I used to post here often but my computer crashed and honestly I can't remember my password or which email account I used to create the account so here's a fresh start in 2011. Wee.
Righto, so, I've been asking myself that question lately. "What is wrong with me?"
Specifically, in terms of emotions. Emotionally, I haven't been able to feel love, hatred, anger or relaxation. I can't figure out why. I'm completely devoid of emotions, and I feel neither happy nor sad most of the time. It's always in a vague and hazy "in between", and I can't stand it.
It wouldn't worry me if it didn't affect me, but it does and it's terrifying. For example: Up until the past few weeks I've thought I loved this girl. I told her about three weeks ago and for about a week I was still feeling that way. But now, it's as if I couldn't care less. I can't figure out why, and it's pissing me off to no end, because I'm certain if I were my normal self I would. I feel little twinges of it coming back at times but then it goes away and I feel completely barren of any emotion whatsoever.
I tried looking it up and all I've found is that some people call it depression. I don't, really, because I'm not really depressed, just don't feel anything. I suppose depression would be feeling bad all the time, but I don't have that--I just don't feel anything all the time.
Has anybody else experienced this?
How can I get out of this?
And lastly, do you like waffles?
