I didn't say you were being childish, YOU were the one that made the comparison to a kid's mentality on the subject. I personally disagree with that comparison anyway, given my own personal awareness of my own sexual tastes as a very young kid. I'm not a neuroscientist so I can only speculate, but I would just say that your brain, when it was growing and laying down wirework, didn't wire into the sex/pleasure centers of the brain in some way. It's not a problem, though given your other comments about your struggles with solipsism and disassociation disorder, it might be related in some way? *shrugs* CT scan and MRI's probably would be enlightening in that regard. Regardless, it doesn't matter on a social level, if a single person isn't into boinking, so it's ultimately irrelevant.I guess, I don't really think I'm being childish by not liking sex, I don't know how people normally feel about sex as I've never been interested in it, but if I could hazard a guess however people feel about the people they aren't attracted to is how I feel about everyone, that's probably a better explanation, except I also just don't like sex in general.
I'm not really sure what happened with this bit of your post? You quoted me, and then apparently someone else, and then started saying 'I don't want to debate if being ACE is queer, considering I said nothing of the sort in my post you quoted? So...yeah I have no idea what this response is about. It feels like you quoted me, but replied to someone else. The part you quoted was just me describing what you described as your physiological reaction to being picked up. It sounds a lot like what those of us who do have sexual desire, do experience in those first moments with a potential lover/partner. I mean I literally read what you said happens to you biologically when you get picked up, and it reminded me of how I would feel when I'd get close to someone for that first hint of a kiss, or intimate hug or whatever.Sounds like you might be an ACE. And a rather hardcore one at that.
Hardcore ACE isn't a term I had heard before, but yes I do consider myself to be asexual, if you want the terminology that we use in the community it's Sex repulsed Aromantic Asexual, I just didn't mention it because I know some people here really hate people mentioning queer stuff, so I felt it was better to just explain it, I guess.
I also don't really want to get into the debate of if asexuality is queer at all, it's a waste of time.
My only point is that it doesn't seem, at least on some level, to be any different than the rest of us, or at least my reaction anyway. So it's not that weird. Because when you and the OP talking about these things, you both constantly seem to try and qualify your comments, like you expect to be attacked from all sides. Like, as some of you have actually said, are "a freak." And, what you described, seems pretty standard, you just don't move beyond that point or whatever.