Is there a term for this? Please explain.

[Chester41585]

Cylon.

 

[lostclause]

Go with being different, you're holding yourself up against a normal that doesn't exist.

 

[nicholaxxx]

We are all different, my friend. If anything: EMBRACE the individuality. You're different, not defective. We all are

And sorry, I cannot think of a term to suit this particular situation.

Spoiler: just remember

Spoiler: or the alternative

 

[Wasurenagusa]

I kinda know how the author feels...
I have this sensation that I am meant for great things that transcend anything that life has to give me.
A while ago, I played with the thought of killing myself just so I can see what's on the other side (not out of depression or sadness, but sheer curiosity.)

I'd probably call it extreme-eccentricity, but whatever ^^;

 

[Crow T. Robot]

New guy, I know exactly how you feel. I'm struggling with something very similar to the point where I have trouble sleeping fairly often. The only thing I can say that has helped me is just acceptance and affirmation. I typically spend time with a few close friends doing something we all enjoy, which in our case is usually Rock Band. It has lessened these feelings somewhat, and I know it'll get better with time. I hope this helps.

 

[MortisLegio]

So here's the deal. For as long as I can remember, I've always have had this nagging feeling that I was different somehow. Not different in a good way, but more so in the negative. Whenever the thought would occur, I would just naturally shrug it off and do my best to ignore it, but lately it has been increasingly difficult.

The single best word I can describe how I feel is "Defective." As in I'm somehow a defective human being. As far as I can tell, there's no reason for me to think this, there was no cause, no reaction to something that started the thinking, I just do and I'm not sure why.

Perhaps a metaphor for this might help in me trying to illustrate it. Imagine a triangular block being forced through a square hole. It will almost fit, but not quite, it's simply just off.

I just cannot shake the feeling that something about myself is just "off." Like I said, it has been more and more recently been causing me to think about it lately and doesn't seem to be fading anytime soon.

I wish I could describe it better, as the descriptions I provided don't seem to do it justice.

For anyone who might know a thing or two about this kind of stuff, is there a specific term, or rather a term that closely resembles symptoms like the ones I mentioned?

welcome aboard... i have that same feeling

 

[Guy32]

Defective is very general. I can't say I know how you feel, but I know I feel different. I don't want to tell you to tough it out in case you acctually have a disorder. Best of luck.

Half-jokingly: you have or have not been hypnotized before?

 

[ShotgunShaman]

Take a few deep breaths, and eat some warm cinnamon toast.

 

[delet]

I'd take feeling like an outsider or defective rather than the thing that always comes up for me.

Imagine forcing yourself into a conversation about everything you hate which eventually devolves into the meaning of life and where it all leads up to...

uhm... I guess you simply feel that you don't fit in with anything? I could relate.

 

[Sightless Wisdom]

I know what you mean, but as many have already said, that's a normal feeling. It's just that everyone is different(sounds lame I know but fuck it), there is no norm for humans. If there was....the world would suck even more than it already does.

 

[Sacman]

Maybe your developing split personalities I felt like something was "just off" when I did... or it could just be paranoia that was developed from the pressures of society and the standard that others held you up to but it's just a guess... remember if you black out for extended periods of time, have excessive wait lose, experience lost time, or have a feeling like being in a dream like state you might be experimented on by aliens...

 

[Lord Thodin]

Define off mate. I am "Defective" in the sense that when all my friends start to adopt each others mannerisms i keep my own. So that makes me defective in that group of friends but there is nothing "Wrong" with it, ya know?

 

[Sneaky-Pie]

A lot of good responses here and I appreciate it.

Unfortunately, I'm unable to further describe the feeling due to myself not being able to put it into words better. I'll probably end up seeing my university's counselor and hopefully I might be able to further sort this out.

Again, thank you for all of your input. Definitely some things to think about.

 

[TheRightToArmBears]

The difference between you and me is you think there's something wrong with you, where I know there is someting wrong with me and am thusly diagnosed as basket case.

 

[Arrogancy]

Sounds like you have Compulsive Depressant Mentality Syndrome. A condition that I just made up which includes constant self-influenced negativity, thoughts of being lesser or inferior to those around you, and general feelings of being flawed. A more common term for this condition is "Being Human". (Post note: anyone caught using the term I just invented will be sued to the fullest extent of the law.)