What's the strangest thing to ever happen to your body/mind?
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Is that related to SSRIs by any chance? Or other similar medication? I get those quite bad as one of many a withdrawal symptom from any time I fail to, or cannot take them. It's annoying there doesn't seem to be any official term for them yet, nor physical explanation available due to lack of research as far as I know. The first time freaked me out so badly when it happened at work, till much later when it became clear what caused them. Still really unpleasant.Ezekiel said:
OT: hmm, not sure how much is worth delving into, am almost certain every abnormal thing is just another indicator that proves how unfit for existence this malfunctioning survival machine is. Does not inspire confidence in the slightest as to why it still demands to live so much. The physical stuff just makes me hate myself more, the mental stuff is too worthless trying to explain unless it directly affects somebody else. I think I just thought myself out of this idea.
Not doubting you because depression can cause all kinds of weird shit, but I've never heard of brain zaps caused by depression, though it is a common side-effect of coming off of anti-depressants, have you been on any medication lately? If you don't mind my asking.Ezekiel said:
EDIT: Just saw I was beaten to it...
Easily it was my traumatic brain injury I suffered in a motorcycle accident.
The best way to put it is you stop feeling the same way about stuff.
People, places, food, hobbies, memories. The last one of which isn't as bad as it sounds, because despite you thinking otherwise memory is always a fickle thing and prone to confabulation, mutability and altered states of engagement with another.
Hence why when you hear two old friends reminisce a lot of the times one or both in the span of an hour will say; "Hold on a tick, I thought such and such met us afterwards!?" >>> "Oh yeah! No, you're right!"
In truth there's a good chance both of them are wrong, and the memory has been sufficiently altered simply by continued correspondence of the fact, and they've run enough experiments into false memory phenomena to realise just how fucking bad memory is of keeping 'facts' together.
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But a traumatic brain injury? You blatantly know you're not you anymore. It's not merely a confabulation of the things you once were or did. You start to lose friends because, well, you're not like who you were. Either you or they can no longer connect and eventually relationships fall apart.
You're a different person. In my case, I had to relearn to walk, relearn how to express myself, deal with the fact that you can't connect with people you thought of as once friends. Everything feels off and reality will never be quite the same thing again.
To put it plainly, it's like rebuildng a new reality and systems of engaging with it.
This is why many people who suffer a TBI, they get so easily frustrated in situations that seem so very simple, or trying to fill out documents, or negotiate with former friends or family who once had a certain level of 'tolerable annoyance' factor that a person may have weathered but now no longer. Hence, anger and depression come with it like an 18 wheeler. It was my injury that made me want to study psychology, however. Get in deep about how the brain works.
The best way to put it is you stop feeling the same way about stuff.
People, places, food, hobbies, memories. The last one of which isn't as bad as it sounds, because despite you thinking otherwise memory is always a fickle thing and prone to confabulation, mutability and altered states of engagement with another.
Hence why when you hear two old friends reminisce a lot of the times one or both in the span of an hour will say; "Hold on a tick, I thought such and such met us afterwards!?" >>> "Oh yeah! No, you're right!"
In truth there's a good chance both of them are wrong, and the memory has been sufficiently altered simply by continued correspondence of the fact, and they've run enough experiments into false memory phenomena to realise just how fucking bad memory is of keeping 'facts' together.
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But a traumatic brain injury? You blatantly know you're not you anymore. It's not merely a confabulation of the things you once were or did. You start to lose friends because, well, you're not like who you were. Either you or they can no longer connect and eventually relationships fall apart.
You're a different person. In my case, I had to relearn to walk, relearn how to express myself, deal with the fact that you can't connect with people you thought of as once friends. Everything feels off and reality will never be quite the same thing again.
To put it plainly, it's like rebuildng a new reality and systems of engaging with it.
This is why many people who suffer a TBI, they get so easily frustrated in situations that seem so very simple, or trying to fill out documents, or negotiate with former friends or family who once had a certain level of 'tolerable annoyance' factor that a person may have weathered but now no longer. Hence, anger and depression come with it like an 18 wheeler. It was my injury that made me want to study psychology, however. Get in deep about how the brain works.
Anxiety is one explanation but I'd talk to your doctor. Spasms like you're describing can be caused by a lot of things. I'm no doctor, but I do study neuroscience and there's a lot of things that can cause brain zaps. Understanding what causes it means being able to treat it.Ezekiel said:
Multiple sclerosis, alcoholism, PTS, and so on.
