Visiting my parent's home is weird, I haven't done it in a year and even though that's about normal for me it feels like it has been longer than ever.
I hate it to be honest, it's way too crowded here (I have 2 brothers and one sister, I'm the only one that doesn't live there and don't have good relationships with anyone) and I feel like I can't have a minute to myself, there's noise all the time and I can't avoid getting into arguments with my mom every other moment, like I have to choose between letting her weird passive aggressive comments slide or just argue with her pointlessly, besides considering what my Internet activity has been recently I feel extremely self-conscious about anyone seeing it so I mostly just don't bother with the Internet, because I don't want them looking over my shoulder which is very much something they would do.
I mean to be honest It's just my second day here and it's nowhere near as bad as I thought it would be considering all that's happened and I've had some interesting conversations with my dad (Who's the only one aware I'm seeing a therapist, though he doesn't know why), but you know I still hate it, that's why I'm not there right but I'll have to be back soon, I can't believe I'll be staying here for the rest of the year, that's going to suck.