I'm gay. Actually, I'm an MSM - that's the medical term, a man who has sex with men either occasionally or solely - since 'gay' is actually a sociological term that refers to a sub-culture I frankly find seedy and surprisingly narrow-minded for a group ostensibly founded on the basis of a common experience of discrimination. You know, like geek culture except with better drinks and worse music.
As to the why, this is something I've read up a bit about since it tends to come up a lot in the inevitable "gays are unnatural" shitstorm that marriage equality threads devolve into and I like to have some links to studies bookmarked, to drop science on the haters like nukes on Hiros(- what, too soon?)
While I can't say I definitely HAVE the answer - I'm not a geneticist, neurobiologist or behavioural psychologist - the evidence I've seen does overwhelmingly support the idea that homosexual behaviour has its roots primarily in our development and biology. I think it has behavioural aspects of course - human sexuality is too complex an asepct ourselves to pigeonhole entirely - but there's been a lot of really interesting work done in studying the genetic, neurological and hormonal aspects of it. Which all leads into the final question about personal experience and attempts to 'change'.
I knew from quite a young age that I was 'different' in a way I really didnt' want to be. I was already a bullied kid at school and when I realised I was attracted to guys, that was a bit hit to me and something I really tried to do something about. I tried straight porn, I tried getting romantically involved with girls, but it was like trying to get a fish to breathe air. It was something I was born with/as, something that I spent years trying to change and failed.
To be perfectly honest, if there was a magical "make me straight" button I could push and redo my entire life with that one change? I probably would. The second playthrough would be much easier and I probably would be happier. The world does not make it easy on gays, especially through adolesence.
As to the why, this is something I've read up a bit about since it tends to come up a lot in the inevitable "gays are unnatural" shitstorm that marriage equality threads devolve into and I like to have some links to studies bookmarked, to drop science on the haters like nukes on Hiros(- what, too soon?)
While I can't say I definitely HAVE the answer - I'm not a geneticist, neurobiologist or behavioural psychologist - the evidence I've seen does overwhelmingly support the idea that homosexual behaviour has its roots primarily in our development and biology. I think it has behavioural aspects of course - human sexuality is too complex an asepct ourselves to pigeonhole entirely - but there's been a lot of really interesting work done in studying the genetic, neurological and hormonal aspects of it. Which all leads into the final question about personal experience and attempts to 'change'.
I knew from quite a young age that I was 'different' in a way I really didnt' want to be. I was already a bullied kid at school and when I realised I was attracted to guys, that was a bit hit to me and something I really tried to do something about. I tried straight porn, I tried getting romantically involved with girls, but it was like trying to get a fish to breathe air. It was something I was born with/as, something that I spent years trying to change and failed.
To be perfectly honest, if there was a magical "make me straight" button I could push and redo my entire life with that one change? I probably would. The second playthrough would be much easier and I probably would be happier. The world does not make it easy on gays, especially through adolesence.