MS in particular has periodic episodes in development and typically are diagnpsed between the ages of 25 to 40 when problems begin to truly manifest. The idea of you getting 'over it' only to suffer them out of the blue again, it may pay to see a doctor for a referral if there are other worrying signs that mark down more checkboxes.
It's not a one-time thing for me. Under certain conditions I can faint, and in the worst case scenario have something resembling an epileptic seizure. (though it isn't that) Usually it's when I experience intense pain or when I get REALLY nervous. I've had it all my life, had it checked, but the doctors can't find anything that could be it's cause.
I had my first ever general anaesthetic last week. Nothing really trippy. Just you know unsettling... Anaesthetist makes joke about swearing at his registrar and suddenly I'm in a bed, disinhibitedly scolding the recovery nurse for eating at a giant tourist trap when he visited my home town.
I've had a few occasions of deja vu strong enough where I've spent several minutes trying to figure out when I had done what I had just done before.
Also, recently I had such a long and mundane dream that for a few seconds after I woke up I thought my dream had been my real day off and I was hours late for work.
Also, recently I had such a long and mundane dream that for a few seconds after I woke up I thought my dream had been my real day off and I was hours late for work.
Easily, it was the time I found out that my body has a high tolerance for Pain medication.
It was the time that I went to the dentist and I found out I had multiple Cavities that needed filling.
After the fourth shot of Novocaine, the doctor said my 15 year old self shouldn't have been able to talk. And that it was too bad, but he wasn't allowed to give me any more shots.
And I felt everything. Each time.
It was the time that I went to the dentist and I found out I had multiple Cavities that needed filling.
After the fourth shot of Novocaine, the doctor said my 15 year old self shouldn't have been able to talk. And that it was too bad, but he wasn't allowed to give me any more shots.
And I felt everything. Each time.
I've managed to drop pretty much every drug I've taken, cold turkey, except caffeine.
I smoked tobacco products for nearly three years, back in middle school, always bumming off of other people.
But I couldn't bum them off of anyone in 9th grade...so I quit.
I've, maybe, had 10 tobacco products since.
Only for special occasions, like births or graduations.
So...yay?
I smoked tobacco products for nearly three years, back in middle school, always bumming off of other people.
But I couldn't bum them off of anyone in 9th grade...so I quit.
I've, maybe, had 10 tobacco products since.
Only for special occasions, like births or graduations.
So...yay?
I used to have this dream (read nightmare) where I'd be falling off a building (and I clearly remember it would be night time - pitch dark) and I heard people screaming as I fell. This fall seemed to go on forever and there would be times I was desperate to wake up, but just couldn't! It felt as if my body was held captive by my mind. At times, I would hallucinate long after I woke up...I'd hear those same voices screaming as I tried to go on about my day. I was afraid of sleeping and I was scared of being awake and I felt helpless and hopeless. I was traumatized by the frequent occurrence of this nightmare until I met a shrink who told me about sleep paralysis (here's an interesting essay [http://www.studymode.com/essays/Sleep-Paralysis-186661.html] that sheds more light on sleep paralysis) and helped me to deal with it using various helpful mind control techniques. It's been a little over 7 years since I got rid of sleep paralysis. I can't thank my luck enough for finding help at the right time.
I did forget the other less controllable thing that happened in high school after my sister tried to kill herself. First I had spontaneous leg twitching. So my right leg would randomly start bobbing of its own accord. Eventually suppressed that only for it to be replaced by what the ophthalmologist called Accommodating Eye Spasms.
Hard to describe but the closest I can get it is this. Remember in school when we used those desktop microscopes? and you twist the dials to adjust the focus and it would shift from clear to blurry and back? Now Imagine someone is constantly twisting the dials back and forth...that is what my vision would become when it was happening. Constant swooping focus with tantalizing moments of clarity.
Terrifying at first because we had no sure answer on why. Apparently stress is bad. Still happens sometimes now but a couple dilating eye drops partially paralyzes the focus muscles so its less of a problem.
Hard to describe but the closest I can get it is this. Remember in school when we used those desktop microscopes? and you twist the dials to adjust the focus and it would shift from clear to blurry and back? Now Imagine someone is constantly twisting the dials back and forth...that is what my vision would become when it was happening. Constant swooping focus with tantalizing moments of clarity.
