I think I might have erectile dysfunction. Actually, I don't just suspect, I'm pretty sure. Maybe it's from my kidney disease. Maybe from the ever bloating number of meds I take for my kidney disease, fair number of beta blockers and other blood pressure stuff in there. Maybe from the stress on my life from dealing with slowly failing kidneys. Maybe from the strain it's been putting on my relationship with my girlfriend. Maybe a wombo combo of all those things and more. Long and short of it, my trouser monkey has been more pygmy marmoset than gorilla as of late.
"Dafuck you telling us for? Go see a doctor and/or therapist", and yes, you're right, and I will asap. But currently I am deeply frustrated, unfathomably horny, stressed the fuck out and also a little bit absolutely livid because I've asked the doctors treating me numerous times what I could expect in terms of symptoms, but that one was oddly never mentioned, even tho it's apparently extremely common for men in my condition. So yes, will talk to doctor. Will be somewhat less friendly than usual tho. And hoping that something can be done, like getting Sildenafil scrip and that it helps, cuz 2-5 years of this would be pretty damn flaccid.
In the meantime, I just wanna vent about it, even if it is a tad embarrassing.