I'm unmotivated- Even when I know things are important, I just don't feel very driven to do them. I would say lazy, but I do mean to do things, it's not that I don't care. I'm a massive underachiever- I tend to come across as intelligent (and I was pretty much top of the class in everything except PE when I was younger), but I am an exceptionally average student.
I have no self-esteem- I put this down to being the youngest of three boys, I got picked on a lot (I wouldn't say bullied, but I did get treated like and incapable moron for most of my childhood). I guess I just feel like I suck a bit compared to normal people. Everything I do always turns out wrong, and it is always my fault.
I put myself into a weird catch-22, I kinda think there's something wrong with my head, but the other part of me thinks I'm being a melodramatic douchebag because I don't have to confidence to believe there's something wrong with me rather than that I just suck (and yes, I think writing this is being silly).
Insecure- I'm a teenager, so of course I am, but this kinda comes from being picked on again. I was a bit overweight (not even fat, just a bit podgy really, like kids tend to be) and so I got called fat a lot. Even though I'm in great shape now (I have a 28 inch waist, I'm apparently 'skinny' according to my flatmates(, I still feel like I could stand to lose weight.
My social skills are terrible- Although improving since being at university. I'm just awful at making conversation, even with close friends sometimes. I get by just interjecting with the odd joke or adding to conversations, but the ability to hold a one-on-one conversation eludes me.
I am a bit of a hipster- I'm not a full blown hipster, but I have hipster tendencies. I like things that are different, sometimes purely for the sake of their uniqueness. I own a lot of odd hats, I have this old corduroy jacket that I bought in Camden market that I love, when it comes to music I find myself saying 'I much prefer the early stuff' or 'you probably haven't heard of them' a lot (I try to avoid it though). I just get a kick out of not doing what everyone else is doing, I can't deny that.
Hey look, I'm practically the same as most Escapists. There's a surprise.