I won't effectively diagnose myself, and they just don't care.

But yeah, I get random depression, and I think I always will.

 

[Liedna]

I'm usually a 4/10 on a happyness scale. I have moments where I enjoy myself quite often but happyness isn't common. I've no reason to be particularly depressed, I have numerous good friends and a reasonable good life, but when I feel particually shit I tend to what old TV sitcoms I like and go to sleep. I don't wake up depressed or angry it's like a clean slate

 

[2012 Wont Happen]

Yep. And for it I'm going to a counsellor and am covered in scars.
Seriously, your best bet's to get it under control or you'll end up as bad as me, and I assure you that's not good.

I don't use physical pain to ease emotional pain. I've always rejected it philosophically. Or drugs for that matter, so if I saw a professional who prescribed me medication, I would reject it anyway. However, a counselor may be a good idea eventually.

I'm just using that as an extreme example.
But seriously, it'll definitely help. The longer these things go about unnoticed the worse they can become.

I might look into that then. Sounds like it could help.

I've had it for 11 years now, along with times when I'm so full of energy that I lose the ability to form complete sentences and end up staring off into space for hours before somehow managing to fight the urge to buy absolutely everything I encountered whilst bumbling around the net. I'm suffering, and in general suffer, the depression side more seriously than the other side, but sometimes I can go from one to the other in the space of an hour.

Today started out well - I got a new pair of goggles in the post and I was happy to have them - then it completely collapsed to the point where I just wanted to go back to bed and sleep til monday. Sometimes these depressed cycles last for months, sometimes minutes, I can't predict or control them. Doctors around here are no help whatsoever - they referred me to a psychologist, who sent me an appointment and demanded I call them to confirm it, except I get so scared of phone conversations that I couldn't. They refuse to diagnose anything that I won't effectively diagnose myself, and they just don't care.

But yeah, I get random depression, and I think I always will.

That really sucks. Definitely a lot worse than the random depression I get. Mine only lasts a day usually. When I go into a cycle of it while I actually have something to be down about, sometimes it can last longer. Never as long as months though.

 

[GrimTuesday]

Is it a really strong sense of hopelessness and sadness? Because if it is I have the same problem but I find that it is usually triggered by something. I find that if I just keep doing what I need to do it goes away.

 

[2012 Wont Happen]

Is it a really strong sense of hopelessness and sadness? Because if it is I have the same problem but I find that it is usually triggered by something. I find that if I just keep doing what I need to do it goes away.

Yeah. Its that. Rarely its triggered by events in life, then it lasts a while. In these one day bursts though, it happens with no provocation, and is actually worse than when its triggered by something. When its triggered by something, I can usually work it out in my head. When it isn't, what is there to work out?

 

[Rasputin1]

I'm very experienced with depression. However , I know of no ways to get rid of it. 'least I haven't found one. Occasionally I'll get struck by it so bad I'll have to stop everything Im doing and.. Well just sit there. It's difficult to explain.

Either way, hope you find something to help.

 

[CarpathianMuffin]

The same thing happens to me pretty often. Usually it's a loss of will to do anything other than mope about, and it's incredibly random.
I could be having the time of my life in a conversation or doing something that I want, but then it hits and all I want to do is curl up and die in a corner.

I saw a therapist about it for some time, but that went to shit pretty soon.
It's only gotten worse as school's started up again, and I honestly think that if I didn't have a couple of my close friends and my girlfriend, I'd be damn near impossible to get out of bed in the morning to do anything.

 

[Danielsmells]

I might look into that then. Sounds like it could help.

Sorry, I'm being somewhat blunt. In my defence I'm somewhat drunk.
I had what you appear to have for quite a few years.
I dismissed it as nothing, at first.
Then I met a friend who told me of the fact she had chronic depression, whilst at the same time doing a psychology course which delved into depression and the like for a small bit.
Then I basically decided I'd go to the doctor about it, at the least all he'd say is I'm just being silly.
But he didn't, he sent me to a counsellor, and I'm slowly feeling better.
And I kinda hope now my story will spur you into doing something about it, cause it's really no way to live.

 

[Blue Musician]

I get depressed a lot, but apparently it's also random. I just learned to live with it.

 

[Amethyst Wind]

If this is a regular thing, reasonably consistent timetable between episodes, it could have a biological cause, a hormonal imbalance or your body flushing your system or something...

 

[Skorpyo]

Yeah, I get depression with the same regularity that women have periods. You could even set your clock by it.

Can't explain it, though.

 

[2012 Wont Happen]

I might look into that then. Sounds like it could help.

Sorry, I'm being somewhat blunt. In my defence I'm somewhat drunk.
I had what you appear to have for quite a few years.
I dismissed it as nothing, at first.
Then I met a friend who told me of the fact she had chronic depression, whilst at the same time doing a psychology course which delved into depression and the like for a small bit.
Then I basically decided I'd go to the doctor about it, at the least all he'd say is I'm just being silly.
But he didn't, he sent me to a counsellor, and I'm slowly feeling better.
And I kinda hope now my story will spur you into doing something about it, cause it's really no way to live.

Thank you for your concern. I'll see if there's anyone at my school or something that handles this sort of thing. I know we technically have someone with such a position, but I don't know if they're at all effective. I'll talk to them still.

 

[Ham_authority95]

I've gone through cycles like that before, specifically all of winter-spring of this year.

I had no idea what was happening. I was tired from schoolwork, sure, but besides that, I had NO reason to be depressed like I was.

It was progressive too, because I started pushing my friends away, generally disliked everyone, and even declared myself misanthropic at one point.

As it got closer to the summer, I started happening less often due to my newfound love(music), but I still have days where I get hopeless and misanthropic.(although now I've learned to deal with it better. i.e getting my mind off it and being around people.)

I hope this tells you that someone else has felt the same as you have.

EDIT: The advise to get a counselor was great, if this is getting out of hand.

 

[Serenegoose]

Thank you for your concern. I'll see if there's anyone at my school or something that handles this sort of thing. I know we technically have someone with such a position, but I don't know if they're at all effective. I'll talk to them still.

A counselor can be a good idea - when I had one, it was a help to me, though sometimes I wasn't able to make it to the appointments. It can help just having someone in person to open up to, even if there's no real reason for the depression, it can lighten it. Kinda wish I had my counselor back now actually.