Poll: Does everybody wish they were not alive?

[zelda2fanboy]

i know that feel OP, I am in the same boat, got a pretty good life by any standard, but i just don't want to be here, its not about the quality of life or anything like that, you just don't want to exist, its hard for other people to understand these feelings OP, all i am doing is going through the motions waiting for the day i finally die.

On a really messed up, but slightly positive note, we're all going to die anyways whether we're looking forward to it or not. So unlike all the "happy" people on this thread, we're eventually going to get what we want. Actually puts a figurative spring in my step.

The thing to know is that you absolutely must DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. Wallowing in self-pity doesn't solve anything. Not trying to be harsh (well, maybe a little, but not in a mean way), but this shit doesn't go away on its own, at least not for very long. See a doctor, get counselling, try as many of the huge number of medically-approved therapies out there as you can, consider medication if you and your doctor both think that would help. And force yourself to live your life. Talk to your friends, your family, your neighbours. Pursue hobbies, keep up the exercise, look after yourself, do as much work as you can, even if it's only a tiny bit. I know these things can all seem impossible to someone who's depressed, I really do, but you have to keep trying.

Either way, you may not want to hear it (I know I didn't) but it's down to you and you alone to change yourself. Doing nothing is not an option.

I actually have looked into this before. The problem is that I have very limited health insurance, so I'd pretty much have to pay for any "help" out of pocket. In my conversations with the friendly people on the suicide hotline chat thing online, I've gotten a few numbers to call, but it just seems impossible. When I'm feeling good, I don't feel like I'd ever have to call and when I'm feeling bad, I don't want to do anything at all. I didn't really intend this as a depression thread, but considering I spent the first hour of work crying behind some boxes, there may be something to it. I'm fine now and I don't feel like I want to die because I "feel bad." I want to die because I don't like myself, the life I'm living, nor would I want to live anyone else's life. I'm just sick of it.

 

[Blobpie]

I just wish i had super powers......

 

[New Frontiersman]

Oh... sometimes. Sometimes the stress and uncertainty of of life just gets to me and I just wish it would all go away. Sometimes I feel depressed and unhappy and I don't want to get out of bed and it's like I'll never be happy again. But it's not all the time. It gets better, it does for me and will for you too.
I know school can be tough, but it's not forever. Things look bad now but, and you might not believe it, but things will get better for you soon.

 

[Jedoro]

If I wanted to be dead, I'd put my shotgun's muzzle in my mouth and pull the trigger with my toes. Given that I've had at least a year to do so, I must want to be alive. Or at least, I don't desire to be dead.

 

[370999]

I might think it or say it but that's because I'm a drama queen. Never really sincerly thought it.

 

[Flizzick]

I only drank the anti freeze to find out what it tastes like!

Not good, not good at all.

 

[Master Kuja]

Fuck to the no.
I'm facing difficult issues, I've got problems, much like many people, but does that mean I wish I wasn't alive? God no.

I used to think like that, but now? Now, if I even entertained that possibility for a second, I would be letting down and betraying so many people.
And besides, life's too short as it is, why spend it being miserable about everything that could possibly be shit, when you could spend it being happy about everything that's good?

Even if the good comes once in a blue moon, it's enough to make me want to hold on to everything I have.

 

[Daverson]

Not in the implied sense, though one can't deny the obvious advantages that stem from not being traditionally "alive".

I mean, you can't kill a dead man, can you? And kids these days, they didn't play Quake! They don't know how to stop something you can't kill!

(Srsly though, if you're finding yourself in a point where you're contemplating suicide, get help. You might think it's best if you just end it all, but it isn't. It never will be.)

 

[Vicarious Reality]

Twenty procent? Good god, either there is a lot of non serious people or things are far worse then they seemed to me
Easy to imagine how certain things transpire now

Now i start to wonder about the legality of having suicidal thoughts

I am in what might quite be the worst situation i have ever been, except for when i changed schools to seventh grade and almost went insane

 

[Cecilthedarkknight_234]

I do wonder what if I was never born, I have never wished or wanted myself dead. Also I wouldn't be posting in this thread if the op wasn't alive in the first place, think about that for a minute.

 

[Canadamus Prime]

No, not currently. There was a time when I did though.

No

I occasionally wish I could reroll the dice on a few aspects of my life however.

Yeah, that'd be nice.

