Please don't take this as trolling, because it's not meant to be.
I cannot take a person thinking of commiting suicide seriously. I haven't been there, I've never been depressed, and I've lost so much that even my family wanted me to go to a therapist even though I was always laughing and having fun.
The woman I was with for 7 years, from my freshman year in highschool, till my sophmore year in college, had me kicked out of the hospital the day our son was born. (Luckly I had just turned in the paper work so he got name I was wanting for him) I to this day don't know why. When I took her to court for custody, she was quoted saying "I grew up without a father, my son can grow up without his" which in retrosepct didn't help her at all..
So within 24hours I lost not only the love of my life, but also my son, who I didn't see for 8 months. Then I was arrested when trying to pick him up from her house because she said I threatened to kill her family and had a cop waiting for me, he searched my car and found a pocket knife in my glove compartment and that was used as evidence. I was held for a week no bail. Though charges were dropped I'm still on a 1 year probation because of it.
The whole time, I hadn't let myself get down.
Life isn't about learning to wait out the rain.. it's about learning to dance when the storm rages around you.
Find that silver lining.
In jail I met up with two strong Christian guys and they helped my faith grow.
The time I spent fighting for my sun I met a great woman, who I am now not dating, but the time I had with her was so much more fun than the 7 years I had with my baby's mama. She let me know that relationships don't have to be so mundane..
We got into a mall after it was clsoed and just walked around for an hour, untill security kicked us out. (the movie theater was still open so we used that entrance)
We went to savannah and made love in a hotel suite that I would've never wen to with my baby's mama.
I bought a 04 Subaru STI and drag raced and did autocross and almost flipped it down a mountain.
I lived for once.
Depression takes up to much energy, to sit around and ponder the knife (I own about 300) or the gun (3 of them) or the pills (my brother can litteraly get anything) or just driving my car of a moutian where people die ever year. It'd look like an accident.
But think about th people you leave behind. Your parents, your brother, your real friends. The people who care about you will be the most hurt, the ones who hurt you the most won't care.
Why put your family through the pain of having, to bury you, to miss you, to wonder what they did wrong. To cause them to hurt because they are blaming themselves.
TL
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Don't do it, there's so much more you can do with life if you use it. It's the longest thing you'll ever do, so don't waste the potental you are and have because someone left you and someone won't talk to you. You're 17, I was out of the house at 16, working and finishing high school. But you'll get better, life always looks up when you try.
I cannot take a person thinking of commiting suicide seriously. I haven't been there, I've never been depressed, and I've lost so much that even my family wanted me to go to a therapist even though I was always laughing and having fun.
The woman I was with for 7 years, from my freshman year in highschool, till my sophmore year in college, had me kicked out of the hospital the day our son was born. (Luckly I had just turned in the paper work so he got name I was wanting for him) I to this day don't know why. When I took her to court for custody, she was quoted saying "I grew up without a father, my son can grow up without his" which in retrosepct didn't help her at all..
So within 24hours I lost not only the love of my life, but also my son, who I didn't see for 8 months. Then I was arrested when trying to pick him up from her house because she said I threatened to kill her family and had a cop waiting for me, he searched my car and found a pocket knife in my glove compartment and that was used as evidence. I was held for a week no bail. Though charges were dropped I'm still on a 1 year probation because of it.
The whole time, I hadn't let myself get down.
Life isn't about learning to wait out the rain.. it's about learning to dance when the storm rages around you.
Find that silver lining.
In jail I met up with two strong Christian guys and they helped my faith grow.
The time I spent fighting for my sun I met a great woman, who I am now not dating, but the time I had with her was so much more fun than the 7 years I had with my baby's mama. She let me know that relationships don't have to be so mundane..
We got into a mall after it was clsoed and just walked around for an hour, untill security kicked us out. (the movie theater was still open so we used that entrance)
We went to savannah and made love in a hotel suite that I would've never wen to with my baby's mama.
I bought a 04 Subaru STI and drag raced and did autocross and almost flipped it down a mountain.
I lived for once.
Depression takes up to much energy, to sit around and ponder the knife (I own about 300) or the gun (3 of them) or the pills (my brother can litteraly get anything) or just driving my car of a moutian where people die ever year. It'd look like an accident.
But think about th people you leave behind. Your parents, your brother, your real friends. The people who care about you will be the most hurt, the ones who hurt you the most won't care.
Why put your family through the pain of having, to bury you, to miss you, to wonder what they did wrong. To cause them to hurt because they are blaming themselves.
TL
RDon't do it, there's so much more you can do with life if you use it. It's the longest thing you'll ever do, so don't waste the potental you are and have because someone left you and someone won't talk to you. You're 17, I was out of the house at 16, working and finishing high school. But you'll get better, life always looks up when you try.
