I can understand this, I used to get asked shit like this, it's been awhile, but I used to just ignore it and talk around the issue, cuz honestly I couldn't care less. Still, I used to try and find a woman, thing is, not saying all women are crazy, flippy floppy, moronic, overly emotional creatures, just, what I've found, is a LOT of women who I would classify as so psychologically unstable that they make me look like a granite fortress of mental stability, and being a slightly eccentric/nutty person myself, to say the least, this isn't exactly a very encouraging thing for me. Dated more than a few women over the years, I'm not some sort of trogloditic momma's basement dwelling cavegeek.
So yeah, when I ended up contracting genital herpes off of a chick who I was with for 5 months(my current longest relationship ever) who herself was a carrier, and didn't know, or so I am led to believe, after being in a relationship that cost me over $1000 due to my own stupidity, and after looking at how my life was stable, and enjoyable, and my friendships were great, and how having a woman in my life who I fell for, pulled apart the fabric of stability that allowed me to stay afloat, I ended up just... stopping.
If I find a woman who doesn't care that I won't be that into sex (mainly due to my condition, meaning I always hafta wear a condom, and since I may as well be wearing a steel banded tire for all the sensation I can feel through even the thinnest rubber, makes sex itself, pretty well pointless for me for the most part), a woman who I find interesting enough to stay with, one who is not either straight up stone/stump stupid, one who doesn't think I'm an immature baby for playing games from time to time, and who can appreciate that YES I AM allergic to cats(even though they are cute, and whatnot, I can appreciate that, and they tend to like me).
Yeah, also, I'm not a financial success, I'm not in the greatest physical shape, I don't drive, or have a car right now, I can't dance worth shit anymore, and I have a partially gimped leg, a bent spine(birth defect, barely noticable when I'm fit and muscly, which I currently am not, so yeah I have a hard time not slouching after I've been on my feet for any length of time.) a small dick, and a few other things that make me sufficiently less elligable than most if not all other men in the country in which I live.
I honestly don't care anymore, even the best relationships I've been in, have been short lived, generally end either with me ending it, or her ending it due to me being outshined by some other guy(big fucking suprise there).
Why would I continue to struggle away in a constant never ending battle to pursue a relationship, especially when I cannot find anyone who I find interesting enough to even ask out anymore.
Hell, the only women I've found attractive in the last year or so, have all been either married or engaged, or are in a relationship with a friend of mine (I will never let myself get into a situation where a friendship is threatened or damaged by my personal feelings of attraction to any woman, EVER, cuz in my life, without my friends, I would be starving on the street, so I won't jeapordize something as important as my relationship to those even closer to me than family, for any reason).
I won'd kid myself and say "I'm perfectly happy single." but I do know that I'm currently not interested in taking on the stress involved in bothering with such bullshit.
But hey, if I find someone who isn't more attracted to someone else, who I find interesting enough in the right way, then I'll be more than happy to transition from my single state into a relationship.
Until then, I will carry on, and I will continue to not give a shit.
