I've made quite a few "I'm depressed for reason x" threads on here in multiple different ways. I've found people calling me a shitbag for a dozen pages or so really helps. I'm not being sarcastic. When I have to defend myself to strangers, I actually have to place some value upon myself and it distances me from the depression. Therapeutic trolling, but I'm not in that mood right now.
I just miss a girl. I've missed her for a long time, possibly before I met her and even when I was with her. I can remember how she kissed, how her skin felt, and her smile. I miss staying up until 2 talking to her. I miss catching up, talking about movies, and being there for each other. She was the only real friend I've ever had. Some days I'll be fine, then I'll be sitting on the couch crying when something random reminds me of her. I'm addicted to chat roulette and I search almost every night for another girl like her (that's how we met). I always end up doing something I regret and feeling crappy about myself. I'm very lonely. Regardless of the multiple people telling me to snap out of it, get "out there," and live my life, I can't. I can't/won't get therapy for it and I have no idea how that would even help. It's a lonely town/state/country/world. Nowhere to go. That one girl might be as good as it gets for me. Sad is sad. Hopeless is hopeless. Unemployed is unemployed.
Right now I'm listening to Leonard Cohen. Not early Leonard Cohen. That would be suicidal. Older Leonard Cohen gives a nice texture to my pain. It's the old man voice of a guy who lived a full life and singing about lost love and dying soon and accepting it. If it's really manic crazed pain, I've found forcing myself to read a book helps.
I also go on that Crisis Chat website and talk to those people, but I've gotten cut off a time or two and there can be a wait. They're never on Sundays, which are always the worst. They never solve your problems, but I've gotten to venting and crying so much that whatever chemical in my brain that comes out when crying numbs the pain to the point where I can't feel anything anymore. It's not a good feeling, but it's not pain.