Are you....?

[anthony87]

I'm honestly not sure. I'm in college but I've no idea what I want to do with my life. I push away people who try and get close because I overthink things and convince myself that it'd just end badly anyway. I seem to lack ambition, which really pisses me off.

But I'm not unhappy. Maybe content is the word I'd use to describe myself? I've no idea but I know I'm not unhappy.

On the other side of the coin, I'm not hurting for money. I see my friends often enough. I'm living comfortably more or less. I'm just lazy is all so it's by no means bad ^_^.

 

[3quency]

At the minute I'm doing okay.
Last year was pretty shitty but mostly for reasons that'd make me sound like a whiner.
But yeah, income, friends and a comicon this weekend so all in all not too bad thanks.

 

[Woodsey]

I'll be happy when I don't have to read about the bloody Irish Church Act of 1869 again.

A-Levels are poo.

 

[darksuccubus]

Well... I'd say no. Minor problems include having to re-sit an exam or else I'll fail the course, which drives me insane because I really don't want to disappoint my parents after all they've done for me. One major problem that bothers me is that I've never been in love. I'm not talking about sex, I am quite indifferent towards it, I mean the feeling of love itself. I'm 20 and I never felt it and the scary thing is, I don't feel the need to be in love. I feel perfectly comfortable being alone, which probably indicates how utterly egotistical I am. So that bothers me more and more, especially since I started going to uni, where it's considered a bit weird to be single. Also, I often feel the need to just live somewhere with no technology, in the place with endless summer and few animals (maybe even someone I love, when and if that happens). But then I remember such wonderful things like gaming, internet an so on and I understand that I couldn't exist without it. And then I get angry at myself for being so pathetic and then I try forget about this wish. I'm not saying that I always feel that way, this only happens when I have nothing else to think about, but when I do, I feel like crap.

 

[Thundero13]

Right now this second I feel happy enough, which is about as happy as I get, though a lot of the time i'm fairly sad, no reason for it of course, I have everything in life I could possibly need or want, I guess i'm just a hopeless case who'll never be happy, oh well, moments like now when I feel ok make it all worth it I guess =)

 

[Burst6]

well on one hand

I'm overweight
ive never had a girlfriend

on the other

i have a great family
I'm doing pretty well in college and i have a good future as an engineer.


so.. well I'm not exactly happy. More satisfied. Yeah someone else in this post said that you can't use happiness in this situation because there are times that I'm happy, but not all the time. I'm almost always satisfied though.

 

[bullet_sandw1ch]

aside from my religion teacher [yes, i go to a catholic/cristian school] automatically failing everyone so she dosent get fired [she used to give 100s across the board, so they gave her a probation, where if she gives a grade of 100 shes automatically fired].

 

[The White Hunter]

I am very unhappy. I am too hot and very tired, also overburdened with work from placement and desperate for some time off and some good sleep for the first time this year.

I'm relatively content overall though.

Captcha: ginned up...

I wish.

 

[doomspore98]

Actually, yes. I have an amazing set of friends, I just got into the best math and science highschool in the state, and I have some amazing parents. School is about to finish up, and I'm looking forward to next year. Even though it's been a pretty stressful year, it's been one of the best in my life.

 

[Broady Brio]

I'm not constantly smiling. But I know it could be so much worse, so I tend to not complain about my 1st world problems.

 

[DoomyMcDoom]

I've done terrible things, things which haunt me, no matter how hard I've tried, I haven't been able to escape them...

Every day I wake up wishing I hadn't, but my life is not mine to take, I have debts to pay, and damnit I will pay them before I die.

Now, am I happy you ask? Well considering my attempts at happiness all ended in either grievous injury or job loss, or both... putting me in a worse position than when I started, no, I am not happy, happiness is ill befitting of the poor, and ill befitting of a monster, therefor I am not happy, nor will I likely ever be.

So yeah, on the plus side my life's been so much of a shitshow that nothing seems capable of suprising me, and I barely feel anything anymore, so it could be worse, the self loathing and the constant emotional stress of having a mind full of nothing but chaotic noise, hateful shouting and a cacophony of screams is kinda... alright, I guess, it doesn't torment me as much as it used to, or maybe I am too used to torment.

But hey, even though my bright spots were short and ended in pain they were worth it, I got to be a cocky, happy-go-lucky chick magnet for about a year, then I woke up and it was all just... there again... So yeah, I wish happiness on others, and I can give a whole whack of advice in a lot of ways, for a lot of things, simply because, yeah, I've been there, unless you want advice on how to spend your millions, and are uninterested in helping those in need, in which case you're on your own.

I've studied people for a long time, I know a lot about human nature, and behavioural patterns, and the effect of perception, I'm quite able to act like I'm happy/content, and make others believe it, even when I really really am not.

Some might say "Seek professional help" I have, out of 4 different "professionals" 3 prescribed medication that made it worse, and one was stumped and even at one point got fed up and said to me that if I didn't want to live, maybe I should just kill myself... yeah, reeeeeaaal helpful.

Now, sure I'm probably going to get a ton of "just kill yourself" responses to this, but even I know that suicide is not an option, I owe too much to too many, and I figure if I'm going to die, it isn't going to be until I at least make sure that my death won't screw over everyone I care about, or if I get run over randomly or shot, but that's not me killing myself, that's incidental death, not like I can control that.