Terrifying at first because we had no sure answer on why. Apparently stress is bad. Still happens sometimes now but a couple dilating eye drops partially paralyzes the focus muscles so its less of a problem.
Would it be an overreach to say that at the event of a TBI one person dies and another person is born?Addendum_Forthcoming said:
OT: Erm...I have ASMR, so does that count? Not traumatic like everyone else and it's actually quite nice. I was surprised to learn everyone doesn't have it.
Undoubtedly seizures for me. Even after I stopped having the grand mal ones, it really messes with your perception of time. You feel lightheaded, and usually try to close your eyes, since you're trying NOT to overload your brain with stimuli. Thoughts pass through your mind and it feels kind of dreamlike, and then mere moments later, everyone is staring at you and someone tells you that you've been sitting/standing slack-jawed for 15-20 minutes straight.
That is a subject of philosophy. Google ship of Theseus.LetalisK said:
Or watch this video.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nQHBAdShgYI
My bodyhair tried to kill me by starting to grow inwards.
I once slept on my back, both arms under my back (don't even ask how they got there, I have no clue) so they went numb, woke up with the feeling of having no arms. Really freaking scary first seconds!
That's about it I think.
I once slept on my back, both arms under my back (don't even ask how they got there, I have no clue) so they went numb, woke up with the feeling of having no arms. Really freaking scary first seconds!
That's about it I think.
Why do they ask you to count down from 10? It seems kind of cruel. I never managed to get past 2, but challenge accepted. Do they ask you to repeat if you get down to 0? I'm kind of terrified of the idea that once you get to '0' it will be accompanied with an "Ah crap..."WolfThomas said:
I personally don't mind GA. You feel like crap afterwards, but at the same time it feels like the only time you've really ever slept... It's like magic. Suddenly you're unconscious. No tossing, no turning, no indefineable itches in the back of your brain. It's like having a proper reboot.
Depends on the extent of the injuries? Given that for 12 months afterwards I was still doing rehab to walk, to talk without slurring my words, and I lost half of my memories and could no longer connect with people I knew my entire life then I'd say so ... you have to reorganise your own relations and rethink your approach to things in a brand new way.LetalisK said:
So yes?
Less ship of Theseus. Ship of Theseus assumes a ship is still a ship ... whereas with a bad enough TBI a ship no longer looks like a ship, and you can't quite remember what a ship looks like, either.Dismal purple said:
You just woke up on it ... and it will never feel like the same ship regardless, so why bother pretending it will ever be the same or a similar ship anyways? Just treat it as a brand new thing and you'll eventually adapt.
I was afflicted with the with some strain of the coxsackie virus as a kid. Apparently there was a people murdering one floating around at the time which freaked me out when the doctor mentioned the name, but it was a less deadly strain I got.
It generally made me feel like arse and vomitty and I had a bunch of weird meds. When I came out of it, I discovered I could burp on command. It's just swallowing air and expelling it a certain way but it was something I couldn't do before.
And well, wearing glasses awakened some facial muscles which allowed me to do that ear twitching thing. Which came from trying to adjust my glasses without my hands. I was like 10 and it felt cool cause only one other dude in class could do it. But now I can!
I got way drunk once and started having spasms in my friend's car. I'd just momentarily freeze up, start twitching like mad and then relax again. Also did a funny dance to get him to stop the car so I could puke out the side. I puked all over my arm, the arm that held the door open.
Pretty mundane shit all in all.
It generally made me feel like arse and vomitty and I had a bunch of weird meds. When I came out of it, I discovered I could burp on command. It's just swallowing air and expelling it a certain way but it was something I couldn't do before.
And well, wearing glasses awakened some facial muscles which allowed me to do that ear twitching thing. Which came from trying to adjust my glasses without my hands. I was like 10 and it felt cool cause only one other dude in class could do it. But now I can!
I got way drunk once and started having spasms in my friend's car. I'd just momentarily freeze up, start twitching like mad and then relax again. Also did a funny dance to get him to stop the car so I could puke out the side. I puked all over my arm, the arm that held the door open.
Pretty mundane shit all in all.
The one time I remember being on GA I got to 7 then the next thing I knew I was in a different building and had no wisdom teeth.Addendum_Forthcoming said: