Love? What's that? Maybe I am, maybe not, I don't know what it's like.
Maybe you can tell me, hmm?
Once upon a time I was in elementary school (grades 1 - 6), we had a kinda special group. Normally they break up the class into several different schools after sixth grade, but they kept us together all the way through secondary school (grades 7 - 9) as well. So we had a little more "cohesion" than normal groups. So there was a girl, from 5th grade onwards I felt I kinda liked her, never said anything of COURSE. When we left ninth grade I KNEW I liked her, but I didn't think I was good enough to say anything. She wasn't posh or anything, but I was a little bit of a ragdoll. SO: we lived in the same neighborhood(ish), sometimes on our way to (or from) our respective schools we would pass each other by, and whenever we did she would always smile and wave, and I had to laugh. Seeing her kinda made my day, very rarely would anyone wave enthusiasctically (or at least it seemed like she did) when I saw them, and so on.
But then we moved "conveniently" out of the way so I really never saw her again.
BUT: over the next 8 years I would occasionally run in to her unexpectedly. Very rarely though, sometimes a couple years would go by. But every time it happened we would talk, and then she would disappear again and I would always wonder if I ever saw her again. Because she never left my mind, for 8 years people kinda came and went but SHE always stuck, in my mind that is. Get this: one day I get a letter from one of the girls, they are gonna have a class reunion. I never thought they would actually arrange it but there it was. I didn't want to be THE example of a failure that they perhaps expected, so I didn't go. But I knew she was gonna be there and now I'm wondering if I made a mistake! So then I run into her in the library and ONCE AGAIN we talk, she disappears.....shit. I panic for a week, but then I get an idea: facebook to the rescue and I guess she's the only reason I'm on facebook. A few messages back and forth but DAMN is she a lazy facebook user! Ok, so it's do or die time, she can't escape from me this time, but after eight years....what's it worth? To her?
So there's my dilemma. Come on people I went through the trouble of writing this, I deserve something in return!!
Everything above is true and I am serious.