 

[Yopaz]

I've got some financial problems. I apply to about 10 new jobs each week and so far I have just had contact with one of the places I applied and I didn't get it. I am very busy with other things, I feel like I have made a very wrong direction in my life and that I will soon have to face that I have picked the wrong line of education. I'm single and don't think I will ever be in a relationship for more than a few months.

Then there's coffee. Then there's new games coming up. Then there's my friends. Then there's the awesome weather we're currently having. Most of the time I guess I am happy or at least content. Right now things could be better.

 

[Nemesis729]

I'm happy in pretty much every field except one, Women, I am 18, in community college (Going to transfer after I get my associates) And things have been going pretty well, however, the other day I realized something. Excluding cashiers, Waitresses, and my friends girlfriends, I haven't even spoken to a girl since last summer, almost a year.

Just saying that kinda bums me out, but then I just laugh at how sad it is XD

 

[Palademon]

If I finish recovering form my 6 week virus by thursday I will be quite happy indeed.
It's my first exam and my birthday.
Right now I feel pretty good.

I've got a bit of stress though because I have to deal with exams and I still haven't made my final university choices since each of the 3 Video Games courses I have approach it differently and their grade requirement is not reflective of the quality of each course. Luckily I've got extra time since I made an edit to one of my choices. But even with time I can't think fo a reason to choice one over the others, or to remove one to choose the others as firm and fallback.

Once I get to university and manage to become independent without having to marry my toaster, I will be on my way to living my dream!

 

[zelda2fanboy]

Nope, not happy at all. I have no friends, no girlfriend, and I make minimum wage working three days a week at a job I hate. They hire more and more irritating people that make my job harder and make me look dumber by association. I've gotten passed over on other jobs to people who didn't graduate high school. One of my coworkers didn't have his GED when he was hired, but he started making more than me, even though I've been there for four years. My employer is doing poorly and blames us, while closing more and more stores and adding more and more responsibilities. I'm 25 and I feel like a burden to my parents. I feel like I'll never be able to support myself, even though I have a bachelors degree in business. I hated college just like I hated every other school I was forced to go to, just so I might have a chance at a future. Now it's like I'm stuck in a neverending P.E. class.

I lost my virginity three months ago to a girl I met on porn chat roulette. Talked to her for about four months beforehand on skype and fell in love. I was happier than I've ever been. The sex was amazing, but shortly thereafter she deleted me on facebook and won't talk to me anymore. I still love her. I cried and cried and cried. I was looking for jobs where she lived, but I never found one. Now that she's gone, I not only have given up applying there, but anywhere. Seems so pointless to keep trying. I hope I get fired every week. I want to quit, but I have that loan for my useless education hanging over my head. It isn't even that much, but I can't pay it with as little as I make. That sticks with you your whole life. The only way to get out of a student loan is death. And if I lost my job tomorrow, I'd probably be out of work the rest of my life, given my track record. I've only managed to get one job interview since I graduated and I didn't get the job.

Most of my college friends are gone. I never liked them anyways. I don't know how to meet more people, so I'm isolated. I take walks all the time just to get away from the internet and video games and the indoors.

I really don't think this helps. I've talked to crisis chat people online and I've talked to strangers and I've used these forums and I've blogged about it. The only thing I haven't tried is a therapist, but a shrink can't live your life for you. It costs money I don't have anyways. The general consensus is that I should "get out," but there's nowhere for me to go. I've endured life for so long amidst promises that "things get better" and I assure you they do not. If anything, they've gotten worse and they weren't that great to begin with. If I had a time machine, I'd murder my younger self to keep me from experiencing the horrors that awaited me.

It's not my parents' fault my life sucks. I've finally gotten them to realize that it does. They feel real bad about it, but there's nothing they can do. Now I feel like an even bigger asshole for telling them, but I have no one else to tell except for strangers on the internet. And like I said, this ain't helping.

 

[Lunar Templar]

"I can't complain, but some times i still do. Lifes been good to me so far" - Joe Walsh

Spoiler: in case you donno who that is

I'd say it fits for where I'm at right now

 

[Mr Cwtchy]

I get by. Finishing up college this year, and soon I'll have to apply for next year's course(costing in the range of £400 I might add), and I've also got to get a part time job(I've never worked properly before), and start learning to drive.

It's rather daunting frankly, and on top of my usual issues(self esteem issues and the like) things don't seem likely to get more fun.

 

[Combustion Kevin]

I'm actually incredibly content, thank you for making me realise that.

now, if only I had someone special to share this joy with.

 

[SovietSecrets]

School ends this week, got accepted into my university, Diablo 3 and Max Payne 3 next week, 4 months of summer to laze around. I am quite happy.

 

[jackpackage200]

Currently, no. Last week I took a midterm in my math course and I know I bombed it. What's frustrating is that my professor had decided at the last minute to Change up the test to include stuff we were barely introduced to the class before the test. This would have not been so bad if he emailed the class about the changes to the test.

I also am not happy with my current living situation. I live with my mom and her boyfriend. He is devoutly Christian which means he hates gays, violent video games, the theory of evolution , and anything he considers liberal propaganda. So I do not feel welcome in my own home. He is also very condescending

On the other side, my relationship with my dad has never been better than ever and I love and cherish my friends.