I dunno. I've never been in a relationship. But I want to feel love. I've had a few admirers, and even just knowing somebody likes you, even if the relationship is destined to die and you'd be an idiot to let it happen, it's a great feeling.
Unfortunately, though I lack the balls to go chat to girls without feeling like a sleaze. I also want to be in a relationship out of fear of being alone. Then again, I also fear my lady-friend messing up my life too much and throwing away stuff I'm sentimental to. Why do I fear that? Let's just say it's a quirk of my mother.
A relationship'd be a great way to interact with a human each day that I like and feel attracted to. I often feel I'd rather be a societal recluse than have to interact with human beings every day, but honestly, It's a stupid thought. I'd get depressed quite quickly, I'm almost certain.
Let's just say if I won the lottery, I'd get a modest house, and fuel my interests, but little more. If I had a girl by the time that happened, that's probably the only way I'd ever find somebody that truly likes me for me. That's why the prospect of winning the lottery is both brilliant and terrifying to me.
VeneratedWulfen93 said:
Society constantly telling us we should be in relationships, that only losers don't have girlfriends/boyfriends and a futile sense of companionship in a world where love is accepted as an actual thing. There some of the bull reasons we are fed by films, magazines and even family.
I to see no reason for them. The emotion of 'love' is beyond what I understand and I do not believe it exists.
DUUUUUUUDE.
DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUDE!!
GOD.
SUCH A DOWNER.
Don't take this offensively, I take it from the fact that you said love is "beyond what you understand", are you in some way on the autistic spectrum? Really, I don't mean to offend if this isn't true, I just think it's the only way I can explain your brilliantly alternative thinking. Either that or you're just asexual. Or neither. Maybe you're just you. And that isn't bad. We know so little about the brain as of now that you could be correct, maybe love is just another chemical. But then again "hunger" is a very physical phenomenon, hunger is bad for us, yet just because it's not a measurable sensation doesn't mean it's not there.
Maybe I read too much Yeats or Donne poetry. Probably.
I feel I may regret this post A LOT.