 

[Cpu46]

Well seeing as I am staring down the possibility of failing 2 classes, which would send my GPA under a 2.0 for a second time, putting me on the list for academic termination (Expulsion by any other name). No. Can't say I do wish that.

Sure the fact that I had a teacher who put 3 questions at the beginning of the final exam that determine whether he grades the exam at all is not a good experience, dealing with my family after this semester is going to be tough, and my heart currently feels like it is taking a vacation next to my colon but I wouldn't trade these moments for anything. Even bad experiences are experiences that I am lucky to have.

 

[Headsprouter]

I generally refer to this state as "ennui", which is a rich white way of saying boredom. Pretty much you're in a state where you've got a nice enough life that working hard isn't a matter of life and death, but you also lack any sort of job motivation and interest. I've been there myself and it sucks. Basically, This is the time where you find out what you want to do with yourself. Set goals for the future; Try to find out what kind of work you enjoy or what you are good at, then surf the internet for local opportunities in said areas. I don't know what sort of schooling you've completed, but look back at what you've subjects you've studied and see what you liked. If nothing sticks out, try doing some sort of not-for-profit or volunteer work. Just the experience looks good on a resume and it'll help you make contacts and perhaps help you find something to be passionate about.

INB4 accused of emo-ness.

The word!
You found my word!
I have been trying to remember it for weeks!

OT: Yeah.....life is crappy when the prospects are bleak.... And I'm still in school, I apparently am not supposed to feel disillusioned.
It's especially crap when everything you do is surpassed by people smarter than you. I despise people who seem to be talented in every aspect of life. Not really as an outward thing, but more like: "I am a poorly bred and under-evolved human compared to you. You leave me no competitive edge in life." They just....make people like me feel absolutely worthless. And everything else besides me is so....screwed up, too.

But I'm working hard in acedemics and my extra curricular activity, so I won't be left in the dust.
And my extra curricular activity, is my independent self-teaching to become a CARTOONIST. And it's going well, mind you.
But otherwise, I lack ambition. But even a bland soul like me presses on. So should the OP. I have enough good things to help me ignore the bullcrap.
We need a song by Queen, here.

 

[Sleepy Sol]

Sometimes I do wonder what it would be like for other people if I had never existed.

However, I'm here, so I might as well stay a while. So no, I've never really wanted to die. Too much to live for.

 

[Dogstile]

I honestly just think i'm to damn curious. I want to know if there's anything after. That would be nice to experience if there is, but then i'd be curious about the next stage, etc.

 

[zelda2fanboy]

Oh... sometimes. Sometimes the stress and uncertainty of of life just gets to me and I just wish it would all go away. Sometimes I feel depressed and unhappy and I don't want to get out of bed and it's like I'll never be happy again. But it's not all the time. It gets better, it does for me and will for you too.
I know school can be tough, but it's not forever. Things look bad now but, and you might not believe it, but things will get better for you soon.

I wish people would stop saying that. I've been out of school three years. If anything, it's worse because now I'm free and responsible for myself. And with all this freedom and responsibility, I'm stuck in a dead end miserable dangerous job for minimum wage. Imagine getting paid to go to P.E. and it was your only source of income. If I had bought into that "it gets better" bunk when I was still in school (that phrase didn't exist yet), I would have offed myself years ago. Make no mistake, bullying and threats from authority figures don't end once you get out of the education system.

My point is that holding "it gets better" over people's heads only disappoints them more when they are let down. Don't worry, high school is better. Don't worry, college is better. Don't worry, real life is better. If I recall correctly, each new section sucked more than the previous. And don't tell me "retirement is better" because at this rate, I will never ever be able to retire.

The last secret "it gets better" activity I hadn't experienced was sex and I managed to do that a few months ago. Don't get me wrong, sex is nice, but it is absolutely devastating once you realize how few people are willing to do it with you. Especially if you loved the only person who would and she never talks to you anymore. That sucks, too.

 

[Tazzy da Devil]

Nope, I love being alive. Mostly. Yeah, I go through some down times, but overall, it's pretty good.

 

[Risingblade]

Hell no, my life is pretty comfy.

 

[MPerce]

Not really, no.
There are times life sucks, and times it rocks. As a whole, I find the whole experience intriguing and awesome, and am interested to see what happens to me next, whether it's good, bad, or meh.

 

[gigastrike]

What would I do otherwise? Not being alive would be boring.