What is wrong with me?

[GroundedStatic]

I used to post here often but my computer crashed and honestly I can't remember my password or which email account I used to create the account so here's a fresh start in 2011. Wee.

Righto, so, I've been asking myself that question lately. "What is wrong with me?"

Specifically, in terms of emotions. Emotionally, I haven't been able to feel love, hatred, anger or relaxation. I can't figure out why. I'm completely devoid of emotions, and I feel neither happy nor sad most of the time. It's always in a vague and hazy "in between", and I can't stand it.

It wouldn't worry me if it didn't affect me, but it does and it's terrifying. For example: Up until the past few weeks I've thought I loved this girl. I told her about three weeks ago and for about a week I was still feeling that way. But now, it's as if I couldn't care less. I can't figure out why, and it's pissing me off to no end, because I'm certain if I were my normal self I would. I feel little twinges of it coming back at times but then it goes away and I feel completely barren of any emotion whatsoever.

I tried looking it up and all I've found is that some people call it depression. I don't, really, because I'm not really depressed, just don't feel anything. I suppose depression would be feeling bad all the time, but I don't have that--I just don't feel anything all the time.

Has anybody else experienced this?

How can I get out of this?

And lastly, do you like waffles?

 

[GroundedStatic]

Sounds like me in my 3rd year of high school. Did all your friends abandon you and your homelife suck too.

No. I don't keep friends who'd abandon me and I don't care enough about my family to let them hurt me in that way.

 

[Dash85]

I fucking love waffles. I think they are better than pancakes. Actually, that's a lie, I don't love waffles, I just think they are the marginally better of the two.

 

[TitanAtlas]

The disconnection feeling... i had it when i was younger...

When i was... well... a teenager i liked to play games alot... then my other friends that were equal tome abandoned me for better groups... and like that they forgot we were ever friends...

And i got bullied at school... at a point i felt so alone that i couldnt care about a thing... i didnt had any suicide tendencies or depressions... i just... didnt felt anything...

And even when i tryed to integrate in my class i heard they talk in my back... they called me the zombie cuz i always drifted the school aimlessly, and they called me the solitary guy cuz most of the time i was alone...

Then i got angry.... really angry... so i started to care...

the first thing i did was to change my attitude... also i grew up a LOT so people naturally started to fear me a little for that.

From the time i was 19 my whole attitude had changed... became a good person, get invited to parties, have lots of friends, got my license, know how to behave in the correct situation...

Never enjoyed my life till i got 19 aniway... did some wicked stuff with my friends, got into fights, talked my way out from nasty situations along with my friends, got car chased by some pimp with a gun (true, and problably one of the scariest moments of my life), got into parties, been in awsome concerts, had fun... and baby... my life is just beggining...

so trust me when i tell you.... been there... done that... but then i evolved... and son... the grass is greenier in the other side... and im loving it!!!

 

[DefunctTheory]

Has anybody else experienced this?

I have. Pretty bad times.

How can I get out of this?

There's no trick. Just power on and don't kill yourself like a pansy.

And lastly, do you like waffles?

Yes!

Sorry if my answers are short, blunt, or even rude, but it's pretty simple. A lot of people like to complicate situations like this, or romance them. What you have to remember is simple: all things pass. YOu just have to stick with it.

 

[WhatHityou]

I'm not quite sure about your condition as im no doctor but depression may be the cause. Depression dose include being emotionally numb. In just making an assumption from your other post but maybe you are going through a depressed state because of your disregard or lack of seeing or sharing anything with them, possibly because you can't share the love for your new girlfriend with your family. You also may have some resentment for your relationship if your seeking something more serious.

I would see a phyciatrist or a doctor though as this may be a chemical imbalance or another strong form of depression.

 

[Monkfish Acc.]

Waffles are pretty okay.

Anyway, yeah. I went through a stage where I felt like that. Only it didn't bother me, I viewed it as a massive step up.
It's called "thymoanesthesia", and it is usually a sign of depression. It can also happen as a side effect of anti-anxiety/depression meds.

I still pretty much feel like that. So I can't really help you.
I guess, if you're anything like me, the next stage is that you still feel like that, but you're also angry all the time at everything, including yourself.

You should probably go get actual help instead of asking an internet forum, though. I'm comfortable like this, but you are clearly not.

 

[GroundedStatic]

I used to post here often but my computer crashed and honestly I can't remember my password or which email account I used to create the account so here's a fresh start in 2011. Wee.

