...And as a tiny voice in this mountain of posts.
I'm not into the "overtly" sexualized feminine image that mass media portrays. Big breasts just seem out of place sometimes, and really; I prefer athletic women body types anyways (which happen to have smaller breasts anyways in real life). Although that might be 'cause I want the girl to be my hero, rather than me be her hero; for reasons so convoluted my cracked psyche can't comprehend them all. Also, I seem to prefer my women with more clothes; as opposed to less, and am utterly opposed to dresses and skirts. And what do I want in a first date from the girl of my dreams? I want her to beat me in a duel, or save me from a mugger, or punch some guy in the face for insulting me.
In short: I seem to have a reversed idea of what the gender roles in my relationships should be.
Even worse, every time a few friends drag me off to a bar, they keep trying to set me up with some blond or other highly feminine "party girl"; and they are always annoying as hell. I don't look at them, I am not attracted to them. And often I don't even want to speak to them as any comfort they might try to give me would only open up both old and new wounds rather than give any healing effect at all.
In other words: I hate society's idea of women, as it makes women into something I don't want them to be; while also keeping me from a girl I might actually like.
I want a girl with drive, a powerful strength of will. Someone that can push me forwards when I can't stand alone, and can inspire me to move forward when I have no idea what I am fighting for. One that can stand with perfect focus on the task at hand, and all questions beyond the here and now disappear in her presence. And probably most importantly, she must have some overpowering competitive drive to do better than the others around her.
...
I have not seen one girl like this, in media or in real life that matches my idea of what my perfect girl should be. So not only is society's idea of women wrong, but I'm probably wrong in what I want them to be too.
...And at this point somebody will probably reply with a "forever alone" face. 'Cause that's what it feels like sometimes.
And now I'm going to go obsess over Rainbow Dash as my only source of comfort.
I'm not into the "overtly" sexualized feminine image that mass media portrays. Big breasts just seem out of place sometimes, and really; I prefer athletic women body types anyways (which happen to have smaller breasts anyways in real life). Although that might be 'cause I want the girl to be my hero, rather than me be her hero; for reasons so convoluted my cracked psyche can't comprehend them all. Also, I seem to prefer my women with more clothes; as opposed to less, and am utterly opposed to dresses and skirts. And what do I want in a first date from the girl of my dreams? I want her to beat me in a duel, or save me from a mugger, or punch some guy in the face for insulting me.
In short: I seem to have a reversed idea of what the gender roles in my relationships should be.
Even worse, every time a few friends drag me off to a bar, they keep trying to set me up with some blond or other highly feminine "party girl"; and they are always annoying as hell. I don't look at them, I am not attracted to them. And often I don't even want to speak to them as any comfort they might try to give me would only open up both old and new wounds rather than give any healing effect at all.
In other words: I hate society's idea of women, as it makes women into something I don't want them to be; while also keeping me from a girl I might actually like.
I want a girl with drive, a powerful strength of will. Someone that can push me forwards when I can't stand alone, and can inspire me to move forward when I have no idea what I am fighting for. One that can stand with perfect focus on the task at hand, and all questions beyond the here and now disappear in her presence. And probably most importantly, she must have some overpowering competitive drive to do better than the others around her.
...
I have not seen one girl like this, in media or in real life that matches my idea of what my perfect girl should be. So not only is society's idea of women wrong, but I'm probably wrong in what I want them to be too.
...And at this point somebody will probably reply with a "forever alone" face. 'Cause that's what it feels like sometimes.
And now I'm going to go obsess over Rainbow Dash as my only source of comfort.