Dear Final Fantasy,
This is really hard for me to say.
There are times when I think back on all those late nights, just you and me. Young, in love, becoming wrapped up in all kinds exciting new experiences... Nothing can rob me of those memories. Nothing can change what we had back then.
I've wracked my brain so many times asking myself where it went wrong, but that doesn't really matter anymore. There's so much emotion wrapped up this, and, well, I'll never get this out unless I resort to a colder approach, so that's what I'm going to do.
Here goes.
I've changed. I'm not the same person I was when we fell in love. New things have come into my life. I've had new experiences. I've grown and changed a lot in the past ten years.
Also, you've changed. Again, I've wracked my brain trying to pin down exactly what happened. Maybe it was when your dad left, though you shouldn't hate him for it. It really was your mom who drove him away... I can still remember that night she whispered, "I hope Sakaguchi dies in a ditch on his way home tonight."
Anyway, I had thought that you could move past it, but instead I'm struck with this overwhelming feeling that you've lost yourself. You seem to be obsessed with re-living your past while at the same time trying to completely re-invent yourself. You don't seem to know who you are anymore.
Maybe you just need some time to figure yourself out. Maybe your mom has gone off the deep end and is dragging you down with her. I don't know.
What I do know is I can't do this anymore. I can't stick around while you figure yourself out. If you find what it is you're looking for, if you find yourself again, look me up. Until then, we have to go our separate ways.
Take care of yourself and I wish you nothing but the best.
Goodbye,
remnant_phoenix