Righto, so, I've been asking myself that question lately. "What is wrong with me?"

Specifically, in terms of emotions. Emotionally, I haven't been able to feel love, hatred, anger or relaxation. I can't figure out why. I'm completely devoid of emotions, and I feel neither happy nor sad most of the time. It's always in a vague and hazy "in between", and I can't stand it.

It wouldn't worry me if it didn't affect me, but it does and it's terrifying. For example: Up until the past few weeks I've thought I loved this girl. I told her about three weeks ago and for about a week I was still feeling that way. But now, it's as if I couldn't care less. I can't figure out why, and it's pissing me off to no end, because I'm certain if I were my normal self I would. I feel little twinges of it coming back at times but then it goes away and I feel completely barren of any emotion whatsoever.

I tried looking it up and all I've found is that some people call it depression. I don't, really, because I'm not really depressed, just don't feel anything. I suppose depression would be feeling bad all the time, but I don't have that--I just don't feel anything all the time.

Has anybody else experienced this?

How can I get out of this?

And lastly, do you like waffles?

It is depression, or at least something very close to to. Depression isn't anger, or sadness, or any emotion of that sort. For that matter, depression doesn't include any emotion. Depression is a complete and total lack of emotion, and it's worse than anger and sadness and pain.

How do you deal with it? I don't know. It's not always a bad "feeling", and I use that word lightly since it's a lack of feeling anything that is depression.

That last bit, where you asked if I (or any other poster) liked waffles; that's a good thing, it shows a sense of humor. Keep that, you'll need it. And yes, I do like waffles.

I'm a musical person, of sorts. And one of my passions is writing--writing stories, writing books, writing poetry. I've noticed I practice my music more often now, find myself gravitating away from everything else and picking up whatever instrument is nearest to me and playing. I've also been listening to more music than usual--I've picked up about 150 songs in the past few weeks and I don't think I've taken my headphones off for more than an hour at a time.

I suppose that's how I deal with it. I'm working on a project of a book that I've cropped up for the past few years as well, and I've really skyrocketed progress on it. Whereas I used to write maybe a chapter every two weeks (and little, smaller chapters), I've been writing bigger, fatter and meatier chapters, and I write one every few days or so.

If I'm idle with a pencil and paper around I'll start doing what I called "concept poetry". It's sort of tacky that I give it a name, but I'll draw a picture of an image in my head and then project whatever emotions I feel at the time in the form of poetry accompanying it or even in the actual drawing itself. With that said, the poetry's shorter and choppier, more stream-of-consciousness but the best I've made in months.

 

[MisterShine]

It is depression, or at least something very close to to. Depression isn't anger, or sadness, or any emotion of that sort. For that matter, depression doesn't include any emotion. Depression is a complete and total lack of emotion, and it's worse than anger and sadness and pain.

How do you deal with it? I don't know.

I do know. Depression is an affliction like any other, it can be cured and combated like any illness. Talk to a doctor and they'll help and tell you what your next steps to be. It doesn't always lead to happy pills or lying on a couch, but you NEED to get help for this, people just aren't
Made for tackling these things alone. Also you should talk with your girlfriend, explain your feelings are in turbulence now and she may have to deal with some weird shit if she wants to stick around, if she doesn't, try not to take it too harshly.

I was In a similar situation in high school and I was too proud to ask for help, and I lost a lot because of it.

Hope this helps.

 

[GroundedStatic]

You know there's an advice forum now, right? It is literally designed for questions like this.

Also, doctors suck, don't even bother with them.

I didn't see it, I'll keep it in mind next time. Sorry if this gets in the way in the Off-Topic, until then. Not that it'll stay here long, heh.

 

[Blank Kold]

The fact that you feel worried means that your not a sociopath. If you're normally apathetic and then get large surges of emotion, you're probably a manic or, in terms that sound considerably worse, bipolar. Thought that's already been said. Psychology isn't my area of expertise, but this would be my best guess.

Also, waffles are pretty ok.

 

[GroundedStatic]

It is depression, or at least something very close to to. Depression isn't anger, or sadness, or any emotion of that sort. For that matter, depression doesn't include any emotion. Depression is a complete and total lack of emotion, and it's worse than anger and sadness and pain.

How do you deal with it? I don't know.

I do know. Depression is an affliction like any other, it can be cured and combated like any illness. Talk to a doctor and they'll help and tell you what your next steps to be. It doesn't always lead to happy pills or lying on a couch, but you NEED to get help for this, people just aren't
Made for tackling these things alone. Also you should talk with your girlfriend, explain your feelings are in turbulence now and she may have to deal with some weird shit if she wants to stick around, if she doesn't, try not to take it too harshly.

