OP perfectly represents a good portion of what I hate about growing up in this generation: people are so goddamn wrapped up in what they want, and feel so entitled to it that they'll unthinkingly stomp all over others in their quest to find what makes them personally happy.
Then, when they finally stop to reflect on what they've done, they shrug and say "Well, I guess that should make me a shitty person, but I don't feel like one. Say, give me five minutes to rationalize my way out of any and all feelings of guilt, and then I'll be back to doing this before you know it." Or, just as commonly, "yep, I'm a shitty person, and so I'll pretend to be ashamed of it like it's a problem I have no control over even though the most basic level of self-control could have prevented this, or maybe I'll even act like I'm proud of this fact, because both options easier than changing in any way."
Such narcissism. You have no idea how sick I am of people trying to justify doing shitty things just because "it's who I am, and you should accept me for it". I blame the whole "self-esteem movement" that went on the entire time I was in school. Y'know, how kids were taught to accept each other, and everybody's different in their own way but we should be okay with that. It succeeded in removing the sense of shame from pretty much everyone and made everyone comfortable with who they are, but that turned out to be bad because shame is what primarily governs our sense of morality and decency. We watch "reality TV" where the backstabbers and total cocksuckers are the ones that make it to the top; we hear about the grossly decadent and amoral lives that the rich and successful lead, and as a result, being a piece of shit is marketed to us in the same way that beer commercials convince us that drinking is the only way to party.
I'm not some conservative Christian watchdog that shakes his head and mutters about "kids these days", I'm just sick of being around these same fuckstains that grew up being taught that the world owes them something, and if it isn't provided to them by some random happenstance, then they should take it from somebody else. It's not ambition, it's a sense of over-entitlement, and frankly, I'm done tolerating that kind of bullshit from people. Compassion is on the ropes and we're all winding up to deal the final blow by idolizing the asswipes that live so obscenely that the Romans would vomit involuntarily.
By the way, OP, regarding your situation: I have nothing but contempt for you.
