I made a post some months ago about fetishes and I hoped someone would tell me stuff to give me confidence to admit a very strange curiosity of self.
I was so disappointed. Everyone's fetish was lame and normal and I lost my nerve.
But now I'm doing it. I hope. If I don't read back and delete it with my shame.
Kids, strap in because this will be a wild rant. I have a complex relationship with feet. I find them ugly to look at and don't want you to touch me with them. And I get aroused when other women are barefoot. Not by the feet but by them being barefoot. And the world is a strange place for me.
I don't have a foot fetish per se because I don't like looking or touch feet so I don't identify with the foot fetish people but I don't feel normal either. I get aroused seeing cute women barefoot around me and I get shy being barefoot around others. I am always hyper aware when someone around me is barefoot or vice versa, I feel more vulnerable when someone has shoes and I do not. Because lots of people say they hate feet but act completely normal when people are barefoot around them I cannot figure out how people view the bare feet or if they even acknowledge them in their own heads. I sometimes avoid wearing ballerinas or other shoes without socks if I think I might have to remove them in front of people even though I don't think my own feet are particularly ugly but I have no problem being barefoot if I'm doing a sport and it's part of the uniform or if I go swimming.
Three examples of this come to my head.
Of first, I was watching TV with my dad when a character was lying on her bed barefoot with her feet up while talking to someone. My dad did not react but I was so self conscious like I was watching porn with my family that I wanted the ground to swallow me. I had to also pretend this meant nothing to me.
Of second, when my sister and I were teenagers we were in my room and we heard my brother's friend come in downstairs. My sister thought he was hot (I'm mostly les but he was) and looked for an excuse to pass him by in the living room. She was wearing trackpants and socks but she ran into her room to get changed and when she went down the stairs she wearing jeans with no socks. This was so bizarre for me that she would consciously choose to expose her feet as part of an outfit to look good for someone she liked because in her situation I would have been shy and actually put shoes on.
Of third, I worked as a cop for years and when we arrested someone we would sometimes take the shoes before they went to a cell. If they were drunk they would take the socks as well. This seemed like a violation to me and when I was myself arrested I felt more humiliated by having my shoes taken than being put in handcuffs.
I have long made peace that I am the weird one but I want your perspective.
Can you relate with any of this at all? Does seeing a barefoot person or being barefoot in present of others mean nothing to you? I simply need to know!
I was so disappointed. Everyone's fetish was lame and normal and I lost my nerve.
But now I'm doing it. I hope. If I don't read back and delete it with my shame.
Kids, strap in because this will be a wild rant. I have a complex relationship with feet. I find them ugly to look at and don't want you to touch me with them. And I get aroused when other women are barefoot. Not by the feet but by them being barefoot. And the world is a strange place for me.
I don't have a foot fetish per se because I don't like looking or touch feet so I don't identify with the foot fetish people but I don't feel normal either. I get aroused seeing cute women barefoot around me and I get shy being barefoot around others. I am always hyper aware when someone around me is barefoot or vice versa, I feel more vulnerable when someone has shoes and I do not. Because lots of people say they hate feet but act completely normal when people are barefoot around them I cannot figure out how people view the bare feet or if they even acknowledge them in their own heads. I sometimes avoid wearing ballerinas or other shoes without socks if I think I might have to remove them in front of people even though I don't think my own feet are particularly ugly but I have no problem being barefoot if I'm doing a sport and it's part of the uniform or if I go swimming.
Three examples of this come to my head.
Of first, I was watching TV with my dad when a character was lying on her bed barefoot with her feet up while talking to someone. My dad did not react but I was so self conscious like I was watching porn with my family that I wanted the ground to swallow me. I had to also pretend this meant nothing to me.
Of second, when my sister and I were teenagers we were in my room and we heard my brother's friend come in downstairs. My sister thought he was hot (I'm mostly les but he was) and looked for an excuse to pass him by in the living room. She was wearing trackpants and socks but she ran into her room to get changed and when she went down the stairs she wearing jeans with no socks. This was so bizarre for me that she would consciously choose to expose her feet as part of an outfit to look good for someone she liked because in her situation I would have been shy and actually put shoes on.
Of third, I worked as a cop for years and when we arrested someone we would sometimes take the shoes before they went to a cell. If they were drunk they would take the socks as well. This seemed like a violation to me and when I was myself arrested I felt more humiliated by having my shoes taken than being put in handcuffs.
I have long made peace that I am the weird one but I want your perspective.
Can you relate with any of this at all? Does seeing a barefoot person or being barefoot in present of others mean nothing to you? I simply need to know!