I was In a similar situation in high school and I was too proud to ask for help, and I lost a lot because of it.

Hope this helps.

I haven't felt any change in its progression--it hasn't gotten any worse or any better lately, but if it starts affecting my life more than it is now, I'll see a professional.

I think the issue may be centered around this girl, actually. She's not my girlfriend, per-say, but she's my best friend and the only person I talk to about problems like this and ones I wouldn't tell another soul. I've known her for years and for almost that length the emotion I've felt towards her has grown and I've known it as well as I know my fingertips.

I told her my feelings weeks ago and she told me she'd rather not talk for a while. That was a little before this all kicked in. Honestly, I'm not trying to create some sob-story here, but she's the only thing in my life I could conceive rendering me completely incapacitated emotionally.

My hypothesis is that it's a withdrawal symptom.

And it did help.

 

[manaman]

Sounds like me in my 3rd year of high school. Did all your friends abandon you and your homelife suck too.

I hate to say this, but there is only one common thread in that statement.

Not that it's necessarily your fault, or even completely your fault it happened, but you have to recognize that the only thing that ties everything in that statement together is you.

Sorry, but have listened to countless people rant about how every person they date turns out to be a ***** or an asshole. Not acting like they are exaggerating either, they think everything is the fault of the other person in the relationship, that their shit doesn't stink in other words.

 

[Squarez]

The disconnection feeling... i had it when i was younger...

When i was... well... a teenager i liked to play games alot... then my other friends that were equal tome abandoned me for better groups... and like that they forgot we were ever friends...

And i got bullied at school... at a point i felt so alone that i couldnt care about a thing... i didnt had any suicide tendencies or depressions... i just... didnt felt anything...

And even when i tryed to integrate in my class i heard they talk in my back... they called me the zombie cuz i always drifted the school aimlessly, and they called me the solitary guy cuz most of the time i was alone...

Then i got angry.... really angry... so i started to care...

the first thing i did was to change my attitude... also i grew up a LOT so people naturally started to fear me a little for that.

From the time i was 19 my whole attitude had changed... became a good person, get invited to parties, have lots of friends, got my license, know how to behave in the correct situation...

Never enjoyed my life till i got 19 aniway... did some wicked stuff with my friends, got into fights, talked my way out from nasty situations along with my friends, got car chased by some pimp with a gun (true, and problably one of the scariest moments of my life), got into parties, been in awsome concerts, had fun... and baby... my life is just beggining...

so trust me when i tell you.... been there... done that... but then i evolved... and son... the grass is greenier in the other side... and im loving it!!!

Holy shit, son. Commas! Stop using elipses when they're not needed.

 

[Paksenarrion]

That sounds like depression, alright. Watch something emotionally stirring and cry yourself out. Don't worry, it doesn't count against your man tears if it's Pokemon 2000.

 

[Falconus]

It is not necessarily depression, and from my point of view I find it unlikely. But I recommend seeking a professional opinion. Because we internet people don't know jack shit.

 

[TitanAtlas]

Holy shit, son. Commas! Stop using elipses when they're not needed.

Ill do whatever i want MUAHAHAHAHAHAHH!!!!!

Spoiler: Heres something to lighten up your day :D

did it work? Hope it did...

 

[GroundedStatic]

That sounds like depression, alright. Watch something emotionally stirring and cry yourself out. Don't worry, it doesn't count against your man tears if it's Pokemon 2000.

I love that movie immensely.

Holy shit, son. Commas! Stop using elipses when they're not needed.

Ill do whatever i want MUAHAHAHAHAHAHH!!!!!

Spoiler: Heres something to lighten up your day :D

did it work? Hope it did...

Her nose is so attractive to me.

 

[kypsilon]

Like the waffles. And yes, it sounds very much like depression. Don't make the mistake of assuming because you think you aren't feeling down that it can't be depression. The mind will shut things down on you if it's trying to protect itself.

Get help if you think there's even a chance. What have you got to lose by trying right?

 

[Squarez]

Holy shit, son. Commas! Stop using elipses when they're not needed.

Ill do whatever i want MUAHAHAHAHAHAHH!!!!!

Spoiler: Heres something to lighten up your day :D

did it work? Hope it did...

You can't distract me with your women...on...the...

What was I angry about, again?